Choose Me by Amy Western
title: Choose Me
length: One-Shot; 7,394 words
author: Amy Western
pairing : Sichul (Siwon & Heechul)
genre : romance
rating : NC-13
summary: Siwon and Leeteuk both loves Heechul. Siwon wants to catch him even if it means by force. Now, Heechul have to choose one of them...
*NOT MINE :).. My Freind is still a newbie on writing fics.. so please support her and comment??? :D :D
beta by einjhel79 thanks eonnie! :D :D
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Donghae tried to snatch the glass from his hand but Siwon gobbled all of the liquid and started crying. Donghae groaned ,” oh damn! Look, you’re drunk again!”
Siwon whispered, ”what can I do?…you were there too…he treated me like trash!”
“NO! You are just being paranoid! He wasn’t just in a good mood!”
“no… he always do that to me! He gazed at me coldly and would say harsh words ”
“it is just how you want to feel! he never been so cruel to you…”
“how can you even know? Oh yeah, I forgot how good is he with you all…” he mumbled and continued crying! Donghae was shocked so much, ”what is the matter with you? it isn’t a big deal anyway!”
Siwon caught his head between two hands and murmured, ”for you maybe but for me…it is! just leave me alone,okay!”
Donghae frowned, ”wait a minute …why do you care about Heenim this much? are you by any chance… in love him?”
Siwon cried, ”of course I AM!”
Donghae’s eyes grew wide open, ”WHAT?! oh my god!” he gasped.
Siwon got mad, ”Why “OH MY GOD?” isn’t it weird?! Everybody loves him…or have you forgotten HanGeng? or Kibum? and now there’s Leeteuk. He’s always playing around him and I know he loves him too..i mean, why not me? am I that cheap?”
Donghae seems so upset for his friend, ”this is why I am so sad now. Leeteuk’s our leader and he is the same age with him. He is with him all the time and i think…Heechul love him too.”
Siwon grumbled, ”what? how..oh…your right..but…why?should I be scared of him?”
“scared about what? are you up with something?”
Siwon,s eyes shined, ”yes! why not? why does he loved him and I don’t? i don’t want to let him love Leeteuk …just because of this tiny excuses! “
Dong hae put his hand on his shoulder, ”you are drunk now…let’s go to our rooms and sleep…it is almost midnight and we have a concert tomorrow …”
Siwon dodged his shoulder and groaned, ”no! i can’t stand it anymore! he should know everything…I don’t want him to treat me this way!” He stood up and Donghae followed and caught his hand, ”ok, ok but not now…what about tomorrow morning eh?”
Siwon pulled back his hand and cried, ”it is not your…” and fell!
Dong hae caught him and hold him, ”look….you can’t even walk and what are you talking about?”
Siwon put his head on Dong hae’s shoulder and whispered, ”I …said..i can’t stand anymore…his love, it just killing me…” and started sobbing.
Dong hae hugged him, ”this must be so hard…I can feel it!”
***
Heechul turned his head, ”what happened? where are you going?”
Leeteuk grab his coat from the bed, ”she called …you know…she needs me now!”
Heechul put his head on the pillow again and murmured, ”you player! Don’t forget we have a concert tomorrow and try not to get drunk “
Leeteuk came closer and kissed his forehead, ”are you jealous ?”
Heechul cleaned his forehead with his palm, ”fuck you! I said never kiss me !”
this time Leeteuk kissed his cheek and laughed so loud ”please don’t say a word to anyone, ok?”
“oh of course, I am the only person whom you can trust and everyone’s thinking you reserve a room with me because you love me!”
Leeteuk smiled, ”oh my ever confidant friend…I love you!”
He reached out for him and wanted to kiss his cheek again but Heechul pulled his head back and shouted ,”just go! Aishh!”
***
He didn’t know what time it was. He only felt someone came into his bed and pulled the blanket.”This is my bed you fool. Your bed is over there…” he whispered
and suddenly he felt hot lips on his cheek. He got angry, ”damn! you got drunk again! “
And rolled on bed to poach him but Leeteuk fell himself on him and this time he is kissing the corner of his lips. Thanks god he was drunk and couldn’t catch his lips!”fuck you Leeteuk !if you don’t go to your bed I ‘ll kill you!” he warned.
Leeteuk whispered, ”i…want you…”
Heechul poked him, ”I swear to god, I will never sleep with you in same room again! “
“so this is our last night huh? What do you think…we are still virgin …shall we make love for the a first and last time?”
Heechul sat in bed and reached for the bedside lamp,”so you didn’t make love to her yet? All along I thought you did it a hundred of times already? Did you two argued again?”
Leeteuk laid in his side and his face seems so pale, ”we…broke up!”
“Really?! oh….”and touched his hair,” do you want to talk about it now?”
Leeteuk pulled his body up and whispered, ’I just want…to make love!”
Heechul tried to suppressed his laugh, ”so…I think you should go to bathroom and…you know…you do it yourself … …”
Leeteuk put his head on his chest, ”no, I want you to make me comfortable !”
“Hishh..you shouldn’t say such things…. you drank yourself to oblivion and…”
Leeteuk bring his head closer, ”no I didn’t drink even one glass. I swear, you can smell my mouth.”
Heechul got scared. He really wasn’t drunk? So all of those words… Leeteuk opened his mouth and Heechul wanted to smell out of curiosity but when he bring his face closer,Leeteuk closed his mouth and kissed his lips. Heechul was shocked and suddenly pulled his head back, ”TEUK!?”
