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killswithapen in sirenspull

4. Video

Feb 16, 2010 20:28

[The angle of the camera is a little awkward when it turns on. Light is holding it up over him, and most of his arm is visible. There's a blur of movement as Light first sits up, then turns the camera toward him.]

That's it, then. The tests are over, and they weren't as bad as I expected. Right now I have to wait for the results, so in the meantime ( Read more... )

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text tofaceyesterday February 16 2010, 19:35:07 UTC

Possibilities and impossibilities are relative -- just words one uses to exaggerate their own limits, or lack thereof.

text killswithapen February 16 2010, 19:51:04 UTC

You're right about that much, at least. Going home, though... There's something unhelpful about focusing on it, but at the same time not doing so would feel like giving up.

I have a family at home that I want to see again; that I care for very much. I want to see my sister get married. But if I am stuck here, then I can't cling to the chance that there might be a way home.

text tofaceyesterday February 16 2010, 20:15:26 UTC

Then don't. Looking at the situation in terms of chance and probability is like comparing reality to a mathematical equation; life is much, much more complex than that and you're always going to end up basing your decisions on extremes. You don't have to cling to something to have faith in what seems unachievable.

Have hope in your actions and believe that they'll end up determining if you get home or not. I'm not going to lie to myself by thinking that a way out of here can be achieved in a heartbeat, but if I don't have something to believe in and fight for, it's just as good as sitting down and giving up.

text killswithapen February 16 2010, 20:59:09 UTC

That's a really positive way of thinking about it.

Faith in the unachievable, though. I wonder... I prefer to believe in things that I can see and proove.

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[Audio - Private between Light & Near] neargenius February 16 2010, 20:07:30 UTC

...These are law books?

[Audio - Private between Light & Near] killswithapen February 16 2010, 20:40:55 UTC

That's right. You interested?

[Audio - Private between Light & Near] neargenius February 16 2010, 20:44:22 UTC

...I suppose so. Although if I knew the titles, I could just as easily check them out from the library myself.

[Audio - Private between Light & Near] killswithapen February 16 2010, 21:00:45 UTC

I'm just saving you the trip. I thought you didn't like going out? It's really no trouble.

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voice. piracyinpink February 16 2010, 21:48:37 UTC

Mm. Suppose that would depend on who or what's giving you that information. There's always another perspective.

voice. killswithapen February 16 2010, 22:30:01 UTC

Assuming you were given irrefutable evidence that there was no way back, I mean. Logical, precise and perfect, with no room for error. Say -- the Core had been destroyed completely, for instance.

If you lived another thirty years here, would you even want to go back? Nobody would recognise you. The world would have changed, and you'd be leaving behind people that you know better.

It's all just hypothetical, of course.

voice. piracyinpink February 16 2010, 22:33:17 UTC

[a thoughtful pause.]

It'd be discouraging, but...If I've learned anything from this and past experience, it's that absolutes are rather hard to come by. I could still believe in a way out.

As for the rest...well, I'm sure it would be difficult. A sort of thing to deal with when I come to it, but I'd like to think my friends'd know more than just my face.

Hypothetically.

voice. killswithapen February 17 2010, 00:11:55 UTC

Then you're a very strong person, hypothetically.

[It might actually be audible. He's smiling, anyway.]

It's nice to meet you, anyway. I'm Light.

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[audio] deservesabone February 16 2010, 22:05:54 UTC

There wouldn't be much I could do. Try to learn to accept it, I guess. Make the best of what the city offers.

...Why wouldn't you want to go back?

[audio] killswithapen February 16 2010, 22:37:57 UTC

I don't want to think there's no way back. I just find the idea of living out the rest of my life nursing this flame of hope is...distressing. Can I really put my heart into what might really be the rest of my life, if I'm constantly hoping to go home?

But I will - I mean, I want to go home. There's a lot I want to do, and I miss my family.

[audio] deservesabone February 16 2010, 22:45:16 UTC

I guess not. I'd just rather cling to a slim hope than think I have none at all, even if it means I don't end up as well-adjusted. I have too many people back home that I care about to think otherwise.

[audio] killswithapen February 17 2010, 00:13:39 UTC

Would that change if you were here for a decade or more? If every year that chance seemed smaller?

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Voice. kuce February 16 2010, 22:22:05 UTC

Why do you keep trying to convince yourself of that?

Voice. killswithapen February 16 2010, 22:39:39 UTC

I'm not, really. I'm just curious as to how everyone else is dealing with it.

Voice. kuce February 16 2010, 22:44:10 UTC

Wait, you're not? Then, liiike... What are you doing about it? Polite to answer before asking, and all.

Voice. killswithapen February 17 2010, 00:15:13 UTC

What do you expect me to do about it? I could try hitting the Core with a hammer, and see if that works, right?

Really, I don't know. I'm just trying to cope, right now.

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