I hate being a quitter, but...

[sleepingwgods]

So I called Eileen, the musical director/vocal instructor etc, to tell her I'm quitting the musical today.
As expected, she made it out to be the most important of my activities, and that she'd rather I quit one of (or all) the other things I'm doing in order to stay. I didn't (and probaby won't) tell her I'm not enjoying it as much, and will just

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[maraudersaffair]

Oh, girl. I hope this week is a lot better than your last. If you aren't enjoying the musical, then you were totally right to quit it. Good luck at Nano!

Annnd, you are amazing. Thank you. :D

[sleepingwgods]

I hope so too! I've had enough shittiness crammed into a few days >.<
Not doing NaNo this year :) I'll be blogging every day instead ^^

You're welcome hun, hope your birthday was awesome :D

[crystallinevine]

Ooo cool! Are you attempting NaNo? We had a meeting about that at my uni too but I don't think I'll be giving it a go this year..

Aw hun :( Sucks about the mum situation. I'm sure this won't help the feeling, but everyone has flaws. Hang in there Xx

Sounds like a good night :) It's always such a morale booster when one has a good night out/in. Unlike Halloween, for instance, on which I lost my phone and walked about 1km in high heels. Not good. *headpalm*

[sleepingwgods]

No, I'm not doing it this year, no time. My schedule's pretty full as it is and I don't think I can do 1600+ words a day, I'm bound to fall behind and fail.

Thanks love. I know, I should be dealing with it more maturely I guess, but maybe I haven't grown up enough yet. I get hung up on values that are important to me (keeping promises, being honest and straightforward) and forget that they're not upheld by many, if at all.

Lost your phone?! OH NO. That iPhone was awesome! So sorry to hear that!
And walking in high heels is sheer murder :( *pats you* Nights like that are a terrible moodkiller... I remember when my phone got stolen at a concert, which was generally fun but the loss of my phone just killed everything, meh.
*TIGHT HUG*

[crystallinevine]

Yeah that's probably a good choice, it's quite a commitment.

I think it's admirable that you do hang on to these values. I just don't want you to get upset when others fall short of these expectations, coz like you said, unfortunately it happens a lot :/ <3

No not the iPhone hun, a cheap Samsung which I bought so I could use it with my UK Vodafone contract (my iPhone is, perhaps fortunately, locked permanently to my turkish contract). But good news! Today I called the club I dropped it at and I was told it was found, so I went to town today and picked it up safe and sound! w00t! Stuff like this never happens to me lol ^_^
*MWAH*

[sleepingwgods]

Aw hun, thank you. I'll try to be a little more open-minded... Sometimes we forget the world doesn't work like we want it too, and people are different, and often stupid and hurtful. Need to keep reminding myself of that.

haaa, LUCKYYY! :O That is actually such an awesome thing!! Glad you got it back :D Maybe the fact it was a cheap Samsung protected it from getting stolen :) I hope this kind of good luck graces you all the time ^___^

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[aeri_s]

Ugh. Nano.

But you're kinda amazing for actually being able to quit. For me, it took me years before I realised that hanging onto something I didn't enjoy much at all and I was totally useless in was something I shouldn't be doing.

I'm glad that you'll be posting lots soon though~ Missed you~ And I hope everything gets better soon <3

[sleepingwgods]

Lol, I know. Thank God I'm not doing it this year, I think I'd die.

Paah, thanks, though tbh I still am a bit squeamish about doing it (but I keep telling myself "the deed is done, stop worrying" which helps a little :P)
It's not that I'm useless in it, but I feel unneeded. And I hate that. If I at least had a small, tiny role I'd be okay, I'd feel like I'm learning or contributing something, that I'm not wasting mine and everyone's time. I first thought about leaving when I started complaining about how little we were doing and how much work I had to do and how I had no time for anything. It's like, get a clue, Kath. >.<

I've missed you too! Glad to be back :D And thank you, I appreciate it. <3

[sleepingwgods]

Haha, I know right? They call it "LGBT Towers" XD And when we went in, the boys had left us a bottle of sparkly wine and a note that said "in honour of your first ladies night! love, the guys" and we were all ♥

Big lies get out of hand eventually, and (for me) it ends up being kind of silly, if you think about it. But the little lies require control, and they sting. And because they're little you can't make a huge deal out of it because it'll look stupid, when in fact they're the biggest deal of all.

Ohmygod, Mika, EXACTLY. So painful :( I don't know, I'm not really thinking about it I guess. Not a very healthy way to deal with it but... I'll figure something out. Some day.

Thanks! Yeah that was exactly my reasoning, I do like all of my activities but seeing that they left me with minimal free time I saw that one of them had to go, and this was it. I still feel bad for leaving, but it's a done deal, and it WILL be better for me in the long run. I've got so much to do in the coming weeks ahh.

xxxx ♥

[kankyuuhin]

It's a good thing everything settled for now. :)

And you know you have no reason to feel bad about quitting because it's not really quitting if you don't even benefit from the activity. :/

[sleepingwgods]

:)

Haaaaah, thanks again. You're the voice of reason in this matter, when you say it's okay I feel it's okay. Whack me in the head if I get squeamish again.

ps: BUMMIE!! <3333