Is that the knocking of a muse I hear....

[silverkytten]

Well, it seems that the New Year is upon me and I haven’t a thing to wear! Well, technically, I suppose the New Year is already over and now I just have to deal with the prospect of getting older. That’s fun, too *blatant lie!*.

Anyway, I just wanted to pop in and let everyone know that I’m still here, even though I’ve been fairly quiet lately.

Comments

[2metaldog]

Depression is the eater of souls and muses are generally smart enough to get the fuck away at the first whiff of it. Of course, for us writer people, this makes depression stronger. Which makes the muses run faster. You see where I'm going with this? The good news is that onces depression leaves, muses are inclined to come back because us writer people are so much fun/easy to drive crazy(er

[silverkytten]

Depression has got to be the worst invention in the history of mankind, and I have no idea what I was thinking when I bought into it! I'm pretty sure the salesman didn't use the pitch 'hey, how'd you like something guaranteed to make you want to curl up under the throw rug and never write again!', but I STILL should have known better. Ah well, live and learn I guess *waves at the muses frowning from the corner

[2metaldog]

I've gone months and months without posting chapters to things that are on my "Current Works" list *hangs head*. Most readers are very understanding and they're just happy when the new chapter finally gets pried out of my brain and delivered to them. When a story is good and engaging, readers will wait mostly patiently. Hell, a good deal of the time, they'll go back and re-read previous chapters. I've done that myself.

'Tis funny 'cause just the day before you posted this, I was going to send an email to renjifan to ask her how you were doing since you'd been silent for a while. Yes, I'm funny like that and trying to listen more to that voice in my head that tells me to call/ask/prod people.

[xshelaghx]

Great to hear from you!

I agree that's a pretty shitty thing for PANTS to do - SHITTY PANTS!

If you had a large enough ego to just carry on writing then you wouldn't be the wonderful and sensitive writer that you are. Your living arrangement is totally unacceptable. That you can hold yourself together, start a new job and work towards a better situation impresses me.

Kisuke has not abandoned you. He has just gone for coffee till you get your situation sorted out. The fact that he came to visit while PANTS was away tells all. With PANTS away the MUSE will play! XD I am also selfishly happy your writing success, even more than Irondog because I don't write my own stories which make me totally dependent on others like you!

Seriously though, I don't know whether to wish for you to separate or work things out so I'll just wish for an end to the horrible limbo you find yourself in. *HUGS*

[silverkytten]

SHITTY PANTS made me snicker, so you get points for that!

I appreciate your comments on the ego thing, I'd never really thought of it that way and it made me feel a little better about things. Honestly, I've been feeling a little weak and pathetic for not having been able to just power through this. I think I like it your way better. I'm a sensitive writer!

Thanks for the support and patience with all of this, too. At this point, I just want to get out of this soul-crushing holding pattern I'm in and have a good sit-down with Kisuke. He's still around, whispering naughty little things to me. I'm just hoping that when all this settles, those things will actually start relating to the stories I'm writing. It's not that I don't appreciate random naughty snickers during the day, but we need to focus, Kisuke! *shakes head*

[youkai_girl]

Hey! Very glad to hear from you. I agree with 2metaldog and xshelaghx that what PANTS did was totally shitty and completely asinine. Too bad PANTS can't be used for bait for the 2nd division's training exercises.

As a fan, I'm glad to see that muse!Kisuke came for a visit from his extended vacation at Starbucks. I look forward to updates. Also as a fan, if there's anything I can do, let me know - even though I probably live half-way across the country from you. Even if its just hog-tying muse!Kisuke, and shipping him by parcel post back to you if I run into him at my local Starbucks. ^_^

[silverkytten]

Trust me, if i could hand PANTS off to the 2nd division for a few days I'd do it in a heartbeat *happy daydream*. It would probably do him some good and I'd have the place to myself to finish the chapter! Its win win...though I think more of the win falls on my side...where it belongs *grin*.

Luckily, the new job provides me with a place away from home to write. I usually spend my breaks doing that so at least I'm making progress every day. I'll get this chapter out if it kills me!

Oh, and if you DO see muse!Kisuke at a Starbucks near you please stuff his shady ass in a box and ship him home. I need to have words with him about his little vanishing act.

[aurorarose1414]

I'm sorry that things are up in the air right now with your living situation. I agree with everyone else: PANTS is being an arsehole. Once you get your own place, muse!Kisuke will be much more cooperative. Your right, it's a great sign that your creativity comes out when PANTS leaves. Hopefully, other things will begin to blossom for you over the upcoming months. We're all rooting for you! ^_^

[silverkytten]

First off, I just need to confirm something that I'm fairly sure about: You're the same AuroraRose that follows my stuff on ff.net, right? I figure you must be, but I no longer make assumptions in life.

I can't even describe how happy I was to find out I could still write under better conditions. It's given me all sorts of hope, and a fair bit of motivation. I doubt I'll be back to my chapter a week for BOTH stories pace anytime soon, but at least I'm on the right track. I was eying Insomnia yesterday and I actually had some thoughts for it. This is a vast improvement from looking at it and feeling so exhausted from TRYING to think about it that I needed a nap. I miss my characters an am so very much looking forward to writing them again!

[aurorarose1414]

Yup, that's me. ^_^

Your characters miss you too! Hehehe. I can imagine the relief you must have felt when muse!Kisuke came calling again. It's like an old friend coming home (from a coffee shop).

Hoo-Rah!

[haji_no_saya]

I'm so glad that you are getting through your crisis. If you have 19 pages done and have 7 or 8 more to write, I am so willing to wait a bit longer! I always get so sad when the chapters are over. *emo tear*.

Anyhoo, good luck and I completely understand the not being able to reply. My computer just let me into my e-mail for the first time in, oh say, 2 months! Grr! I never want to have to go through that many e-mails again!