Confessions of an Over-Dramatic Neurotic and How He Finally Got What He Wanted - Chapter 5
Title: Confessions of an Over-Dramatic Neurotic and How He Finally Got What He Wanted
Pairing: YunJae, YooMinSu
Length: Chaptered
Genre: Romance, AU, Humor, Fluff.
Rating: PG-13 for now. NC-17 later
Warnings: Language, Crack?, Diva!Jae
Disclaimer: If I owned them, I'd be having my way with them right now, not writing this. :| I own the plot though. So do not plagiarise it or share it without prior consent.
Summary: Kim Jaejoong lies. It's what he does. But the one thing that he's always been honest about (well at least to himself) is finding his other half. His one true love.
So, when he meets Jung Siwon, he thinks he's done it...finally found the one. However, things hit the roof when Siwon's younger brother (and Jaejoong's childhood friend) comes home from America and pulls Jaejoong with him into a world that even he couldn't possibly make up... because let's face it, Yunho's out to make an honest man out of the liar...and he's going to give Jaejoong everything he's ever wanted. If not always in the way everyone expects
Chapter 5:
Blog Entry 5:
I sit here, alone, gazing into the black of the night sky, speckled with a million diamonds, a million souls and a million promises of forever.
Broken.
Beholden.
Loved.
Burning.
Burning with the beautiful embers of the forgotten and the remembered.
I see myself in them. I see. I see-
BLAHAH.
FORGET THIS.
Guys. :3
Guys ^^
GUYYYYYSSS!!!
I’ve got some news~!!! :’D
It’s funny how it’s called news, isn’t it? O_o
News by definition stands for North, East, West and South ^^
So when I give you news about myself, I’m literally talking about everything North, East, West and South of myself.
But now that I think about it…South seems a little….( I know what you’ll are thinking about >:D)
AND-
OUCH! What the hell?!
Heechul just whacked me on my HEAD!!
Fucking piece of shit-!
Walking STD!
Boyfriend stealing who-!
Votwntugnwurvnwiuewnrguqenvurbv
Wvoenrugwoervjwrkejvjrev kerjv kfv dm
Vwofvnoiervkfvnkfvnkdflvdf,v
UGH! Fine.
Geez.
Calm your flailing tits, you psycho.
ANYWAY, back to the good news.
YUNHO AND I ARE…
Drum roll please!!
*BuddaBuddaBudda Tisht*
GETTING MARRIED!!!
YAYYYYYYY!!
*applause and cheers *
Thank you! Thank you very much, you’ll are too kind. Thank you! You’re too much. No really! Thank you! Thank you so much!!
(No, I am not insane. >_> Not completely anyway. -.-)
Do you want to know what the best part is? *_*
GUESS.
GUESSS!!!!!
…
No?
IT’S THE SEX.
DUH.
SAX
SEHEX
SE~X
Yunho’s been making loooooove (notice that it’s the VERY good kind) to me all morning and afternoon and night and morning and afternoon and night and morning and …you get the idea… since we set the date and I’m just….aadjklfssdjkflllllll
MELTDOWN.
Because I’m marrying Jung Yunho in a month.
And that’s TOTALLY okay, cause we’ve been engaged for a year already and we’ve been all kinds of settled.
Settled as in:
ü Jobs
ü Great salaries
ü House (complete with 4 massive bedrooms, courtesy - Kim Heechul)
ü Permission from (very ecstatic) parents
ü Dogs (Vick and Typhoon)
ü Cat (Jiji)
ü Changmin (LULZ)
So , anyway, Heechullie, Hannie-Hyung, Siwon-Hyung, Minnie, Junjju and Chunsa are all over right now, congratulating my husband to be (FEELS.SO.GOOD!!) and destroying my beautiful apartment.
Which is okay ‘cause I’m just too happy to care.
Why?
BECAUSE I’M MARRYING JUNG FUCKING YUNHO.
BE JEALOUS.
JAE-LOUS. (xD CWIDT).
/sighs/ Do you know how hard it is for me to believe how far all of us have come in three years?
How much we’ve grown?
How, when everything was going wrong, it all turned out so right?
It’s sort of unbelievable, tbh.
My happiness isn’t something I earned. It’s something that Yunho earned FOR me. And I will always, always be grateful for that.
Huuhhuuuu. :’( Can’t I kick these imbeciles out and just go back to faux baby-making with my gorgeous man and showing him exactly how grateful I am?
Unf.
Yunho.
Naked.
Neh-kid.
Sweaty.
Growling
Thrusting.
Hard.
Oh.
Yes…
Harder…
Yeah…
So.
Fucking HARD.
Me.
Moaning.
Writhing.
Mewling.
Screaming.
Clawing desperately at his back and just…
HHHnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnngggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg.
…
…
…
/coughing/
Sorry.
It really is a disorder. :P
So enough about my marriage for now ( OHOHO such FEELS).
It isn’t exactly relevant to the story at this point, is it?
/sighs/
At least you lucky bastards know that it has a happy ending.
I was in my own personal hell at that point of time. A hell I wasn’t even aware off.
And it all started with a date, a kiss and a less than pleasant misunderstanding.
