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Dann ist nichts mehr, - Schweigen und Nacht. Aber der nachschwingend im Schweigen hängende Ton, der nicht mehr ist, dem nur die Seele noch nachlauscht, und der Ausklang der Trauer war, ist es nicht mehr, wandelt den Sinn, steht als ein Licht in der Nacht ( Read more... )

You don't fall in love by chance / You choose.

(Pet Shop Boys, You Choose)

That's one scary, scary line, all the more so because I rather suspect there's a lot of truth in it.

Ich weiß, daß du es nicht darauf absiehst, mir Grausamkeiten zu sagen. Aber findest du es nicht grausam, mich wissen zu lassen, daß ich nur aus Unmenschlicheit bin was ich bin, und daß Menschlichkeit mir nicht zusteht? Grausam und gedankenlos, - wie ja Grausamkeit immer aus Gedankenlosigkeit kommt? Daß ich mit Menschlichkeit nichts zu tun habe, ( Read more... )

Boring week... work, work, horse-sitting, more work (R. being on holiday), some tv watching, attempts at writing.

I've been reading Fontane's Effi Briest and I'm still in two minds about it... For the greatest part I thought it was a very well-written, well intentioned, if by nature of its subject-matter necessarily somewhat dated, novel, but I ( Read more... )

My attention span is all but non-existent these days. Pathetic.

( During my one and a half week holiday I read... )

We barely remember who or what came before this precious moment ( Read more... )

Someone tell me I don't have to work tomorrow. Pretty please? Where did the weekend go so fast...

A propos the last entry: It's funny how the memory/subconsciousness stows away things and brings them up again, neatly by-passing the conscious mind:
The deeper they ventured the more it seemed he was treading not among the echoes of the world, but ( Read more... )

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For many, many years he had been unable to open his mind fully to any man or woman at all, and at times it seemed to him that candour was as essential as food or affection: during most of this period he had used his diary as a kind of surrogate for the non-existent loving ear - a very poor surrogate indeed, but one that had become so habitual as to ( Read more... )