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From: oceansex
Title: Attachments
Rating: NC-17
Summary: No one suspects that his aim to get back to Sasuke is anything more than sheer stubbornness. But it is more than that, and it has been since that night he spent with a girl in a brothel, wishing she was Sasuke.
Warnings: Gratuitous musings on sex. Mentions of het sex. Masturbation. Man-on-man sex. Basically, this is terribly, terribly naughty. Naru/Sasu/Naru.
A/N: I AM SO HORRIBLE AT STICKING TO THE PROMPT I AM SO SORRY. I took the "growing up parallel in Konoha and Sound" part of the prompt and just ran with it. This should probably be considered a slight AU because I have a horrible handle on the timeline concerning character ages vs actual events that take place, I altered some of the conversations from canon, and they have sex more than they fight. But other than that, I hope this is to your liking. :)
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Attachments

It's Naruto's fifteenth birthday and Jiraiya decides the best gift is to make a brief stop on their way back to Konoha. They end up in a small town with a name Naruto doesn't bother to remember that smells strongly of sex and cigarette smoke. They wander around for a bit until Jiraiya tugs him to a stop, gives him a handful of money, shoves him towards the local brothel, and tells him to have a good time. He promptly runs off after that -- probably around back to see if he can get some free peeks at naked women -- leaving Naruto to lose his virginity on his own. Which is probably for the best, now that he thinks about it.

Naruto stares at the money in his hand before glancing up at the brothel entrance, where two extremely buxom and curvaceous women have appeared and started calling him over with sweet words and tantalizingly small amounts of clothing. He looks back down at the money before shoving it in his pocket and walking away, wondering what his chances are of finding a ramen shop that tastes at least half as good as Ichiraku.

It's not that he doesn't want to lose his virginity. He's an adult now, and this is what every ninja and kunoichi does, unless they have a boyfriend or girlfriend back home -- sometimes, even then -- but he feels something akin to guilt whenever he looks at the women who sell sex for a fee. He guesses that if they knew what he was, they probably wouldn't sleep with him no matter how much money he offered.

Maybe that was the reason Jiraiya took him here, though. Because when he gets back to Konoha, he definitely isn't going to get laid. Everyone there -- that isn't a part of his old team or went through the chuunin exam with him -- still looks at him like the beast that destroyed their village fifteen years ago. No one wants to have sex with a monster.

He stops in the street, letting out a heavy sigh, and pulls the cash back out of his pocket, staring hard at it. If this was his one shot at losing his virginity -- or, hell, having sex ever, because he can't really think of anyone who would willingly allow his penis anywhere near them, let alone inside them, without being paid for it upfront -- he figures he might as well go for it.

He turns around and starts to head back towards the brothel when something catches his eye and he freezes.

"Sasuke," he breathes, and he can't really believe it, but he swears he knows that hair and that face and those eyes, and he breaks out in a run across the road until he tackles the boy through several trash cans, into an alley and against a solid wall.

But as he catches his breath and the pounding of his heart in his ears begins to quiet down, he realizes that the boy pinned underneath his hold is a stranger. He's unconscious now, and Naruto drops him as if he were a rotting corpse, stumbling backwards until he trips over the trash cans and scrambles back into the road. No one pays him any mind, as they're all probably used to foreigners making a mess of their streets, wasting all their money in gambling establishments or whore houses and just acting strange in general.

He tries to shake off the sudden jitters that come with the rush of adrenaline in his veins, and walks quickly back towards the brothel. He could've sworn it was him, but of course it wasn't. It couldn't have been. The town is too close to the Konoha border, and after hiding for three years, he wasn't going to suddenly appear for no reason.

Naruto reaches the brothel and the two women from before are still there, giving him coy smiles now as he hands over all the money in his pockets.

"Welcome, welcome," a brunette whispers against his ear, tugging him inside, "We are here to make tonight the greatest you've ever experienced. Do you have a preference for who you'd like to spend the night with?"

The woman walks him into a large room that smells of too many different kinds of incense and burns his eyes. He doesn't bother taking in much of the room's decoration, though he manages to notice that it's very red. There are girls scattered all around, some tall, some short, with varying hair colors and breast sizes. He thinks of Sasuke and where he could possibly be and tells the woman he wants a girl with short, black hair and brown eyes.

