Perhaps I need a poultice?

[silver_notebook]

Last night

I guess I should be out partying tonight, but I don't much feel like it, and I have a million other more important things to do.  Today has been one in which I have had to wear my wounds open to the world. In general, I keep things light and superficial in here, and there's much in life to feel good about, so it seems self indulgent to

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[wild_boys]

She said how lovely it was to see me, how well I looked, and asked how I was. I smiled and said fine and suddenly felt a tear come to my eye. All the fucking wasted time. I came home feeling heavy. I know what that's like. What a cacky supervisor for you. It leaves you to find support elsewhere or just Do It Yourself.

This : the nice Professor said she wanted to look for ways to attract me there, considering all I had to offer, and I could put my name on (and obviously actively contribute to the writing of) some grant applications and research fellowships with her in the new year is great. It is so amazing the difference in the way people deal with you can make. You are that good, and cacky supervisor leaves you feeling nervous and unsure. Listen to the smart people, dammit!

Have a good party. And an amazing time in Bangladesh :)

[silver_notebook]

Thank you honey. I'm very independent, hate asking for help, and was feeling so stupid having got into such a silly situation, so went for the Do It For Yourself route and kind of got a bit stuck there, but having Done It For Myself I'm just hungry for good people to work with now.

[wild_boys]

Well, I hope you find them :) Or maybe they'll find you, if your eminent Professor is anything to go by ;)

[iterum]

Well, I hope that the impending defense doesn't weigh too heavily upon you while you're in Bangladesh, and that you defend triumphantly when the time comes.

(I myself also foresee job doom based on how long this diss. is taking me. Alas.)

[silver_notebook]

I'd hoped to be able to go free of such things, but such is life (and many things to do with the PhD). There'll be quite a bit of traveling and it wont be a mad night out kind of holiday, so I should be able to get in some reading.

As for the job, well, I've got lots to offer, provided they can see past the slow phd, and I'll feel more confident to sell those things without having to be so defensive once the last bits are done.

PhD

[justicerighteou]

I think you're very brave to go for a PhD. I tried and failed.

I'm sure you'll get a nice job soon. Biotech is huge over here. I suppose you wish to stay in London? Hang in there, these things take time. Keep your chin up.

Re: PhD

[silver_notebook]

Not so much brave; stubborn, arrogant, and foolhardy perhaps.

London currently appeals, but I'd move to some places for right thing. Chin is up, and I believe something good will come up soon (just as a new, entertaining and challenging path will reveal itself to you soon).