Idoil week 4 : Sexual Ethics
I've been around the block, and I'm not ashamed to admit it. It's a common religious belief that you should only have sex when you're married. It was also a common belief of mine that I would never get married. So at an early age, I said "screw ethics" (literally) and got laid as often as I could. And you know, I don't regret a single person, a single act, one damn thing. Sure, some may look down on me. They may say I cheated my future husband out of having a virginal bride, but I lived my life to the fullest.
I lost my virginity to my first love, someone who'll always have a place in my heart; and I would never take that back. I celebrated graduation by sleeping with my best friend.Had sex with a friend while others watched, gave road head, had a three some with a guy and another girl, I've done it all. Sometimes I look back on that guy I slept with on the first date and never saw again, and I wonder, did I cheapen myself? Did I cheat the love of my life out of something? All I can see though are his lovely green eyes, and I can't see how I was wrong. I think of my still good friend, who held me as he slept and comforted me when I needed it, and I'm glad we shared those experiences. I tell people my "number" and then explain that I could tell you the full name of every one of them, still talk to most, and could at least give you the contact info of the others.
Do I feel like I'm any different than the average slut? Not really, but every choices I've made has brought me to where I am. After road head guy, I joined a dating site because I was tired of it. After I had another failed relationship with a man I'd slept with while watching Ghostbusters, I went back to the site, and there I met the love of my life. I'm all grown up now, and what I did back then is in the past. I love my boyfriend, and I can't imagine sleeping with anyone but him, but there were fifteen guys before him, and one woman, and I'll always have a connection with each one. Would Zack have preferred me as a virgin? Maybe, but then I probably wouldn't enjoy him spanking me as much ;)
I lost my virginity to my first love, someone who'll always have a place in my heart; and I would never take that back. I celebrated graduation by sleeping with my best friend.Had sex with a friend while others watched, gave road head, had a three some with a guy and another girl, I've done it all. Sometimes I look back on that guy I slept with on the first date and never saw again, and I wonder, did I cheapen myself? Did I cheat the love of my life out of something? All I can see though are his lovely green eyes, and I can't see how I was wrong. I think of my still good friend, who held me as he slept and comforted me when I needed it, and I'm glad we shared those experiences. I tell people my "number" and then explain that I could tell you the full name of every one of them, still talk to most, and could at least give you the contact info of the others.
Do I feel like I'm any different than the average slut? Not really, but every choices I've made has brought me to where I am. After road head guy, I joined a dating site because I was tired of it. After I had another failed relationship with a man I'd slept with while watching Ghostbusters, I went back to the site, and there I met the love of my life. I'm all grown up now, and what I did back then is in the past. I love my boyfriend, and I can't imagine sleeping with anyone but him, but there were fifteen guys before him, and one woman, and I'll always have a connection with each one. Would Zack have preferred me as a virgin? Maybe, but then I probably wouldn't enjoy him spanking me as much ;)