That night, Naruto loses his virginity to a girl who tells him her name is Kimi, even though it probably isn't. Her hair is silky and dark and he buries his nose in it over and over again, and if she's in the right light, her eyes look almost red. The sex isn't all that spectacular, but then again, he doesn't have much to compare it to. The noises she makes beneath him nearly turn him off completely, but he manages to keep from losing his hard on and keeps thrusting away until he comes, grunting against her neck. They don't do it again, and they don't say anything, both of them pretending to be asleep until Naruto actually manages to drift off a few hours later.

He wakes up in the morning to an empty bed and a queasy stomach, feeling far older than fifteen.

Jiraiya greets him as he staggers out of the brothel into the bright sun of a new morning. He slaps him hard on the back and asks, "So, kid, get your money's worth?"

Naruto stares at his feet for a second before shrugging and starting towards the village gate. Jiraiya looks on after him in thought for a moment before nodding sagely, as if he's figured out the reason for Naruto's gloominess. He catches up in a few large strides and grabs Naruto by the shoulder, squeezing gently as they leave the town together.

"Ah, sentimental type, are ya? Well, don't worry about it, everyone loses it this way. Consider it practice for the girl you like."

Naruto immediately thinks of Sasuke and his gut starts to feel heavier and heavier the closer they get to Konoha.

Hundreds of miles away, Sasuke doesn't touch anyone else any more than he has to, so when it comes to sex, it's strictly with his hands. In his room at Orochimaru's hideout, he reaches into his pants and strokes his stirring erection lazily. He isn't necessarily horny, but he neglects his cock for the most part, but eventually it does demand his attention.

He thinks of his first time -- with some random woman in Sound, whose face he can't even recall -- how it felt being inside someone else, and remembers it being fairly underwhelming. But then he thinks of his first kiss, and his cock jumps in his hand and he bites back a groan. His eyes widen and he stares at the wall in horror.

'No. Absolutely not,' he thinks, but it's too late because he's already thinking about blue eyes and blond hair and that big, stupid grin, and his hands start moving of their own accord.

It's the second night into their trip to find Sasuke, and Naruto waits until Yamato and Sai are asleep before he manages to finally ask Sakura what's been on his mind.

"Um, Sakura-chan, have you ever... y'know... had sex--"

Sakura interrupts him by punching him the face, sending him flying several feet into wall of Yamato's wooden house. It takes him a minute to stumble back to the fire, being sure to sit across from her this time so he'll be able to see the next punch coming and, hopefully, avoid it.

"Ow, Sakura-chan..." he grumbles, rubbing at his cheek. He tongues one of his molars and hopes he's just imagining the sudden looseness of it in his gums.

"I am not. having. sex with you," she hisses, and even in the dim firelight he can tell her face is bright red.

"What? No! That wasn't what I was asking!" Naruto protests. Sakura eyes him warily for a moment before shaking her head and sighing.

"Fine, then. What were you asking?"

"Have you ever... um... y'know... had sex with someone, but, uh, been... thinking of someone else while you were doing it?"

Sakura stares at him, and he feels himself shrinking away, already regretting bringing it up, but after a few seconds she nods.

"Sure. I mean, who hasn't?"

"Sakura-chan, you've had sex?!" Naruto whispers, as if it's suddenly a forbidden word.

"Yes, you idiot. Why would you even ask me about this if you thought I hadn't?" she scoffs, rolling her eyes.

"Yeah, but-- Sakura-chan, I can't believe you'd-- With who?"

"I'm not telling you who, you freak. And stop staring at me like I've committed genocide or something. It's just sex."

Naruto crosses his arms and pouts, upset that his Sakura-chan is already having sex with strange boys, but then he realizes it isn't really fair to complain when they both probably did the same thing. And it was just sex, even if the idea of some man on top of her made his skin crawl.

"Well, when you were thinking of someone else, was it... another girl?"

Sakura looks up from her nails that she's been trimming with a kunai and stares.

