put on a cowboy hat. went into a redneck bar. went to a strip club. gave someone a bloody nose. broke into my house with a pen. got up . went to school. got a tall espresso at vinny d's. talked to gregg. went to an NA meeting. decided that i am settling down on my craziness. if something could lead to messing up my responsibilities i can't do it.

as i was driving home there was a red car in my place in the driveway. i just figured it was my brother's people. i walk in the house and the sweetest guy i have ever seen is sitting in my kitchen talking to my mom. his name is luke and i have never really hung out with him or seen him in person. just online. there was something about him that ( Read more... )

How to make a SINdarella
Ingredients:

1 part success

5 parts self-sufficiency

5 parts ego
Method:
Stir together in a glass tumbler with a salted rim. Add lustfulness to taste! Do not overindulge!

Personality cocktail
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do you know that feeling when you go to see movie at a late time and it lets out. you wander out in a kinda dazish feel . it's almost an indescribable feeling. it has nothing to do with the movie. your body was doing almost nothing for 2 hours. but your mind was exercising. so you're tired but you are awake. like doing too much last night and not ( Read more... )

i woke up at 11pm. drenched in sleepiness. i dream the day away. fell out around 6 pm. someone brought me sushi for dinner. hardcore sushi. not the kind that is prewrapped and all done. this shit is really raw and open and colorful. i have to eat it too. my mom got it for me for dinner and it doesn't exactly "keep" well. so i will have to eat it ( Read more... )

GOOD FUCKING MORNING! i'm so hyper this morning. and happy . sometimes it's just really cool to wake up and be able to get out of bed. i think that if i hadn't experienced hell i would never notice all the little feelings ( Read more... )

The verdict is that i am trying to fill some kind of void. i do it with sex and with guys and i keep running.. i don't know i kinda think that sex is just fine and i should be able to fuck whoever without worrying about closed minded opinions ( Read more... )

What have i become and where am i ? the hard cold razor edge is captivating it's almost as if my blood craves it and my veins just yearn for the sick sweet satisfaction that has yet to befall them. suicide is beautiful. i truly believe that sometimes.. all the anguish all the hate all the trauma. it's all put at ease in a soft flowing kind of ( Read more... )

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i am in a kitchen ..not mine.. eating bloody steak taking pictures ah

The sun was still out when he did it. As he drove down the nameless backroads with menace on the forte' he contemplated which would be worse; to leave the victim alone, bewildered in the woods where he would surely die a nameless death, or to put him out of miserywith his own hands,saving him from unknown peril. Why is the unknown so frightening. ( Read more... )