FLASHBACK TIME
Yoochun’s giving me that look again. -_-
Really, why must he reserve that look solely for me? Am I not fabulous enough without the added inquiries about my mental state?
I mean, honestly, why question perfection?
“Are you on crack?” he squeaked, his eyes wide.
Flattering. Truly.
“No, Yoochun, I’m not. Are you?”
“Seriously, WHO in their right mind goes and asks a TEACHER out on a DATE in front of the entire student body?”
“Uh. Me.”
I swear to God, he’s either losing his memory or isn’t listening to anything I’m saying anymore.
I just TOLD him that I was the one who asked Siwon out on a date. Damn, and they say goldfishes have three-second memories. Huh.
Idiot.
He’s such a-
Is that Taeyeon flirting with Changmin?
“Jaejoong-“
Haha. Junsu’s girl crush flirting with his boyfriend.
“Jaejoong.”
This is G-O-L-D.
Somebody videotape this.
She’s even putting a hand on his waist.
“Jae…Hello?”
Yoochun needs to shut up and see this.
He just needs to look outside.
Hahaha.
Oh there’s Junsu (and Yunho). Dayum, is Su actually giving her the stink eye….ohohooooo…no longer a girl crush, eh?
I’m Loling so hard at Yunho, right now. He’s all like “Where am I? What are these guys doing? Who the fuck is she?”
So cute.
He looks like a little lost hamster.
And Junsu’s got that whole “STAY AWAY FROM MY MAN” thing going on. What a loser, I mean, how on Earth are we related…?
I never get jealous.
I’m too classy for that.
“Jaejoong, are you listening to me?!”
HeeHee…Changmin looks so flustered and confused.
And- BREAKING NEWS: JUNSU JUST KISSED CHA-
“JAEJOONG!!”
“WHAT?! GOD, YOOCHUN, GIVE PEOPLE TIME TO THINK!”
He looked at me like I said something idiotic again.
“When’s your date?” he finally asked, shaking his head and throwing his arms up in surrender.
Surrender. Pfft. How dramatic.
“It’s this evening,” I said, purposely inclining my head towards the window and making jerking motions so that he’d look outside.
“Are you supposed to get there yourself?”
“Nope. He said that he’d come pick me up and that we’d go for dinner to some fancy smanshy restaurant. So I need you to help me pick out something to wear.”
“Fancy smanshy?”
Fucker, look out of the window!!
“It’s really not that hard to understand, Yoochun,” I drawled, practically using my index finger to point out of the window.
“What are you doing? Anyway, it would help if you actually gave me the name of the restaurant.”
“I would if I knew what it was, now wouldn’t I?”
Yoochun was about to reply when he FINALLY looked out of the window, after I practically used my hand to force his head that way.
There we go.
Cue dramatic hyperventilating.
“Why is Taeyeon kissing Yunho?”
huh?
“WHAT?!!!!” I screamed, pressing my face up against the glass in horror and watching Taeyeon maul a confused Yunho’s mouth while MinSu looked on in stunned silence.
“WHAT THE FUCK JUST HAPPENED?!”
“She’s kissing-“
“THAT BITCH BETTER GET HER HAND OFF OF MY MAN!”
“Your ma-?“
“SHUT UP! OH MY GOD! SHE CAN’T EVEN KISS PROPERLY! SHE’S DROOLING ALL OVER HIS FACE! AND THAT STUPID JUNSU! DO SOMETHING!”
“He’s sort of in shock-“
“WHY THE FUCK ISN’T YUNHO PUSHING THE BITCH AWAY?!!!”
“He’s kind of shocked too-“
“I’M GOING TO SKIN HER ALIVE AND USE HER AS SACRIFICE TO THE DEVIL!!!!”
“Wow. Ok. That’s not dramatic at all. Oh, look there’s Heechu-“
“THAT BASTARD NEEDS TO PUT A LEASH ON HIS BOYFRIEND! I’D NEVER LET YUNHO KISS OTHER PEOPLE!!!”
“He isn’t…He just pushed her aw- Holy shit.“
(Note that the following script has been modified by the narrator for the mental well being of his readers- due to graphic and violent content. Thank you.)
I watched in confusion as Heechul glanced up from glaring at Taeyeon, to where I was standing by the second floor window.
(How he knew where I was? I don’t know. But it scares the fuck out of me to this date. ;AA;)
“Yoochun, did he just grin at me?”
“Uh..”
“Oh my God, is he grinning at me?!”
“No..I think it’s a smirk or something more vicious. I don’t want to-,” Chun squeaked.
“This is not good.”
“No. No it isn’t.”
“What is he-?”
Oh, fucking, bollocks, bitch in bloody fucking hell, NO.
Heechul.
Grabbing.
Yunho’s.
Collar.
Kissing him.
Mauling.
Raping his mouth.
With tongue.
Fuckity Fucking Fuck.
Cannot.
Function.
Bitch.
I
Will
Kill
You
In
Your
Sleep
“JAEJOONG, YOU’RE GOING TO BREAK THE WINDOW!! CALM THE FUCK DOWN!”