"Are you asking if I've had lesbian fantasies to fuel your own lesbian fantasies?" she asks, absolutely deadpan.

"No, no, no! When I did it, I thought of another guy, so I was just wondering if that was weird or something," he answers in a rush before realizing what he's just admitted.

"I knew you were gay," a voice says, and both Naruto and Sakura jump before whipping around to stare at the sleeping bags where Sai is staring back at them. He breaks out into an eerie grin before Naruto lunges at him, and they tussle for a bit before rolling over Yamato and waking him up. He keeps his promise and tosses them in a wooden cage for the rest of the night.

Finally meeting Sasuke is nothing like what Naruto had imagined. He's taller, paler, and his hair is longer, though he still looks pretty much the same. But his eyes are hollow and his voice is so deep it sends shivers up and down Naruto's spine, and then Sasuke's standing right next to him, arm around his neck, in his personal space, and all Naruto can think is, 'He's not the same. He's not the same at all.'

He doesn't even seem to notice when Sasuke tries to kill him, or when the others start fighting around him. He wants Sasuke back, he wants the old Sasuke back, but he's nowhere to be found and slowly the voice of the fox starts welling up in his ears, promising to help if he just gives in.

But then Sasuke's there, sending the fox away, and Naruto can't do anything but stare at him.

"Hmph. To think a weak idiot like you contains the nine-tailed fox," Sasuke mutters, glaring down at him with spinning eyes of red.

"S-Sasuke, you--" he starts, but Sasuke grabs him by the neck and pins him against the wall.

"You're exactly the same. Stupid and weak and exactly the same," Sasuke hisses, and before Naruto can even realize what's happening, Sasuke kisses him.

The kiss is hard and almost painful, but Naruto grabs onto Sasuke and holds on tight, not wanting it to stop. He feels something solid suddenly pressing into his hip, and when Sasuke starts to move against him, he realizes it's Sasuke's cock, erect and desperate for release. They're still kissing, lips never breaking apart -- Naruto almost runs out of air before remembering he can breathe through his nose -- while Sasuke rubs himself off against Naruto's hip, and Naruto moans into his mouth as his own dick grows hard between them.

He tries to pull away, to tell Sasuke that he needs some attention, too, but Sasuke's hand is still gripped around his neck and he pushes him harder against the wall. His other hand takes Naruto's wrists and pins them above his head, leaving Naruto helpless and stuck as Sasuke keeps thrusting against him.

Finally, Sasuke breaks away, burying his face in Naruto's shoulder as he comes before dropping his hands away completely. Naruto falls to the floor, still hard and breathless, as Sasuke's eyes start to spin. A second later, they're no longer inside Naruto's mind, but back in real time, and the fighting starts again. It was all in his head, but he can still taste Sasuke's tongue as he kissed him and hear Sasuke's grunting as he came and feel the dampness as Sasuke spilled himself inside his pants.

When Sasuke disappears with Orochimaru, Naruto still remembers everything.

After escaping, Sasuke secludes himself and glares down at his traitorous dick.

It shouldn't have happened, but it did, and now all he can think about is the feel of Naruto beneath him and the heat of his mouth and how hard he came against him.

'So much for severing bonds,' he thinks before shaking his head, trying to get such ridiculous ideas out of his mind.

Naruto spends the next several months training and fighting the Akatsuki, steadily getting stronger and more determined to find Sasuke again and bring him home. In between training and battles, he spends his time in his apartment, remembering the feel of Sasuke's lips on his own. He doesn't tell anyone about what happened in those fleeting moments of frozen time, and even Sakura and Sai have managed to forget his accidental confession from all those months ago, so no one suspects that his aim to get back to Sasuke is anything more than sheer stubbornness.

But it is more than that, and it has been since that night he spent with a girl in a brothel, wishing she was Sasuke.

Sasuke slips further and further away from sanity after killing Itachi. He swears to destroy Konoha, avenge his brother and his clan, and then he'll kill Madara just because. Most nights, he dreams of a world without Konoha, where everyone he once knew is dead and he is free to start anew. But sometimes he dreams of dragging fingers through blond hair and the warm taste of Naruto on his tongue that he's never quite forgotten.