Leeteuk dropped his head again,”I love you Heenim!”
Heechul’s voice broke, ”oh my god! What the hell…”
Tears started to well up in Leeteuk’s eyes. Heechul’s heart was beating faster. Leeteuk wasn’t drunk, and he doesn’t know what to do … He touched Leeteuk ’s shoulder and said, ”please calm down… why are you crying?”
Leeteuk lifted his face again and gazed to him with wet eyes, ”I don’t know. I can’t control my tears, you put a spell on me” he said half-jokingly.
Heechul was flustered, “ I don’t know what should I say …you know…we…we can’t love each other…we…we…are both…”
Leeteuk put his hand on his mouth, ”no shush! Please don’t…”
Heechul couldn’t move and he was shocked by his gestures. .Leeteuk pulled his hand down and touched heechul’s lips with his thumb, ”I can’t believe myself and I can’t even remember when did I fall in love with you?” he confessed.
Heechul pulled his head back and said, ”oh come on, I think your mind was messed up because of your girlfriend and…”
“ do you know why we broke up?”, Leeteuk asked.
“no…why?”
“because of you…”
“what?!”
“Just like before, I broke up with my girl friend because of you….like the previous ones like all of my dates…”
“WHAT?but why?!”
“I don’t know …I tried to love them but when I think of you, I can clearly understand that you are most beautiful thing in the world that no one can’t even compare.”
“how can this be possible?!? how can you compare me with a girl?are you gay?”
Suddenly a strange sound rose in corridors and Heechul was scared ,”what was that?”
“looks like someone screamed?”
After a while, they heard someone knocked the door. ”Let me go!”
Leeteuk stood up from bed,”it looks like….it’s Siwon!”
Heechul jumped from bed and run to the door, followed by Leeteuk. When they opened the door , they saw Donghae and Siwon. The latter’s arms was around Dong hae’s neck and Dong hae’s trying to hold him up. “what happen?”, Heechul asked.
When Siwon saw His face he started to cry. :”Ya, DongHae-ya, is he drunk too?” Heechul asked again.
Leetuek groaned , ”I said I am not drunk!”
Dong hae nodded.
“What are you doing fool? Don’t make a scandal! Go back to your rooms!” the leader ordered.
Dong hae murmured:” What am I supposed to do? Siwon doesn’t want t! ”
This made Heechul happy! He doesn’t want to be with Leetuek so he immediately offered ,”he can use our room! Come in…hurry hurry!”
Leeteuk wanted to protest but Heechul frowned at him and caught Siwon’s other arm and said, ”Leeteuk ,uou go with Dong hae….Siwon will stay with me tonight.”
Siwon‘s eyes opened wide. Dong hae got worry ”but…but…!”
Heechul put Siwon’s hand on his shoulder,”No buts DongHae, its past midnight and I want to go back to slumber. “
Siwon held his breath and Leeteuk sighed and turned to the room. Dong hae nagged, ”but…but why Siwon…i..i can’t sleep with….Leeteuk he…snorts ..”
Heechul curled his arm around Siwon’s waist, “no he doesn’t and just for tonight, ok? He’s kinda drunk too and it’s too dangerous to leave them both in the same room!” Heechul explained.
Dong hae understood and he was given no chance to protest. Poor Donghae let go of Siwon’s hand,”ok then…but I warn you…he is drunk too!”
***
Leeteuk sat on the bed while Donghae’s pacing ”so…you love him too?”
“too? Why is there someone else?
“yes, there is always someone!
“Siwon?” Leeteuk guessed.
“so you know too?”
“lucky boy!”
“why? “
“he is with him right now, that’s why.”
“Siwon doesn’t have much of a luck than you had! Heechul respects you more than anyone else in the world and you’re kinda close to each other so Siwon can’t even stand a chance to get close to him.”
“How I wish I never meet Heechul or he never joined our group. Aarrrggghhh, he’s like a poison.“
“Are you sure? I mean,what are you waiting for? You can always ask him to leave, you know,I mean if you want to. “ DongHae challenged him.
Leeteuk smiled, ”Are you out of your mind? Just the thought of him leaving, is killing me!”
“what happened between the two of you tonight, by the way? Don’t tell me, both of you fell in love instantly?”
“I don’t know I think I fell for him before but in today’s performance, he was like an angel …he was dancing seductively in the middle of the program and I felt my heart was sinking and I couldn’t take my eyes off him. I even diverted my attention to my girlfriend after but still unsuccessful.”
Dong hae sat on his bed, ”how many hearts is he going to hurt?”
Leetuek stared at him,”it was not his intention to hurt us actually, we are the ones who choose to be hurt.”
***
Siwon still can’t believe his luck. Heechul tuck him in bed and asked, ”do you need something?”
“none that I can think of, no.” he answered.
Heechul pulled the duvet on him, ”are you feeling ok now? you don’t want to puke?”
Siwon can’t take his eyes from him,”no.”
heechul stared back at him,”why you did drunk yourself to oblivion?"
Siwon was speechless at the moment and all he’d done was stare at his pretty face. He really can’t believe the fact that he is in same room with his love. It was breathless !
”Is there something that made you sad or angry?”, Heechul asked.
“no…I mean yes…” Siwon stuttered.
“ What was that?”
“I think I’m falling in love!”
