122 : It's not negativity; it's reality.

[solerika]

Depressing thought processes:

⇝ consider making new friends. look at current friendship statuses. realize the futility of it.
⇝ think about what to ask for. know nothing that can be had will make you happy.

Comments

[not_klonoa]

>: Trying to make friends is never futile, Sol. If I never got into contact with you, we'd never have met and I'd have never had such an amazing best friend like you. ♥ Friendships are tough things, especially in the start up process, but they can blossom into strong and everlasting bonds with luck and the right interests and personalities.

Don't give up so easily, sweetie, you could make some super awesome friends next time. And if not, I'm always here, and I always will be for you. ♥

[solerika]

It just feels like it some days. Everyone has pretty much abandoned LJ, so IM is my only other option and I don't handle it well. T___T I'm almost certain it's my own fault there's nobody for me to talk with, but I'm not sure what I'm doing wrong. Maybe I'm just not compatible with anyone, lmao.

♥♥♥ CURSE MY SLEEPING FAIL FOR KEEPING ME FROM YOU \;A; It sucks being the only one awake at night. DX

[not_klonoa]

Yeah, I understand. I haven't exactly abandonned LJ, I jjust...really suck at updating my own personal one. 8D; Mainly because I hate talking about my personal life and anything else I tell to my main circle of friends over IM anyway. And don't leave me on AIM, I'll cry. ;A;/ Because I love talking to you, you make me smile.

And it's probably wacky timezones and your sleeping fail, not you. :I You need a regular, human sleeping schedule, man. Try doing something that'll burn out your energy and get you to go to sleep at an earlier hour. That's probably why you stay up so late, you've got energy that you're not using. |D; Heaven knows that's why I go to sleep so early now. I wake up early, go to work for eight hours, then come home and want to just DIE. Thank the gods I have three days off after 6pm today. \|'D/

And I'm praying that Sheri isn't FLS today. 8T I got my first break after THREE AND A HALF HOURS of working. I love the woman, she's a sweetie, but she's a crappy FLS.

/rant

[solerika]

Which is a shame since I'd love to know more about you. \;w; It's easier to feel close to people when you share troubles along with happy moments, yeah? :'D alskdfl yaaaay~ Hopefully enough to counteract all the weird things I say. 8D;;;

Yeah, I know. One night of not being able to sleep from back pain and my schedule is blow to hell. X< I am so, so, so tempted to put all the money I can aside for a backyard pool. Swimming is the only exercise I've found doesn't cause me to hurt after five minutes. And hurray for free days! \8D/ /will bug every day X)

...you'll have to explain what a FLS is. 8D; I know CSM and DM, but not that one. |D

[nijiiro_koori]

I WANT TO BE YOUR FRIEND, ALWAYS AND FOREVER~ ;A; I haven't abandoned LJ either, just failing like hardcore keeping up on it.

Ugh...I really am trying to stop being such a failure. -__-; Sometimes I feel like I barely have anyone left to talk to, I get so lonely...and I'm so much of a chicken when it comes to talking to people and making friends, or keeping them. >_o; Not to mention I seem to be out of the loop with virtually EVERYTHING these days, that definitely doesn't help. I feel so boring. orz; /emooooo

But this isn't about me, SORRY I GOT DERAILED. But lets talk more again...somehow! About something! I MISS YOU, SOL! T_____T; I feel like I keep telling you this...XD

[solerika]

THEN YOU SHALL ALWAYS BE MAI FRIEND~ \;A;\

Haha, it's okay, silly. You at least post enough that I can chat with you and don't feel like you're a stranger that just so happens to be linked to my account. :Bb BUT ACTUALLY, what you're describing is pretty much how I feel as well. :x Unless people are super open/friendly/whatever, I always worry that I'm intruding or annoying or unwanted or... you get the picture. .__. I'd totally comment to you more, but it seems I keep repeating the same dumb statements, like "OMG I LOVE UR ART 8DDD" which is true but! /broken record <<;;;

WE CAN ALWAYS WHINE AT EACH OTHER! THAT'S TALKING! WE SHALL BE EMO BUDDIES \8'D/ I'm so boring too, if that helps. I clean the house, play games with dad, and draw. That's it. No life, nothing going on. No goals, no hopes or aspirations. My life is a void. :/ Come live with me so we can talk all the time~ \xD/