"Sasuke... Do you remember what you said about being a first-class ninja?"

'A first-class ninja can read his opponent's heart just by trading blows with him once. Even without saying a word.'

"Sasuke... Did you read what was in my heart, too?"

When Sasuke leaves with Madara and Zetsu, the image of Naruto before him is the last and only thing he sees. He did read what was in Naruto's heart -- even if they hadn't exchanged blows, it was written all over his face -- but he thinks he's too far gone to care.

It's Naruto's sixteenth birthday when they meet again, standing atop the Hokage Monument, just the two of them. Not too far away, Madara and his tailed beasts are fighting Killer Bee and a small army of Konoha shinobi, and soon they'll be after Naruto, too. But for now, as far as either of them are concerned, the world consists only of each other.

"I told you before. I'll kill you first," Sasuke says solemnly.

"And I told you that if we fight, we'll die together," Naruto smiles.

"You're a fool. I'll kill you and then destroy all of Konoha," Sasuke shouts back, hands already sparking with chakra as they clench into fists.

"This village has survived bigger threats than you, Sasuke. You can't exterminate it no matter how hard you try. Just like you can't stop me."

Naruto holds out his arms and grins. Sasuke sneers as the pupils of his brother's eyes start to spin.

"Come on, then, you big jerk. Bring it on."

The ground erupts as they push off with dangerous amounts of force, lunging towards one another with hands bursting with chakra, and when their attacks collide, the earth beneath them quakes and shudders.

The force sends them both reeling backwards, crashing into broken rocks and dirt. Naruto gets up quickly, but Sasuke is already on him, the air crackling as he prepares another Chidori. Naruto barely gets his head out of the way, but feels the attack ripping through his shoulder and cries out in pain until he gets a foot under Sasuke's stomach and kicks him off.

Naruto jumps after him, grabbing him and pulling him down to the ground, pinning him even with his torn up shoulder. He takes a deep breath as Sasuke struggles beneath him, and forces his chakra inside Sasuke.

He isn't a medic, and he's never been trained by one, so it's a lot less smooth and a lot more painful than if someone like Sakura had done it, but Naruto sends his chakra streaming through Sasuke and sealing around his tenketsu, cutting him off from his own chakra. Sasuke howls in pain until Naruto's finished and falls off of him, both of them breathing heavy.

"What did you do?" Sasuke hisses, feeling the Sharingan deactivating.

"Used up all my chakra to get rid of all of yours," Naruto smiles, pleased that he succeeded.

Sasuke glares at him before grabbing him by the throat and falling on top of him, punching him in the face several times until Naruto manages to get a hold of his wrist and stop him.

"This way... it'll be a hell of a lot harder to kill each other."

"IDIOT," Sasuke shouts, trying to pull his arm free of Naruto's grip, but he's already being pushed down and pinned again. "Why won't you just fight me?"

"I keep telling you, if we fight, we'll both end up dying. I never had any intention of killing you, Sasuke, and I'm not too thrilled about the idea of dying, either. I don't want to fight you, and I'm hoping I won't have to."

"If you aren't going to fight, then get out of my way."

"What are you going to do with no chakra?"

"I'll get it back, and then I'll crush Konoha, and finally the Uchiha clan will be cleansed."

"Destroying Konoha won't 'cleanse your clan' or whatever, you idiot. You're just doing what Madara wants."

"Shut up, what do you know?"

"I know that this isn't what your brother wanted."

Sasuke freezes and his eyes go wide before they narrow even further as he glares upwards.

"Don't you dare talk about my brother--"

"I met him, and all he wanted was for you to be safe. I'll bet he knew Madara would manipulate you, which was why he asked me for help."

"Ask you for help? Are you retarded? Stop lying and get off already--"

"Sasuke, would you shut up and listen for a second? You're smarter than this. Don't make me start punching you."

"You're wrong. You're wrong. Itachi died because Konoha used him and threw him away without regret. Everyone deserves to be punished!"

