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[silvak]

I know,it's been ages since I wrote anything here...Or that's what it feels like to me...It's not that I'm always busy with real life or that I'm not into internet stuff anymore...It's just that I don't feel like having anything to say.I'm too confused with what's happening everyday,too tired and what I mostly feel these days is that I'm not enough

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[blueheronz]

I have been there, Katerina. Really, I have. And it's not pretty. I can relate to wanting the time alone and the peace of mind and then when you have it, pissing it away through rebellion. And the sense of loss we all experience, loss and loneliness, the times we're keenly aware of the distance between us and a God or between ourselves and others. Very existential and very lonely. The Vast Indifference of the Sky and all that. Please, though. Hang in there and know you're not alone and try to find some small thing to care about, something beautiful. It is a gift to be sensitive, but it also makes life a little harder -- but I'll bet you also experience great joy at times, no?

[silvak]

Oh,yes...There are definitely beautiful moments and things I'm grateful for...It's just that lately what I see as bad are more that what I see as good...I am trying to see things in a more positive way and to find my way back to my calm and determined self...Thanks for being here...It's nice to have someone to understand without questioning...

[chascobal]

Hang in there, dear. Maybe it's the time to actually beat those distances, and tell someone what you're experiencing. I've been there before, and from what I've experienced not being sincere with friends (even if they aren't as close as your best friends, but still are people you enjoy their company and would love to create stronger bonds) isn't good. Maybe one of them would want to crash at your place for a few days, or throw you a cheer-up party, or even arrange a cheer up present for you.

Best of luck for you! I'll see what I can do from here (Will you be in Komotini in February?)

[silvak]

Thanks Cristobal!Maybe you're right,maybe it's a mistake keeping people at the distance I do.I am a rather closed person and it's not easy for me to trust someone.I've been hurt before and that made me even more closed...I'm working on it...Thanks for your support...Yes,I have exams all through February so I will be in Komotini,why you ask?

[chascobal]

I want to send you a small trick from here, so I don't know whether to send it to your address in Athens or to the one you have in Komotini.

[silvak]

Oh,well you should send it to Komotini but I should give you my new adress...I'll sent it to you in a mail sometime tonight or tomorrow...How things with you?Everything good with uni?You must have started the new semester now,right?