It's hard to believe that I once had it. Innocence. The thing that protects you from all the bad things in the world, and everything that comes with it, through experience. This morning I saw the most beautiful little act of innocence that I've ever seen. A little girl that goes on the same bus as me, I think she's in kindergarden, well, she got ( Read more... )

oh my goodness, he did it. he did it. i can't believe that he did it. i was gonna tell him, but it's too late, i didn't act fast enough. i was weak and selfish and i didn't want to hurt his feelings, and he broke up with his stupid girlfriend. WHY????????? WHy am i so stupid???I should have told him right away!!! But I was like, well i'll just wait ( Read more... )

Alot has happened in the past year and it seems that I am just starting to react to it now. Very tough stuff. So yeah, these thoughts keep me up well into the night, every night. I'm feeling...I don't know. Alone; despondent, maybe...desperate? I'm not sure. I feel like my life is an assignment, forced, something that will be viewed by everyone ( Read more... )

I hate myself. I want to be someone else, I'm not sure who. I was thinking Kate Moss, because she's thin and beautiful, but she seems to have got a drug problem, which isn't so good. Amy Lee, maybe? She's got the most beautiful voice that I've ever heard, but her boyfriend's not so great. That's why she had to write Call Me When You're Sober. I ( Read more... )

I feel weird right now. Today I realized that I'm failing Biology, and that even though I still love Kyle, I'm starting to let go of him. I listened to a JoJo song and actually liked it (?) I played golf with three girls and it took us 30 minutes to do the first hole. Craziness! My life is spinning out of control, again, and I just keep fallling ( Read more... )

I just finished a long crying binge. I started when my dad tried to help me with Biology. And then I stopped after I phoned my best friend so she could hear what it sounded like when I cried. (The last time I cried on the phone to her, she thought I was laughing hysterically) So she laughed too. And guess what? This time, she thought that I was ( Read more... )



Life seems to go faster all the time, and these past few years have been the shortest years that I’ve had, ever. My life is pretty satisfying, at least, most of the time. I have a love, friends, and lots of dreams. And for now, I’m taking it as it comes, minute by minute. No one can make my choices for me, and I am not going to let anyone make my ( Read more... )

At school, Kyle did this little cute face at me, and then he smiled. He did this all the time when we were together! Maybe he still loves me! I don't know. I miss him. I love him. But I want to move on and be with new people! The only problem is that I love Kyle. More than anything, I love him.

Where are all the people on this site? I joined cause I thought I'd meet some people, but I've been ignored! Sad and depressed, I sit. So talk to me, if you feel so inclined. I'm nice, honest.