"That's what a shinobi does, Sasuke! We offer our lives to serve our village. We are used however they see fit, because it's our duty. I don't know what happened, but I guess Itachi got a shitty deal, and that sucks. But he did everything so that you wouldn't end up stuck in the same position. So stop being dumb and realize you don't have to do this already!"

Naruto waits for an answer, a rebuttal, anything, but Sasuke just continues glaring up at him, saying nothing.

Annoyed, Naruto presses his knee between Sasuke's legs, grinding it against his crotch, and suddenly there's less anger and more surprise in his face as Sasuke lets out a gasp. Naruto moves Sasuke's wrists above his head, holding them there with one hand as the other reaches down and rubs at the stirring erection between his legs.

"Do you remember the last time we did this?" Naruto asks suddenly as Sasuke sucks in a breath. If he can't get him to talk about his brother, then he'll focus on something else.

"Get off of me," Sasuke grunts, but Naruto won't budge, and without chakra, Naruto's strong enough to keep him down.

"Do you remember?" Naruto asks again, bringing his face closer. He takes Sasuke's cock in his hand, already hard and straining at his pants, and strokes it through the cloth. Sasuke moans, desperate for more and horrified at himself at the same time. When he catches his breath, he spits at Naruto's face, hitting him in the eye. Naruto pauses, then slowly takes his hand away to wipe away the spit, and Sasuke almost regrets the loss of pressure, but takes this chance to grab Naruto's legs with his own and roll him over. In his surprise, Naruto's grip loosens and Sasuke takes his hands back, this time pinning Naruto beneath him.

Sasuke pulls an arm back, ready to start punching Naruto some more, when Naruto pushes himself up and kisses him, and Sasuke can't really think of much after that except needing to kiss back harder. The first thing he does is bury his hands in Naruto's hair -- the hair he's dreamt about for so long, and it feels softer than he'd thought it would -- while Naruto uses his newly freed hands to grab Sasuke's hips and pulls them down against his own, rubbing their erections against each other.

Naruto rolls them over again, and back on top, he pulls his mouth away far enough to ask Sasuke one more time.

"Do you remember?"

"Yes I fucking remember," Sasuke growls, reaching up to pull Naruto back down again, but Naruto swats his hands away.

"It wasn't really real, was it? It was all in my head. But you still did it. Tell me why."

"What does it matter?"

"It matters. I understand everything about you, Sasuke. Why you left three and a half years ago, and why you feel like you have to kill me and destroy all of Konoha now. But what I don't understand is why you did that to me."

"I don't know, alright?" Sasuke shouts, anger and confusion swirling around his dark eyes, "I jerked off to your face for months, and then you were there, and you were exactly the same as always, and I just-- had to."

Naruto blinks before letting out a laugh.

"Dude, no wonder Madara totally took advantage of you. You are an idiot."

Sasuke snarls at him but Naruto leans back down and starts kissing him again, diffusing the bubbling anger easily and grinning when Sasuke rolls his hips up against him. Naruto reaches down between them and starts tugging at Sasuke's belt, pulling it lose and reaching into his slacks. Sasuke grunts into his mouth when he feels Naruto's calloused hand close around his cock, stroking it once.

"More," Sasuke demands when Naruto takes his hand away to undo his own belt, but Naruto just bites him gently on the neck while he concentrates. It isn't until Naruto's freed his own dick and pressed it teasingly against Sasuke's that he realizes he's only actually had sex once, and with a woman at that.

"Um," he mutters, looking back down at Sasuke.

"What?" Sasuke snarls impatiently.

"I don't exactly... know what to do."

Sasuke glares at him for exactly one second before punching Naruto in his injured shoulder, sending him sprawling backwards as he wheezes in pain. He rolls around on the ground, trying to get his breathing under control so he can ignore the hurt a little better, when suddenly Sasuke tugs his pants down to his knees and straddles him.

"What are you--"

"Shut up," Sasuke barks, and Naruto eventually notices the hand he has reached behind him.

"Oh, wow, are you--"

"Shut up," Sasuke insists, wincing as he presses a finger inside himself. Naruto watches in awe as Sasuke fingers himself, loosening himself up in preparation. Feeling kind of useless, Naruto sits up and takes Sasuke's cock in his hand and starts to stroke it quickly. "Shit, wait--" Sasuke grunts, but soon he's groaning and coming all over Naruto's fingers.

