Hmm. I just don't know. Sometimes I wish I wish I was better at this. I am just waiting for things to change. They have to.,

So I have decided to go back to school. I just need to figure out how to pay for it until I can get a loan or something. There is some undergrad course work I need to do before I can apply for the program I want. :(

Ok, self-imposed 6 month isolation from people and fun is over. Time to party down.

Thats it. I am looking for a new place to live. The main thing I need is a washer and maybe dryer, though not as important. Fucking hate having no clothes, my husky card doesn't work in the laundry room at the community center and I need to be somewhere in 2 hours. Fuck this.

I just played the entire rythem guitar part of American Idiot album on my guitar twice. I also worked most of the lead guitar parts. There are some parts that I was playing wrong, so I worked on them a bit and them played through the whole thing. It actually takes a while to get through. I think I need to keep working it until its really clean. I ( Read more... )

I tried cutting my own hair. It ended up more of a trim, which is good, since I did it myself.

I hope this gets better. I don't want to live like this ever again. I need to change starting now. I need to stop doing this to myself. I am the only thing in the way of my own happiness.

I need to decide what I want and go get it. Thats the only solution here.

And it's so easy if I am honest with myself. So easy.

I am so frustrated with everything right now. I am frustrated with where I have ended up in school. I am frustrated with how selfish and full of themselves men can be. What fucking pricks. I am frustrated that I keep allowing people to put me down. Fuck them. Fuck them all. Not the good kind.

Must stay focused on writing this paper. But it's friday and I want to have fun !!!!

1. Leave me a casual comment of no particular significance, like a lyric to your current favorite song, or your favorite kind of sandwich, maybe your favorite game. Any remark, meaningless or not ( Read more... )