3rd Month Celebration
Title: Arrow
Pairing: Jonghyun/Taemin
Rating: PG
Genre: Angst
Summary: How a cupid arrow killed him
A/n: Happy 3rd Month~
-Taemin POV-
He tried pulling the arrow out, but it only hurts himself…
I lay on the floor, praying that he would be back. But the cold heartless floor tells me, he’s not going to come back anymore. Photos at the side were reminding me, everything has become nothing but just memories… Tears streamed down my face, I still couldn’t accept this, and I still couldn’t accept it.
I picked up one of the photos, the photos that showed we loved before… We were smiling so brightly and blissfully…
“Hyung.” I laid my head on his shoulder, staring at the orange coloured sky. We finally made it for the sunrise. It was a really beautiful sight, with you around; everything seems even more perfect…
“Taemin, do you like the sunrise?” His smoothing voice never fails to my heart flutters…
“If it is with you hyung… I would always love the sunrise.” I managed to catch a small smile on his face.
I placed the photos on my chest, hyung… When are you coming back to watch the sun rise again? I held on to the invisible arrow that was stab in my heart. Stupid cupid. I closed my eyes once more, listening quietly to the rain…
He didn’t want to feel the pain from pulling the arrow, so he decided to leave it there…
Photos were paste all over the wall, I didn’t want to forget any of this feelings… Someone told me once, feelings and memories will fade with time… But I’m trying my best to fight with the time… I know I could never forget about you totally, so I have to remember you fully… Not a single moment to be forgotten…
If I tried pulling you from my memories, it would only hurt me even more… Your love is like an arrow, it stabbed into my heart and I can’t pull it out without hurting myself. How I hated cupid to have such design for arrows… The moment you pulled it out, the wound would only open up even more…
I looked at the empty space beside me.
“Hyung, let go out for a walk.” I pretended he was there, no… He is there. He is smiling at me right now, agreeing to my request. I held out a hand, pretending to hold on to his… No… I am holding his hands right now.
“Let's go.” I cheerfully grinned at the empty space beside me.
I sat down on the swing, not moving at all. I looked behind and smiled.
“Hyung, push me.” I looked back to the front and used my legs to push me. I started to swing.
“Higher hyung!” I was swinging higher and higher… There was a wide smile on my face…
Hyung, do you like it when I acted like a child?
He left the wound to close up the gaps around the arrow, holding on to the arrow.
“Hyung, this is our first sunset.” I tilted my head to lie on the shoulder of my beloved hyung. I could feel his hands on my shoulder, rubbing it softly to keep me warm.
“I love it too hyung… It’s because I’m with you…” I closed my eyes as the sunsets down slowly… A single drop of tears flows down from my face.
I know you are always there hyung…
"This is killing me..." I scratched my head. I looked towards our bed and pouted.
“Hyung! Stop laughing and help me out here!” I looked back at the question, nodding as he told me how to do it…
“Ah, I see! Thanks a lot Hyung!” I kissed the cold air beside me and started writing the answer given by him. I know I can always count on you hyung! I continued doing my homework, quietly and you were sitting there watching me.
Hyung, do you know you are a part of me right now?
I snuggled myself to the empty space beside me, hyung you are so warm… I spread the blanket around so that you would be protected from the cold air. Even though you were around me,my tears still flows… I should be happy that you are around… I leaned in to kiss your warm lips…
My hands trailed along the jaw lines of your face… Your skin looks even amazing under the moonlight… Just like an angel sleeping peacefully beside me…
Hyung, we are still in love right?
Someone pulled the arrow out and hurt him once again.
I was kneeling in front of his grave… It can’t be… You are lying. I looked at Key… Why are you playing such a sick joke?
“It’s not funny, hyung. It’s not even April fool yet.” Key erupted all his feeling at me…
“Taemin, do you think I would lie about something this?” I looked at the three graves, photos of each hyung was on there… including yours…
“I can’t let you go on like this. Jonghyun sacrifice their life just to keep you healthy and alive. But what the hell are you doing to yourself? Mentally torturing yourself, telling yourself that Jonghyun still exist.”
