Right now I am in an unhappy limbo. I had settled into an existence where I had adjusted to a life alone, one where my companion was physically inaccessible but still there verbally
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This entry is a page out of my life. No one else I know really understands what it's like to have those two lives and to have to adjust between them. Nick just left after a week long visit with me in Tallahassee and it's even worse than usual because now that he's been in my apartment everything there is more of a reminder of him. When I came back from dropping him at the airport, I felt like I was doing okay...until I saw the toilet seat up in the bathroom! What a silly reminder, but it made me realize he was really gone and I was going back to the days of permanent toilet-seat-downness. Anyhow, just wanted to say that I'm right there with ya.
While it sucks that you understand because it means that we're in the same boat, I'm really glad to have your company in said boat. It helps to hear that someone feels the same way I do -- I thought I was going wacko or needy or something, but perhaps this is more normal than I thought.
I'm feeling way better now since I've gotten back into my routine, but I've been worried about what you described -- the "he's been in my home now and now everything reminds me of him" -- since he's coming to visit in June.
Le sigh. Life would be a great deal more simple (and more fun!) if our men were a bit more accessible. Guess I'm going to have to wait another 20 months (if I'm lucky!) before that can happen though.
Oh, and about the waxing -- I was totally thinking of you specificially both when I was making the appointment and when I was writing that entry! I figured you'd probably fall out of your chair when you read it or something equally dramatic :)
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P.S. I can't believe you waxed your legs!
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I'm feeling way better now since I've gotten back into my routine, but I've been worried about what you described -- the "he's been in my home now and now everything reminds me of him" -- since he's coming to visit in June.
Le sigh. Life would be a great deal more simple (and more fun!) if our men were a bit more accessible. Guess I'm going to have to wait another 20 months (if I'm lucky!) before that can happen though.
Oh, and about the waxing -- I was totally thinking of you specificially both when I was making the appointment and when I was writing that entry! I figured you'd probably fall out of your chair when you read it or something equally dramatic :)
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