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[sodapopsmash]

i am on my p and it's making me want to kick and scream and cry and rant about how inadequate i feel

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[meganvansant]

hey, i feel the same way. i wish we could spend more time together, it seems like our lives are so different and we both have busy schedules. i'm always here for you though, although i have no phone currently. love ya. you're perfect.

[sodapopsmash]

love you too, meg. and i am also always here for you, even when we are wrapped up in separate lives. -xo

[nervedamage]

i would love to hang out with you, really. i dont mind popping into phx, im there often anywhoo

[sodapopsmash]

that would be awesome. i am about to leave for seattle for a month and a half, but i'd love to get together when i get back.

[lustfortonality]

I really wanna hang with you when I get back to AZ. I always kick myself when I think how we havent hung out more. I have always wanted to spend more time with you and it never seems to happen. So yeah. We are friends and I am in AZ. So there. Im just not in AZ at the moment.

[sodapopsmash]

hurry home and let's catch up.

[___bare]

I always feel like this, too :(

[sodapopsmash]

it's such a bummer. a lot of the time it doesn't bother me because most of the time i actually prefer to be alone. i like being alone a lot. maybe cause i am so used to it. but every now and again, i realize that being alone sometimes isn't really a choice ha. i'm alone all the time because i don't have anyone to spend my time with even if i wanted to. wahhhhh!

[blameonmame]

i often feel like this too but i guess from a slightly different angle. all of my "close" friends live here, but i never see them. not a single one asks me to hang out. everyone talks about this "close knit circle of friends" i am supposedly a part of but not a single member of that circle attempts to include me and they never really have. i feel as if i have constantly had to invite myself to events, trips, and have to force my presence on my friends. i'm especially scared that i am a "small doses" friend and this is why nobody wants to hang out. it is hard for me to make new friends because of this fear too. i try to make an effort with you though because you're great. i feel like i relate a lot to you and you and i have never had an awkward moment or ever had to force conversation or a good time which, considering how little time we've actually been friends, is rare for me. i hope you don't think of me as just one of jason's friends because i care about you a lot and hold you really close

[sodapopsmash]

hahaha, i want to dress all my cats up as 70's icons. like elton john and freddy mercury. Bill can be the fat girl from the mamas and the papas.

thanks jen. I definitely don't think of you as just one of jason's friends. I am thrilled that because of jason and I dating, I have had the opportunity to become closer to you but i definitely consider you one of my friends and although we don't hang out nearly enough (which will change so soon when we are neighbors!) I hold you really close to and look forward to years of friendship with you.

and as far as you not feeling good enough.. it's so hard for me to imagine you feeling that way. i think you are so perfect.

have you listened to your tape yet?!