i did let my guard down for the first time in a very long time.
i got burned for it.
but at least we'll stay friends... i think. i mean if i want to. i don't know.

part of me just wishes to erase the last month or so
actually all of me

i've come out of this with a handful of new friends,however, and i'm happy to know them.
right now i'm in a stomach ( Read more... )

fuck you for lying.
fuck me for believing you.
fuck this day.
fuck my life.
fuck ever letting my guard down ever again.

i dreamed of someone smelling my hair, smelling it and telling me that it smelled just the way it should.
just the way he liked it. it surprised him. it captivated him. it was riveting and heavy, and we were soon one.

then a girl took pictures of me in a yellow gown and i was glowing.

 http://news.cnet.com/8301-17938_105-10164232-1.html

buy me this 4ecuador plz

yesterday all i wanted to say was just burning a hole in my mouth
and i know we're at a split
i'm not sure about  you and this
all i do know is that i do feel for you
i find myself missing you a lot more than i ever had anticipated

oh jesus
what have i gotten myself into?

today i received an awakening phone call from the last person i ever thought would worry about my life.
i realize that i'm not taking enough responsibility for myself lately.
i realize that i do need to go to school more than one day a week to graduate.
i realize that i haven't been myself and that i'm sort of falling apart.
i realize that i have ( Read more... )

life dances through cycles, and i am at a high point in mine.
things kept getting worse until they just got better all at once, the way they always do.

shaking hands (or even not shaking hands), s'in b's, crazy hair at all times, below freezing weather, nice slicin' on the daily, indian man who says i have a beautiful soul, lack of boston in my life ( Read more... )

i didn't update once in december ( Read more... )

reunited with the other half and feelin pos ( Read more... )

BASICALLY:

first of all, you are supposed to be one of my best friends. until now i would have trusted you with nearly anything. i've seen you almost every fucking day since last march.

secondly, i thought you were better than that. this just shows me the person i thought you were when i first met you. it burns me up to think i could have gone this ( Read more... )