Heechul’s eyes shined, ”what?!really?” He leaped out from his bed and sat on the bed’s edge, ”oh Siwon!!! How beautiful was it?” he chirped.
Drunkeness ,gave him courage enough to continue, ”beautiful?! No, it’s killing me actually” he sat up and giggled.
“why? Did she rejected you?”
Siwon laughed.
Heechul smiled too, ”Now, what am I thinking, it would impossible…”
Siwon wondered. “Why?”
Heechul looked at him with kindness in his eyes, ”because you are attractive, graceful, sexy, famous and not to mention rich. How could someone reject you?”
Siwon can’t believe what he heard all the hope that had gone ,came back to him, ”so…so..you think he will accept me?”
Heechul groaned, ” you didn’t ask her yet? Are you crazy? “
“I think he doesn’t love me…maybe there is someone else.”
“oh! so that this is your problem?”
“if…if it were you, will you accept me?”
Heechul laughed, ”how can I know? i am not a girl.” And stood up to turn off the light.
Siwon roared, ”just answer me, okay. “
Heechul reached the switch and looked at him, ”hmm…if I were a girl…I am sure I will not reject you. “
And the room went dark. Siwon‘s breath went faster and faster. Doesn’t that mean he has a chance? He thought, maybe more than others!
Heechul went to his own bed and Siwon can clearly see his shadow ,”so… how would I confess my love to him?”
Heechul laid on his bed, ”I don’t know! I am not that a romantic you know. I can’t help you.”
“Just tell me, like what do you love or expect perhaps?”
“I’ve never been in love and never thought about such things…”
“Just say something like how should I confess to make him happy, content, crazy and mine?”
“You know me. I always choose the simple way! If I were you and say I have a rival. I’ll Just rape her and make her mine! Oh yeah, that’s it!” he laughed.
Rape?RAPE? oh sleep with Heechul….make him own!?? Siwon’s head turned and turned…
Heechul then whispered, ”good night…”
Siwon whispered too, ”I have a question…”
“Let’s talk tomorrow. You are drunk and I…”
“Tell me. If you had to choose someone between me and Leeteuk …”
Heechul opened his eyes again, ”Leeteuk ?! Is he your rival?”
“Just choose …me or him?”
“Oh come on! Why do I have to choose? Just go to your girl and ask her!”
Ok! This is it! Siwon jumped out from his bed but suddenly felt he has to puke! He run to the bath room and vomit!
Heechul stood up and run after him, ”are you ok?
Siwon was embarrassed and moaned, ”no! don’t look at me! go get some and…sleep!”
Heechul shouted, ”how can I sleep? you are sick…”
Siwon cried, ” i am drunk and this is just normal…don’t be scared…”
“so how can I help you?”
“just go to your bed! “
Heechul felt he was ashamed so murmur, ”ok…if you need something just call me…”
And closed the bathroom’s door. Siwon started to cry, he had this stupid to rape him if only he didn’t puke.
***
Being in home again was wonderful. Heechul put his valise in the floor and shouted, ”I am first !”
Leeteuk shouted too, ”nooo, I need it more than youuuu” and run to the bathroom’s door, Heechul followed him, ”don’t, I reached home first!”
Leeteuk caught the knob of door, ”but I’m sweating more than you do. “
Shindong complained,”and I sweated more than you two so I should go first?!”
Leeteuk ogled to Heechul, ”how about, we both use it in the same time?”
Heechul went back,”you pervert! Okay, you go first!”
Leeteuk caught his hand, ”don’t you want to look at me?”
Heechul pulled his hand and laughed, ”if you don’t want to use it…I can go…”
Leeteuk scraped own chin, ’hmm…this is good idea too! then I can watch you…”
Heechul pushed him to the bathroom and locked the door from back!!
Dong hae came after them, ”hey guys Sungmin sent a message, he’s inviting us over to his house he said it’s for the success of the concert.
Heechul went and laid on the sofa, ”oh I am knackered …I can’t come!”
Shindong complained again, ”oh come on Heenim, this is just a little party, only the 10 of us!”
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“I don’t care even if sohee’s in there! i need to sleep!”
When Leeteuk came out from the bathroom and heard the news he said:”if Heechul don’t want come then I’m not going too!”
Dong hae got angry, ”why? what is the matter with you?”
Leeteuk sat beside Heechul and caught his hand in own two hands, ”I can’t be without him…I want be with him!”
Heechul pulled his hand back and stood up,”I am going to the bathroom and don’t even think about watching me!”
***
When Siwon came in, his first question was, ”where is Heechul?”
Leeteuk sighed, ”oh he doesn’t want to come! He said he’s tired !”
Sung min smiled, ”it’s ok…we can gather ed later in his place and …”
Leetuek groaned, ”no! party without him is so tasteless ! oh guys let me go to him!”
Everybody shouted, ”WHY?”
Leetuek gave a shyly smile to everybody and said, ”hey…I think I should confess something…everybody just listen to me…”
Siwon got worry…Donghae wanted to stop him but leetuek jumped on the sofa and clapped his hands,”I have a surprise news for you all…”
Room got silence and leetuek put his hand on his chest, ”I’m falling in love!”
everybody shouted again, ”oh come on! “
“shut up!”
“you are something man!”
“we are hearing it everyday!”
But Siwon’s heart trembled …and inside of him, he was shouting,” don’t…don’t say his name! Please!”
Suddenly he felt Dong hae gazed at him so smiled and waved his hand,”come down you crazy boy!”