“If you are thinking that the whole car accident didn’t affect me, you are wrong Taemin. I lost him too. I lost Onew… But did you see me holding on to the belief that he’s not freaking dead?” He broke into tears…
The car was sent off flying, I shut my eyes tightly… I felt I was pulled into someone arms, hugging me tightly. Was this the end? I lost conscious for that moment, when I opened my eyes, we were lying at the bottom of the cliff. I couldn’t move myself, my eyes slowly began to close.
“Hang… in there… Taemin…” a hoarse voice travels to my left ear, someone was there… My mind was in a mess, the only things that register in my mind is pain and death… The pain was in fact numbing my body… I felt breathless…
I felt I was been carried on something, someone has been holding on my hands. It feels warm… It seems as if it is assuring me that I won’t die… But my energy was slowly sucked away… The voice around me was getting softer and inaudible.
“Please… save… him…” These were the last words I was able to apprehend.
“He gave up his heart for you… By a heart transplant… Is this how you are going to repay his life?” No… It’s not that… I shut my eyes tightly, allowing my tears to flow once again…
Hyung, why did you save me?
The arrow was still in his heart but his life was gone…
You weren’t with me all along… All this while I was alone…. Why hyung… Why do you have to give your life up for me? Just let me die… I placed my hands on my chest, your heart was beating within me…
Why, why do you want me to owe you for eternity…? Why do you have to make me feel guilty? You have a bright future hyung… Why do have to give it up for me? I stood in front of his grave… I took out a short knife that I had prepared and placed it near his heart.
“Hyung, I’m returning all to you…” I shut my eyes. Swing the knife high up to my eye level and… With one attempt, stabs right through my chest and his heart. Blood was trickling down the knife slowly and on this grave…. I dropped on the ground and my wound was bleeding… I find myself stupidly crying once more, because of the throbbing pain…
I’m not tired hyung…
I just wanted to return it to you…
Even if I cried in pain,
I still love you
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It will be unlocked once until 15/09/10
Thanks for being a member of silent creation~
I forget what I was thinking when I did this... :(
Maybe just want to write something angst..
And also do something for this community
Pairing: Jonghyun/Taemin
Rating: PG
Genre: Angst
Summary: How a cupid arrow killed him
A/n: Happy 3rd Month~
-Taemin POV-
He tried pulling the arrow out, but it only hurts himself…
I lay on the floor, praying that he would be back. But the cold heartless floor tells me, he’s not going to come back anymore. Photos at the side were reminding me, everything has become nothing but just memories… Tears streamed down my face, I still couldn’t accept this, and I still couldn’t accept it.
I picked up one of the photos, the photos that showed we loved before… We were smiling so brightly and blissfully…
“Hyung.” I laid my head on his shoulder, staring at the orange coloured sky. We finally made it for the sunrise. It was a really beautiful sight, with you around; everything seems even more perfect…
“Taemin, do you like the sunrise?” His smoothing voice never fails to my heart flutters…
“If it is with you hyung… I would always love the sunrise.” I managed to catch a small smile on his face.
I placed the photos on my chest, hyung… When are you coming back to watch the sun rise again? I held on to the invisible arrow that was stab in my heart. Stupid cupid. I closed my eyes once more, listening quietly to the rain…
He didn’t want to feel the pain from pulling the arrow, so he decided to leave it there…
Photos were paste all over the wall, I didn’t want to forget any of this feelings… Someone told me once, feelings and memories will fade with time… But I’m trying my best to fight with the time… I know I could never forget about you totally, so I have to remember you fully… Not a single moment to be forgotten…
If I tried pulling you from my memories, it would only hurt me even more… Your love is like an arrow, it stabbed into my heart and I can’t pull it out without hurting myself. How I hated cupid to have such design for arrows… The moment you pulled it out, the wound would only open up even more…
I looked at the empty space beside me.
“Hyung, let go out for a walk.” I pretended he was there, no… He is there. He is smiling at me right now, agreeing to my request. I held out a hand, pretending to hold on to his… No… I am holding his hands right now.
“Let's go.” I cheerfully grinned at the empty space beside me.
I sat down on the swing, not moving at all. I looked behind and smiled.
