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[sirius_is_a_dog]

I suppose it's old hat for most of you. How do you cope when a friend of yours graduates? Do you cope? Do you sweep it under a carpet and pretend, carry on, look to the next flood or port or whatever else will be coming along to bugger with you?

[He still isn't ready to discuss his other self, not over the network. He thinks about it constantly;

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Private

[emptyyourself]

It isn't

You don't

[About ten minutes later:]

Be pleased for her that she was able to overcome what she was.

Private

[sirius_is_a_dog]

I'm very happy for her. Believe me, I want her to be anywhere but here. Especially now that she can be free of Hades.

That doesn't mean I don't miss her.

Private

[emptyyourself]

I have no words of advice to offer otherwise. People leave. It is the nature of the Barge.

[...]

There are occasional floods wherein we are able to contact others. I've -

I've spoken with Potter that way. And Dumbledore. Amongst others. You may well be able to speak to her again. In a sense, yes: look to the next flood.

Re: Private

[sirius_is_a_dog]

[...]

That's...that's good to know.

[He clears his throat.]

Thanks.

Private.

[result_of_war]

I haven't. But I have ideas.

Private.

[sirius_is_a_dog]

I'm glad I'm not the only one who doesn't know. I'm trying to figure it out, but even my ideas seem rather...weak. At least in my opinion. I really don't think I'm such a bad bloke. I'm not saying I'm perfect, mind, but nothing I've done seems so bloody terrible.

Private.

[result_of_war]

Maybe it's something simple.

Private.

[sirius_is_a_dog]

Your ideas for yourself, are they simple?

I'm really just at a loss. It's frustrating. I want to graduate, but how can I ever do so if I don't know why I'm here?

[Private]

[expectremorse]

...I'm a murderer.

[Private]

[sirius_is_a_dog]

...oh.

[Blinks.]

Does knowing why you're here help you understand what you need to do to leave?

Do you care about leaving?

Re: [Private]

[expectremorse]

I um-

[Hoffman considers this]

Christ. That's a really loaded question.

Everyone wants to leave.

[Private]

[sirius_is_a_dog]

I didn't want to, not at first.

I needed a reason to want to leave.

Inmate filter

[lifeafterhope]

I'm here because of double standards.

Inmate filter

[sirius_is_a_dog]

What happened?

Inmate filter

[lifeafterhope]

I started a war that needed to happen.

[Inmate Filter]

[shortsghtedlove]

Apparently my ways to save my people were too violent. At least that's what I assume, since my warden never saw t fit to tell me the reason before she disappeared.

As for your first question... Is this about you thinking graduating is a terrible thing or about them leaving afterwards?

[Inmate Filter]

[sirius_is_a_dog]

It's about them being gone, really. I have reasons for wanting to graduate, but quite honestly, there was a time when I didn't want to, because I didn't want to go back to my life. And I can easily see the arguments against forcing change in anyone.

[Inmate Filter]

[shortsghtedlove]

Then I would assume you cope the same way you always do when someone leaves you. [Repress and built up more rage :|] And the system would be better if you'd be given a choice, yes. there's apparently some people who would rather choose death, and considering that without other means to leave they might be forced to stay here forever... I'm not too surprised.