Leeteuk put his finger on his lips, ”shush ,.. i know I know I said it often but this time there is a big deference …”
Ryu said, ”oh we heard this too,…you always says this time it is deference and I really fall in love but…”
Leeteuk shouted ,”NO!if you hear it you‘ll be agree with me ! this is so shocking news”
This time everybody believed him and waited, Leeteuk closed his eyes, ”I’m falling in love with Heenim!”
”WHAT?” Everybody screamed ! Siwon can’t stand it anymore! He turned his back and left the home silently
***
He is still wearing his bathrobe and was trying to prepare something to eat when someone knocked the door. It was Siwon!
”what are you doing here?” he asked. Wwhen Siwon saw him in his white bathrobe with wet hair that run on his forehead and his bare shoulders ,his heart got hot and his body shacked ,”i…i…am just going to the party and heard from guys you didn’t want to go…so I …i…got worried…”
Heechul returned to the kitchen, ”yes I am so tired from noise that I wanted to have got some rest…”
Siwon went after him, his heart beating so fast and strong! Heechul asked, ” oh by the way…what did you do about that girl?”
“girl?what girl?oh..nothing... in fact I think my rival is stronger than me …”
Heechul looked at him, ”really?...damn! so what is your decision?”
“I think you are right! i should make him mine!”
Heechul laughed, ”oh I was just kidding..you know that right?”
Suddenly his phone rang .Heechul toke out it from the bathrobe’s pocket, ”yes?oh Leeteuk …hi…what? yes …he is here!”
Siwon darned him into his heart! Heechul looked at him, ”no he said he was going to party!”
Siwon tried to smile but he couldn’t !Heechul lifted his brow up and said to him, ”why did you lied to me?”
Siwon sat on chair , ”i..i just thought maybe if you heard I came after you …”
Heechul didn’t listen to him anymore! returned to Leeteuk and said, ”you only called me just to ask about him? Why you didn’t call him directly ?...what?he didn’t answer?”
Siwon roared , ”I was driving !”
Suddenly Heechul laughed so loud , ”no I said I don’t want to come!...oh be careful teukiiii …if someone hear you…WHAT?what did you do?
Oh damn! Leetuek was telling him! Siwon got angry
“are you serious ?!!! what?y ou said what?!!!”
He didn’t know what he is doing !he jumped and grabbed Heechul’s mobile and threw it toward the wall!!! Mobile crashed ,broke into pieces and fell in the floor! Heechul can’t move!his hand still was on his ear and his eyes wide opened from shocked !Siwon can’t speak ether ! his red eyes had locked at Heechul’s cute face and he was panting so hard!
“why…did you did this?”
“i…I can’t stand anymore…”
“Is there something wrong?”
“you should choose…”
“what?”
“me or Tueki?”
“WHAT?”
“choose one of us”
“for what?”
“for love!”
Heechul couldn’t understand ! he’s still in shock, ”you…broke my phone…”
Siwon got closer to him, ”I asked it you before…and im still waiting for your answer!”
“are you…drunk again?”
Siwon shouted, ”NO! DAMN! Just answer me!”
“your foolish love isn’t my problem! “
And stooped down to collect his smashed phone’s pieces but Siwon caught his arm and pulled him up,” it is all because of you!”
Heechul wasn’t sure:”me?why me?”
“you didn’t understand yet…”
and pushed his fingers into his arms! Heechul moaned from pain and Siwon shouted , ”I LOVE YOU!”
Heechul gaze at his eyes, he seemed so cold and it was weird ! Siwon felt cold into his bones .Heechul pushed his arm, ”let me go!”
Siwon’s eyes filled with tears, ”didn’t you hear me? I said I love you!”
Heechul pulled his arm so stronger than before, ”and didn’t you hear me? i said let me go”
“ so …you don’t care ..about me…”
Heechul pulled his arm again and Siwon pulled it too ,hugged him and put his lips on Heechul’s lips! just a little touch! He even couldn’t feel anything!Heechul scuffled like a wild bird in the cage and got free !SMACK! Siwon ‘s face turned to other side!Heechul had slapped him! ”piss off!”
Siwon closed his eyes and tears dropped on his cheek! Heechul was going to his room. Siwon was crying into his inside “HE DOESN’T CARE ABOT ME!”
And flames of wrath covered his whole body.Heechul had reached to the his rooms door….Siwon stepped after him.Heechul opened it and went to the room.Siwon scudded . Heechul turned to close the door.he saw Siwon!Siwon reached to the door! Heechul was scared and wanted to close the door .Siwon kicked the door!Heechul run back.Siwon came in and closed the door behind himself! Heechul murmured :”what are you doing?”
“why did you hit me?”
“because you deserve it!”
“just because I kissed you?”
“get out NOW!”
“ I know Leeteuk has kissed you too!”
“oh fuck you!”
Siwon’s eyes filled again, ” I love you more than him!”
Heechul squealed “shut up!”
Siwon squealed too, ”WHY!?why you don’t you want to hear me? Why you never care about my feelings? Do you hate me that much ?”
Heechul didn’t answer! Siwon laughed so weird, ”so you hate me then!”
Heechul sighed, ”please…just leave me alone!”
“no! i can’t!”
Heechul turned to his wardrobe,”ok then, I’ll go!”
And opened wardrobe’s door.Siwon whispered, ”where are you going?”