“Hyung, push me.” I looked back to the front and used my legs to push me. I started to swing.
“Higher hyung!” I was swinging higher and higher… There was a wide smile on my face…
Hyung, do you like it when I acted like a child?
He left the wound to close up the gaps around the arrow, holding on to the arrow.
“Hyung, this is our first sunset.” I tilted my head to lie on the shoulder of my beloved hyung. I could feel his hands on my shoulder, rubbing it softly to keep me warm.
“I love it too hyung… It’s because I’m with you…” I closed my eyes as the sunsets down slowly… A single drop of tears flows down from my face.
I know you are always there hyung…
"This is killing me..." I scratched my head. I looked towards our bed and pouted.
“Hyung! Stop laughing and help me out here!” I looked back at the question, nodding as he told me how to do it…
“Ah, I see! Thanks a lot Hyung!” I kissed the cold air beside me and started writing the answer given by him. I know I can always count on you hyung! I continued doing my homework, quietly and you were sitting there watching me.
Hyung, do you know you are a part of me right now?
I snuggled myself to the empty space beside me, hyung you are so warm… I spread the blanket around so that you would be protected from the cold air. Even though you were around me,my tears still flows… I should be happy that you are around… I leaned in to kiss your warm lips…
My hands trailed along the jaw lines of your face… Your skin looks even amazing under the moonlight… Just like an angel sleeping peacefully beside me…
Hyung, we are still in love right?
Someone pulled the arrow out and hurt him once again.
I was kneeling in front of his grave… It can’t be… You are lying. I looked at Key… Why are you playing such a sick joke?
“It’s not funny, hyung. It’s not even April fool yet.” Key erupted all his feeling at me…
“Taemin, do you think I would lie about something this?” I looked at the three graves, photos of each hyung was on there… including yours…
“I can’t let you go on like this. Jonghyun sacrifice their life just to keep you healthy and alive. But what the hell are you doing to yourself? Mentally torturing yourself, telling yourself that Jonghyun still exist.”
“If you are thinking that the whole car accident didn’t affect me, you are wrong Taemin. I lost him too. I lost Onew… But did you see me holding on to the belief that he’s not freaking dead?” He broke into tears…
The car was sent off flying, I shut my eyes tightly… I felt I was pulled into someone arms, hugging me tightly. Was this the end? I lost conscious for that moment, when I opened my eyes, we were lying at the bottom of the cliff. I couldn’t move myself, my eyes slowly began to close.
“Hang… in there… Taemin…” a hoarse voice travels to my left ear, someone was there… My mind was in a mess, the only things that register in my mind is pain and death… The pain was in fact numbing my body… I felt breathless…
I felt I was been carried on something, someone has been holding on my hands. It feels warm… It seems as if it is assuring me that I won’t die… But my energy was slowly sucked away… The voice around me was getting softer and inaudible.
“Please… save… him…” These were the last words I was able to apprehend.
“He gave up his heart for you… By a heart transplant… Is this how you are going to repay his life?” No… It’s not that… I shut my eyes tightly, allowing my tears to flow once again…
Hyung, why did you save me?
The arrow was still in his heart but his life was gone…
You weren’t with me all along… All this while I was alone…. Why hyung… Why do you have to give your life up for me? Just let me die… I placed my hands on my chest, your heart was beating within me…
Why, why do you want me to owe you for eternity…? Why do you have to make me feel guilty? You have a bright future hyung… Why do have to give it up for me? I stood in front of his grave… I took out a short knife that I had prepared and placed it near his heart.
“Hyung, I’m returning all to you…” I shut my eyes. Swing the knife high up to my eye level and… With one attempt, stabs right through my chest and his heart. Blood was trickling down the knife slowly and on this grave…. I dropped on the ground and my wound was bleeding… I find myself stupidly crying once more, because of the throbbing pain…
I’m not tired hyung…
I just wanted to return it to you…
Even if I cried in pain,
I still love you
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
It will be unlocked once until 15/09/10
Thanks for being a member of silent creation~
I forget what I was thinking when I did this... :(
Maybe just want to write something angst..
And also do something for this community