Maybe you can't pick, but you shouldn't bug me about it! How can you just come out and say you're in love with me without even thinking about my feelings on it? I don't want this, I don't want you! I don't have time to think about this kind of thing and I'm not interested, so just forget it!
Go dig a garden or ask some girl on a date! Just go away.
[Even as the words pour out of his mouth, he's aware of them. He knows that Finny isn't like Soubi, who would just laugh and shrug it off and say 'But I still love you, Ritsuka.' Finny will probably start to cry.]
I feel like I'm being made fun of. I don't like it. [He whispers.]
[And he's right. The tears are starting to form in his eyes. But it's not his usual way of crying -- sudden and at full tilt. He's trying to hold it back. Even as his heart hurts so badly.]
[This hurts. He never really thinks about how much those words can hurt, what power they have. All this time Ritsuka has forsworn violence. But much like when the Core mixed up his power, he realizes just how damaging these words can be. He doesn't even understand why he says them. When people get close, he feels so trapped. He can't shove at Finny to get him to go away, but maybe the words can.]
...You're such a damned crybaby.
[Is this how his mother feels? When she screams she can't stop herself and throws things and shouts? Ritsuka's not angry with Finny. He's angry at himself. His voice shakes.]
I really don't get it.
I don't get why people think love is the answer to everything.
["I love you, I'll protect you, I won't leave." That's what Soubi said
( ... )
[And even though the tears are streaming down his cheeks, his voice is full of conviction.]
I... I don't know enough about love. But I know what I like!
I like the sun on my face! I like hugging Cosmo! I like watching TV with young master! I like Mr. Sebastian's cooking! I like not being locked in a little room! I like not being stuck by needles! And... and I like YOU, Ritsuka.
But... if you don't like me... then I'll go away. Like you said. Because I like you so much, I want to do what makes you happy.
Go dig a garden or ask some girl on a date! Just go away.
[Even as the words pour out of his mouth, he's aware of them. He knows that Finny isn't like Soubi, who would just laugh and shrug it off and say 'But I still love you, Ritsuka.' Finny will probably start to cry.]
I feel like I'm being made fun of. I don't like it. [He whispers.]
Reply
[And he's right. The tears are starting to form in his eyes. But it's not his usual way of crying -- sudden and at full tilt. He's trying to hold it back. Even as his heart hurts so badly.]
I would never m-make fun of you, Ritsuka.
Reply
...You're such a damned crybaby.
[Is this how his mother feels? When she screams she can't stop herself and throws things and shouts? Ritsuka's not angry with Finny. He's angry at himself. His voice shakes.]
I really don't get it.
I don't get why people think love is the answer to everything.
["I love you, I'll protect you, I won't leave." That's what Soubi said ( ... )
Reply
[And even though the tears are streaming down his cheeks, his voice is full of conviction.]
I... I don't know enough about love. But I know what I like!
I like the sun on my face! I like hugging Cosmo! I like watching TV with young master! I like Mr. Sebastian's cooking! I like not being locked in a little room! I like not being stuck by needles! And... and I like YOU, Ritsuka.
But... if you don't like me... then I'll go away. Like you said. Because I like you so much, I want to do what makes you happy.
Goodbye, Ritsuka.
[And the feed ends.]
Reply
Leave a comment