“It is none of your business !”
and picked his clothes
PART TWO
length: One-Shot; 7,394 words
author: Amy Western
pairing : Sichul (Siwon & Heechul)
genre : romance
rating : NC-13
summary: Siwon and Leeteuk both loves Heechul. Siwon wants to catch him even if it means by force. Now, Heechul have to choose one of them...
*NOT MINE :).. My Freind is still a newbie on writing fics.. so please support her and comment??? :D :D
beta by einjhel79 thanks eonnie! :D :D
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Donghae tried to snatch the glass from his hand but Siwon gobbled all of the liquid and started crying. Donghae groaned ,” oh damn! Look, you’re drunk again!”
Siwon whispered, ”what can I do?…you were there too…he treated me like trash!”
“NO! You are just being paranoid! He wasn’t just in a good mood!”
“no… he always do that to me! He gazed at me coldly and would say harsh words ”
“it is just how you want to feel! he never been so cruel to you…”
“how can you even know? Oh yeah, I forgot how good is he with you all…” he mumbled and continued crying! Donghae was shocked so much, ”what is the matter with you? it isn’t a big deal anyway!”
Siwon caught his head between two hands and murmured, ”for you maybe but for me…it is! just leave me alone,okay!”
Donghae frowned, ”wait a minute …why do you care about Heenim this much? are you by any chance… in love him?”
Siwon cried, ”of course I AM!”
Donghae’s eyes grew wide open, ”WHAT?! oh my god!” he gasped.
Siwon got mad, ”Why “OH MY GOD?” isn’t it weird?! Everybody loves him…or have you forgotten HanGeng? or Kibum? and now there’s Leeteuk. He’s always playing around him and I know he loves him too..i mean, why not me? am I that cheap?”
Donghae seems so upset for his friend, ”this is why I am so sad now. Leeteuk’s our leader and he is the same age with him. He is with him all the time and i think…Heechul love him too.”
Siwon grumbled, ”what? how..oh…your right..but…why?should I be scared of him?”
“scared about what? are you up with something?”
Siwon,s eyes shined, ”yes! why not? why does he loved him and I don’t? i don’t want to let him love Leeteuk …just because of this tiny excuses! “
Dong hae put his hand on his shoulder, ”you are drunk now…let’s go to our rooms and sleep…it is almost midnight and we have a concert tomorrow …”
Siwon dodged his shoulder and groaned, ”no! i can’t stand it anymore! he should know everything…I don’t want him to treat me this way!” He stood up and Donghae followed and caught his hand, ”ok, ok but not now…what about tomorrow morning eh?”
Siwon pulled back his hand and cried, ”it is not your…” and fell!
Dong hae caught him and hold him, ”look….you can’t even walk and what are you talking about?”
Siwon put his head on Dong hae’s shoulder and whispered, ”I …said..i can’t stand anymore…his love, it just killing me…” and started sobbing.
Dong hae hugged him, ”this must be so hard…I can feel it!”
***
Heechul turned his head, ”what happened? where are you going?”
Leeteuk grab his coat from the bed, ”she called …you know…she needs me now!”
Heechul put his head on the pillow again and murmured, ”you player! Don’t forget we have a concert tomorrow and try not to get drunk “
Leeteuk came closer and kissed his forehead, ”are you jealous ?”
Heechul cleaned his forehead with his palm, ”fuck you! I said never kiss me !”
this time Leeteuk kissed his cheek and laughed so loud ”please don’t say a word to anyone, ok?”
“oh of course, I am the only person whom you can trust and everyone’s thinking you reserve a room with me because you love me!”
Leeteuk smiled, ”oh my ever confidant friend…I love you!”
He reached out for him and wanted to kiss his cheek again but Heechul pulled his head back and shouted ,”just go! Aishh!”
***
He didn’t know what time it was. He only felt someone came into his bed and pulled the blanket.”This is my bed you fool. Your bed is over there…” he whispered
and suddenly he felt hot lips on his cheek. He got angry, ”damn! you got drunk again! “
And rolled on bed to poach him but Leeteuk fell himself on him and this time he is kissing the corner of his lips. Thanks god he was drunk and couldn’t catch his lips!”fuck you Leeteuk !if you don’t go to your bed I ‘ll kill you!” he warned.
Leeteuk whispered, ”i…want you…”
Heechul poked him, ”I swear to god, I will never sleep with you in same room again! “
“so this is our last night huh? What do you think…we are still virgin …shall we make love for the a first and last time?”
Heechul sat in bed and reached for the bedside lamp,”so you didn’t make love to her yet? All along I thought you did it a hundred of times already? Did you two argued again?”
Leeteuk laid in his side and his face seems so pale, ”we…broke up!”
“Really?! oh….”and touched his hair,” do you want to talk about it now?”
Leeteuk pulled his body up and whispered, ’I just want…to make love!”
Heechul tried to suppressed his laugh, ”so…I think you should go to bathroom and…you know…you do it yourself … …”
Leeteuk put his head on his chest, ”no, I want you to make me comfortable !”
“Hishh..you shouldn’t say such things…. you drank yourself to oblivion and…”
Leeteuk bring his head closer, ”no I didn’t drink even one glass. I swear, you can smell my mouth.”
Heechul got scared. He really wasn’t drunk? So all of those words… Leeteuk opened his mouth and Heechul wanted to smell out of curiosity but when he bring his face closer,Leeteuk closed his mouth and kissed his lips. Heechul was shocked and suddenly pulled his head back, ”TEUK!?”