"That was fast," Naruto blinks. Sasuke's too busy catching his breath to say anything back, so Naruto grabs his wrist and slowly pulls his fingers out. Using his dirtied hand, Naruto slicks up his cock before grabbing Sasuke's waist and lining him up, pulling him down onto his erection. Sasuke lets out a gasp, hands gripping almost painfully onto Naruto's arms as he slides further inside until he's all the way in.

"It's so tight," Naruto winces, but it's also incredibly hot and better than his first time with a girl and all those other times with only his fist. He feels something poking into his stomach and realizes Sasuke's hard again and has to bite back a laugh. Sasuke brings his hand into his lap and starts to slowly work himself, groaning into Naruto's neck.

"Sasuke. Hey, Sasuke," Naruto whispers against his ear.

"Nn?" Sasuke mumbles absently.

"How should I...?"

"Hard. As hard as you can."

Holding on tight to Sasuke's waist, Naruto starts thrusting up into him while grinding Sasuke's ass down into his lap. It takes a few tries, but eventually he gets the rhythm right as he starts thrusting harder while Sasuke strokes himself faster and faster.

For some reason, Naruto suddenly thinks back to a year ago, when he'd been so sure that no one, outside of a brothel in a town he'd never visit again, would have sex with him, because he was a creature, a monster that no one could or would ever love. But here he is, inside Sasuke, who is apparently in love with him but absolutely oblivious to it. So what if he has a monster inside him? He isn't the beast, he's just the poor schmuck stuck taking care of it, and he knows how to control it now.

"Hey, Sasuke," Naruto grunts, slowly lowering Sasuke onto the ground while staying inside him, the speed of his thrusts slowing down until he can angle Sasuke's legs over his shoulders.

"What?" Sasuke pants, fist still circled around his cock and stroking hard.

"I love you, okay?"

"You what--" Sasuke starts, but he loses track of whatever else he was going to say when Naruto manages to hit just the right spot as his thrusts get faster and faster. Naruto buries his face in Sasuke's chest as he comes, crying out loudly as he spills himself inside of him. Sasuke keeps tugging away at his dick until he comes again, stomach and hand now messy and wet. It takes them both a while to recover, and when they can finally breathe properly, Sasuke shoves at Naruto until he pulls out and falls back on his ass, hastily shoving himself back into his pants.

"Next time, I'm fucking you," Sasuke glares as he uses his shirt to clean up the come on his stomach.

Naruto opens his mouth to reply when a large crash reaches their ears and they turn around, noticing a sudden plume of smoke coming up from the forest in the distance.

"I almost forgot about him," Naruto mumbles. He turns to Sasuke and grabs him by the arm. "Are you still going to... y'know?"

Sasuke glares at him until he lets go, tossing his shirt aside and redoing his belt before standing up. Naruto's waiting for him to walk off or punch him in the face or something when he shoves his hand in his face, offering it help him up.

"No," he says suddenly.

Naruto blinks up at him in awe.

"Who knew all it took to snap you out of your crazy was to get you laid."

Sasuke punches him in the face, sending him skidding across the ground several feet.

"It wasn't what you did, it was what you said."

Naruto pushes himself onto his feet, rubbing at his face.

"All that Itachi stuff finally got you to listen, then?"

"Who knew you'd make sense one day," Sasuke shrugs.

Naruto walks towards him until he's close enough to pull Sasuke into a tight hug. Sasuke struggles at first, not sure what's happening, but slowly relaxes.

"I've missed you," Naruto sighs into his shoulder.

"... Yeah."

"Sorry."

"About what?"

Naruto answers by knocking Sasuke out with a swift punch to the temple. He carefully lays Sasuke down on the ground, feeling his chakra flowing out of Sasuke's unconscious body and back where it belongs.

"It's not that I don't trust you, but this fight is mine. I'll be back for you," Naruto promises before turning and running at the edge of the monument, leaping into the air. He heads for the battle off in the distance, knowing that he'll fight Madara and win, with not only his home to protect, but his best friend in the world, too.