Comments | skewgee: What a beautiful world

skewgee

What a beautiful world

Nov 22, 2005 02:40

I found a bit of time today to clear my mind. Maybe it was the shakes from the sailor's rum that crept over me until I didn't even realise how drunk I had become. The sickness rose over me as I was laying in the tranlucent light of sunrise through my curtain, desperately trying to sleep it off ( Read more... )

life, day

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skewgee November 22 2005, 09:54:00 UTC

upon completion of this long, unthinking entry, i left the room, and returned to me sheets burning from a cigarette i was smoking. i noticed the smoke rising and was perplexed, until i realised my inattention. the result of two bad habits gave my sheet charecter, but a poor one. my lack of attentiveness to my surroundings ought to tip you off about this entry.

answersforjane November 23 2005, 02:33:20 UTC

honeydew, honeydew, alas and alack. jessica will not be joining me on my exodus from your lovely home, and the cookies were primarily for a co-worker. you were welcome to them, as well as to our company post-grownup yakkity yakking re: the living situation.
please, dear, know i don't consider myself any more talented than you musically or as a writer.
also know that if you're ready for me to leave, i've any number of pads to crash at for a while.
hearts and flowers to you.

skewgee November 23 2005, 09:59:46 UTC

!.) presumption on my part (again). glad to see they're supporting you in the process
2.) thank you for the offer. *scurries into kitchen* ok, i couldn't find any. the offer counts, and now i'm hungry.
3.) i want you guys to be comfortable that I won't patronize you, because i know how lucky i am.
4.) you forgot physical art. and you are differently talented, but you express yourself much more imaginatively. and after all, these are creative works
5.) this will sound repetitive, but I really will miss your presence here. i'm posthumously compensating for time wasted on my part here, but i'm sure we'll appreciate it later. I really would seriously consider moving into a place with you as your roomate, if not for the 10 months remaining on my lease. I have gifts for a welcoming party, but i'll leave them to your suprise.
6.) Thank you for the extension dear, but you just made me realize the conotation of that in comics. Luckily I'm not watching Chasing Amy anymore...

Thank you again, and Be well

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skewgee November 26 2005, 10:51:51 UTC

i understand that, and it's not that i'm ungrateful. i am tremendously lucky that i have a family that can support me through this process. i just need some kind of antagonism sometimes.
school is my job, and a scholarship is a promotion. that's what pays for this apartment

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skewgee November 27 2005, 01:19:26 UTC

why do you hate me? I an refe you to multiple entries about understanding that i am priveledged. I can evn refer you to an entry about how the internet is a class priveledge. I want to earn it.
But I can't earn it and also earn a college degree. My family will not allow me to do both, except on a minimal basis. And frankly, yes, I will take the easy road, so I can do more to earn it in the future.

STOP CRITIZING MY WORK ON THE BASIS OF PRIVELEDGE, because I plan on using it for other people's ends.
I beat myself up about these things far more than you think, and I don't need anyone elses help to keep me down (much less a friend's).