Leeteuk dropped his head again,”I love you Heenim!”
Heechul’s voice broke, ”oh my god! What the hell…”
Tears started to well up in Leeteuk’s eyes. Heechul’s heart was beating faster. Leeteuk wasn’t drunk, and he doesn’t know what to do … He touched Leeteuk ’s shoulder and said, ”please calm down… why are you crying?”
Leeteuk lifted his face again and gazed to him with wet eyes, ”I don’t know. I can’t control my tears, you put a spell on me” he said half-jokingly.
Heechul was flustered, “ I don’t know what should I say …you know…we…we can’t love each other…we…we…are both…”
Leeteuk put his hand on his mouth, ”no shush! Please don’t…”
Heechul couldn’t move and he was shocked by his gestures. .Leeteuk pulled his hand down and touched heechul’s lips with his thumb, ”I can’t believe myself and I can’t even remember when did I fall in love with you?” he confessed.
Heechul pulled his head back and said, ”oh come on, I think your mind was messed up because of your girlfriend and…”
“ do you know why we broke up?”, Leeteuk asked.
“no…why?”
“because of you…”
“what?!”
“Just like before, I broke up with my girl friend because of you….like the previous ones like all of my dates…”
“WHAT?but why?!”
“I don’t know …I tried to love them but when I think of you, I can clearly understand that you are most beautiful thing in the world that no one can’t even compare.”
“how can this be possible?!? how can you compare me with a girl?are you gay?”
Suddenly a strange sound rose in corridors and Heechul was scared ,”what was that?”
“looks like someone screamed?”
After a while, they heard someone knocked the door. ”Let me go!”
Leeteuk stood up from bed,”it looks like….it’s Siwon!”
Heechul jumped from bed and run to the door, followed by Leeteuk. When they opened the door , they saw Donghae and Siwon. The latter’s arms was around Dong hae’s neck and Dong hae’s trying to hold him up. “what happen?”, Heechul asked.
When Siwon saw His face he started to cry. :”Ya, DongHae-ya, is he drunk too?” Heechul asked again.
Leetuek groaned , ”I said I am not drunk!”
Dong hae nodded.
“What are you doing fool? Don’t make a scandal! Go back to your rooms!” the leader ordered.
Dong hae murmured:” What am I supposed to do? Siwon doesn’t want t! ”
This made Heechul happy! He doesn’t want to be with Leetuek so he immediately offered ,”he can use our room! Come in…hurry hurry!”
Leeteuk wanted to protest but Heechul frowned at him and caught Siwon’s other arm and said, ”Leeteuk ,uou go with Dong hae….Siwon will stay with me tonight.”
Siwon‘s eyes opened wide. Dong hae got worry ”but…but…!”
Heechul put Siwon’s hand on his shoulder,”No buts DongHae, its past midnight and I want to go back to slumber. “
Siwon held his breath and Leeteuk sighed and turned to the room. Dong hae nagged, ”but…but why Siwon…i..i can’t sleep with….Leeteuk he…snorts ..”
Heechul curled his arm around Siwon’s waist, “no he doesn’t and just for tonight, ok? He’s kinda drunk too and it’s too dangerous to leave them both in the same room!” Heechul explained.
Dong hae understood and he was given no chance to protest. Poor Donghae let go of Siwon’s hand,”ok then…but I warn you…he is drunk too!”
***
Leeteuk sat on the bed while Donghae’s pacing ”so…you love him too?”
“too? Why is there someone else?
“yes, there is always someone!
“Siwon?” Leeteuk guessed.
“so you know too?”
“lucky boy!”
“why? “
“he is with him right now, that’s why.”
“Siwon doesn’t have much of a luck than you had! Heechul respects you more than anyone else in the world and you’re kinda close to each other so Siwon can’t even stand a chance to get close to him.”
“How I wish I never meet Heechul or he never joined our group. Aarrrggghhh, he’s like a poison.“
“Are you sure? I mean,what are you waiting for? You can always ask him to leave, you know,I mean if you want to. “ DongHae challenged him.
Leeteuk smiled, ”Are you out of your mind? Just the thought of him leaving, is killing me!”
“what happened between the two of you tonight, by the way? Don’t tell me, both of you fell in love instantly?”
“I don’t know I think I fell for him before but in today’s performance, he was like an angel …he was dancing seductively in the middle of the program and I felt my heart was sinking and I couldn’t take my eyes off him. I even diverted my attention to my girlfriend after but still unsuccessful.”
Dong hae sat on his bed, ”how many hearts is he going to hurt?”
Leetuek stared at him,”it was not his intention to hurt us actually, we are the ones who choose to be hurt.”
***
Siwon still can’t believe his luck. Heechul tuck him in bed and asked, ”do you need something?”
“none that I can think of, no.” he answered.
Heechul pulled the duvet on him, ”are you feeling ok now? you don’t want to puke?”
Siwon can’t take his eyes from him,”no.”
heechul stared back at him,”why you did drunk yourself to oblivion?"
Siwon was speechless at the moment and all he’d done was stare at his pretty face. He really can’t believe the fact that he is in same room with his love. It was breathless !
”Is there something that made you sad or angry?”, Heechul asked.
“no…I mean yes…” Siwon stuttered.
“ What was that?”
“I think I’m falling in love!”
Heechul’s eyes shined, ”what?!really?” He leaped out from his bed and sat on the bed’s edge, ”oh Siwon!!! How beautiful was it?” he chirped.
Drunkeness ,gave him courage enough to continue, ”beautiful?! No, it’s killing me actually” he sat up and giggled.
“why? Did she rejected you?”
Siwon laughed.
Heechul smiled too, ”Now, what am I thinking, it would impossible…”
Siwon wondered. “Why?”
Heechul looked at him with kindness in his eyes, ”because you are attractive, graceful, sexy, famous and not to mention rich. How could someone reject you?”
Siwon can’t believe what he heard all the hope that had gone ,came back to him, ”so…so..you think he will accept me?”
Heechul groaned, ” you didn’t ask her yet? Are you crazy? “
“I think he doesn’t love me…maybe there is someone else.”
“oh! so that this is your problem?”
“if…if it were you, will you accept me?”
Heechul laughed, ”how can I know? i am not a girl.” And stood up to turn off the light.
Siwon roared, ”just answer me, okay. “
Heechul reached the switch and looked at him, ”hmm…if I were a girl…I am sure I will not reject you. “
And the room went dark. Siwon‘s breath went faster and faster. Doesn’t that mean he has a chance? He thought, maybe more than others!
Heechul went to his own bed and Siwon can clearly see his shadow ,”so… how would I confess my love to him?”
Heechul laid on his bed, ”I don’t know! I am not that a romantic you know. I can’t help you.”
“Just tell me, like what do you love or expect perhaps?”
“I’ve never been in love and never thought about such things…”
“Just say something like how should I confess to make him happy, content, crazy and mine?”
“You know me. I always choose the simple way! If I were you and say I have a rival. I’ll Just rape her and make her mine! Oh yeah, that’s it!” he laughed.
Rape?RAPE? oh sleep with Heechul….make him own!?? Siwon’s head turned and turned…
Heechul then whispered, ”good night…”
Siwon whispered too, ”I have a question…”
“Let’s talk tomorrow. You are drunk and I…”
“Tell me. If you had to choose someone between me and Leeteuk …”
Heechul opened his eyes again, ”Leeteuk ?! Is he your rival?”
“Just choose …me or him?”
“Oh come on! Why do I have to choose? Just go to your girl and ask her!”
Ok! This is it! Siwon jumped out from his bed but suddenly felt he has to puke! He run to the bath room and vomit!
Heechul stood up and run after him, ”are you ok?
Siwon was embarrassed and moaned, ”no! don’t look at me! go get some and…sleep!”
Heechul shouted, ”how can I sleep? you are sick…”
Siwon cried, ” i am drunk and this is just normal…don’t be scared…”
“so how can I help you?”
“just go to your bed! “
Heechul felt he was ashamed so murmur, ”ok…if you need something just call me…”
And closed the bathroom’s door. Siwon started to cry, he had this stupid to rape him if only he didn’t puke.
***
Being in home again was wonderful. Heechul put his valise in the floor and shouted, ”I am first !”
Leeteuk shouted too, ”nooo, I need it more than youuuu” and run to the bathroom’s door, Heechul followed him, ”don’t, I reached home first!”
Leeteuk caught the knob of door, ”but I’m sweating more than you do. “
Shindong complained,”and I sweated more than you two so I should go first?!”
Leeteuk ogled to Heechul, ”how about, we both use it in the same time?”
Heechul went back,”you pervert! Okay, you go first!”
Leeteuk caught his hand, ”don’t you want to look at me?”
Heechul pulled his hand and laughed, ”if you don’t want to use it…I can go…”
Leeteuk scraped own chin, ’hmm…this is good idea too! then I can watch you…”
Heechul pushed him to the bathroom and locked the door from back!!
Dong hae came after them, ”hey guys Sungmin sent a message, he’s inviting us over to his house he said it’s for the success of the concert.
Heechul went and laid on the sofa, ”oh I am knackered …I can’t come!”
Shindong complained again, ”oh come on Heenim, this is just a little party, only the 10 of us!”
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“I don’t care even if sohee’s in there! i need to sleep!”
When Leeteuk came out from the bathroom and heard the news he said:”if Heechul don’t want come then I’m not going too!”
Dong hae got angry, ”why? what is the matter with you?”
Leeteuk sat beside Heechul and caught his hand in own two hands, ”I can’t be without him…I want be with him!”
Heechul pulled his hand back and stood up,”I am going to the bathroom and don’t even think about watching me!”
***
When Siwon came in, his first question was, ”where is Heechul?”
Leeteuk sighed, ”oh he doesn’t want to come! He said he’s tired !”
Sung min smiled, ”it’s ok…we can gather ed later in his place and …”
Leetuek groaned, ”no! party without him is so tasteless ! oh guys let me go to him!”
Everybody shouted, ”WHY?”
Leetuek gave a shyly smile to everybody and said, ”hey…I think I should confess something…everybody just listen to me…”
Siwon got worry…Donghae wanted to stop him but leetuek jumped on the sofa and clapped his hands,”I have a surprise news for you all…”
Room got silence and leetuek put his hand on his chest, ”I’m falling in love!”
everybody shouted again, ”oh come on! “
“shut up!”
“you are something man!”
“we are hearing it everyday!”
But Siwon’s heart trembled …and inside of him, he was shouting,” don’t…don’t say his name! Please!”
Suddenly he felt Dong hae gazed at him so smiled and waved his hand,”come down you crazy boy!”
Leeteuk put his finger on his lips, ”shush ,.. i know I know I said it often but this time there is a big deference …”
Ryu said, ”oh we heard this too,…you always says this time it is deference and I really fall in love but…”
Leeteuk shouted ,”NO!if you hear it you‘ll be agree with me ! this is so shocking news”
This time everybody believed him and waited, Leeteuk closed his eyes, ”I’m falling in love with Heenim!”
”WHAT?” Everybody screamed ! Siwon can’t stand it anymore! He turned his back and left the home silently
***
He is still wearing his bathrobe and was trying to prepare something to eat when someone knocked the door. It was Siwon!
”what are you doing here?” he asked. Wwhen Siwon saw him in his white bathrobe with wet hair that run on his forehead and his bare shoulders ,his heart got hot and his body shacked ,”i…i…am just going to the party and heard from guys you didn’t want to go…so I …i…got worried…”
Heechul returned to the kitchen, ”yes I am so tired from noise that I wanted to have got some rest…”
Siwon went after him, his heart beating so fast and strong! Heechul asked, ” oh by the way…what did you do about that girl?”
“girl?what girl?oh..nothing... in fact I think my rival is stronger than me …”
Heechul looked at him, ”really?...damn! so what is your decision?”
“I think you are right! i should make him mine!”
Heechul laughed, ”oh I was just kidding..you know that right?”
Suddenly his phone rang .Heechul toke out it from the bathrobe’s pocket, ”yes?oh Leeteuk …hi…what? yes …he is here!”
Siwon darned him into his heart! Heechul looked at him, ”no he said he was going to party!”
Siwon tried to smile but he couldn’t !Heechul lifted his brow up and said to him, ”why did you lied to me?”
Siwon sat on chair , ”i..i just thought maybe if you heard I came after you …”
Heechul didn’t listen to him anymore! returned to Leeteuk and said, ”you only called me just to ask about him? Why you didn’t call him directly ?...what?he didn’t answer?”
Siwon roared , ”I was driving !”
Suddenly Heechul laughed so loud , ”no I said I don’t want to come!...oh be careful teukiiii …if someone hear you…WHAT?what did you do?
Oh damn! Leetuek was telling him! Siwon got angry
“are you serious ?!!! what?y ou said what?!!!”
He didn’t know what he is doing !he jumped and grabbed Heechul’s mobile and threw it toward the wall!!! Mobile crashed ,broke into pieces and fell in the floor! Heechul can’t move!his hand still was on his ear and his eyes wide opened from shocked !Siwon can’t speak ether ! his red eyes had locked at Heechul’s cute face and he was panting so hard!
“why…did you did this?”
“i…I can’t stand anymore…”
“Is there something wrong?”
“you should choose…”
“what?”
“me or Tueki?”
“WHAT?”
“choose one of us”
“for what?”
“for love!”
Heechul couldn’t understand ! he’s still in shock, ”you…broke my phone…”
Siwon got closer to him, ”I asked it you before…and im still waiting for your answer!”
“are you…drunk again?”
Siwon shouted, ”NO! DAMN! Just answer me!”
“your foolish love isn’t my problem! “
And stooped down to collect his smashed phone’s pieces but Siwon caught his arm and pulled him up,” it is all because of you!”
Heechul wasn’t sure:”me?why me?”
“you didn’t understand yet…”
and pushed his fingers into his arms! Heechul moaned from pain and Siwon shouted , ”I LOVE YOU!”
Heechul gaze at his eyes, he seemed so cold and it was weird ! Siwon felt cold into his bones .Heechul pushed his arm, ”let me go!”
Siwon’s eyes filled with tears, ”didn’t you hear me? I said I love you!”
Heechul pulled his arm so stronger than before, ”and didn’t you hear me? i said let me go”
“ so …you don’t care ..about me…”
Heechul pulled his arm again and Siwon pulled it too ,hugged him and put his lips on Heechul’s lips! just a little touch! He even couldn’t feel anything!Heechul scuffled like a wild bird in the cage and got free !SMACK! Siwon ‘s face turned to other side!Heechul had slapped him! ”piss off!”
Siwon closed his eyes and tears dropped on his cheek! Heechul was going to his room. Siwon was crying into his inside “HE DOESN’T CARE ABOT ME!”
And flames of wrath covered his whole body.Heechul had reached to the his rooms door….Siwon stepped after him.Heechul opened it and went to the room.Siwon scudded . Heechul turned to close the door.he saw Siwon!Siwon reached to the door! Heechul was scared and wanted to close the door .Siwon kicked the door!Heechul run back.Siwon came in and closed the door behind himself! Heechul murmured :”what are you doing?”
“why did you hit me?”
“because you deserve it!”
“just because I kissed you?”
“get out NOW!”
“ I know Leeteuk has kissed you too!”
“oh fuck you!”
Siwon’s eyes filled again, ” I love you more than him!”
Heechul squealed “shut up!”
Siwon squealed too, ”WHY!?why you don’t you want to hear me? Why you never care about my feelings? Do you hate me that much ?”
Heechul didn’t answer! Siwon laughed so weird, ”so you hate me then!”
Heechul sighed, ”please…just leave me alone!”
“no! i can’t!”
Heechul turned to his wardrobe,”ok then, I’ll go!”
And opened wardrobe’s door.Siwon whispered, ”where are you going?”
“It is none of your business !”
and picked his clothes
PART TWO