I
Will
KILL-
“He’s using his phone! JAEJOONG CALM DOWN! HE’S NOT KISSING YUNHO ANYMORE!! HE’S USING HIS PHONE!! JAEJOONG!!”
I snapped out of my murderous haze when my phone beeped in response to an incoming message.
What the hell?
To: ConfusedYunSlutBorderingOnDesperate!Jaejoong
From: STD
Sub: Have fun ;)
Saw you watching the show, Love.
I hope it matched up to your standards of cheap entertainment.
Enjoy your date with Siwon tonight, K?
I’ll enjoy mine with Yunho.
And while you’re at it. Tell Siwon, Yun’s not going to be home tonight. We’ve got things to catch up on. ;)
Toodles ~!
Hours.
It felt like I was sitting there for hours staring at the message.
Reading but not comprehending.
(You have to understand something.
Yunho was always mine. I didn’t need to share him with anyone. Not ever.
And that was the root of my confusion.
I was always in love with Yunho. I admired Siwon. But my blindness stemmed from the fact that I’d forgotten how to segregate infatuation from love.
Segregate Yunho from being a part of me.)
It makes me sick.
Them. Together. Makes me sick.
And-
No.
Yunho’s my best friend. Not my lover.
Siwon. Siwon’s the one I love.
I love Siwon. He’s the perfect one for me. Not his brother.
Not Yunho.
Why do I have to keep reminding myself of this?
Why is this so hard?
“Jaejoong?”
“…”
“Jae? Are you okay? You’ve been staring at that thing for twenty minutes already.”
“…”
“Jae-“
“Fuck this shit. Come on, Chun. I have to get ready for my date. I’m already late.”
“But-But-“
“I have to look extra sexy so that Siwon won’t be able to take his eyes off of me, okay? I’ll make him mine tonight, Chun. Mark my words.”
“But what about Yunho?”
“What about him. He’s just a friend, Chun.”
Liar. You big fat fucking liar.
“You-“
“And anyway, who needs Yunho when I’ve got someone like Siwon, right? Let’s face it, Yoochun. I don’t do sloppy seconds. I’m worth more than Jung Yunho. I deserve the best.”
Stupid Jaejoong. Stupid, stupid Jaejoong.
I turned with a smirk (my heart stinging in pain and tears prickling my eyes) and froze when I realized we weren’t alone.
Heechul stood there in front of me, his hand raised (frozen) in hello, his eyes wide in unadulterated shock.
“Heechul-“
“Uh...I...my…Bag…I…”
Oh Shit
Shit
Shit
Shit
“Heechul-“ I started, my heart thundering in my chest; panic welling up inside me like a venomous snake.
Don’t look at me like that.
Stop.
You have no right to look at me like I said something wrong.
It’s your fault.
It’s always your fault.
I love Yunho.
I love him.
So, stop looking at me like that!
“Heechul-“
“Sorry, uh, I, uh, left my backpack here and I’ll just- Yeah.”
I stayed still (shocked, destroyed) as he walked past me with his head bent down; avoiding my eyes while his own turned calculating and angry.
I turned to see him grab hold of his backpack and felt a hundred words lie uselessly on my tongue as I watched his shoulders quake with suppressed anger.
“Heechul, I was just-“
“No,” He hissed dangerously, coming up in front of me and looking at me right in the eye, “You don’t get to defend yourself right now, you blithering idiot. Yunho gets that right. Not you. I thought you were in love with him. I thought you were willing to fight me for him. I guess I expected too much from someone like you. But you know what? Yunho’s the one that deserves better. He’s worth more than a hundred of you. But good luck trying to get him now. I’m going to make sure he sees right through your miserable, self-indulgent, bitchy self.”
“Heechul!”
“Fuck off, Jaejoong. Seriously. See you tomorrow, Yoochun.” He said, cocking an eyebrow at me and walking out of the door.
“FUCK!”
END FLASHBACK
STOP SIDING WITH HEECHUL RIGHT THIS INSTANT!!! ;AAAA;
And stop worrying so much. Things really weren’t as bad as they seemed and, well, Yunho and Heechul were a lot smarter than they let on. (You’ll just have to wait for Yunho’s blog entry to figure out what they were up to xD)
As for right now…I just want to find Yunho, fall asleep on his lap and not think about anything anymore.
See you next time.
Ciao
Xoxo
Going-to-be-a-Jung-next-month Jaejoong.
++++++++++++++++++
A/N Well, I hope you guys enjoyed it xD Comments are appreciated <3
Pairing: YunJae, YooMinSu
Length: Chaptered
Genre: Romance, AU, Humor, Fluff.
Rating: PG-13 for now. NC-17 later
Warnings: Language, Crack?, Diva!Jae
Disclaimer: If I owned them, I'd be having my way with them right now, not writing this. :| I own the plot though. So do not plagiarise it or share it without prior consent.
Summary: Kim Jaejoong lies. It's what he does. But the one thing that he's always been honest about (well at least to himself) is finding his other half. His one true love.
So, when he meets Jung Siwon, he thinks he's done it...finally found the one. However, things hit the roof when Siwon's younger brother (and Jaejoong's childhood friend) comes home from America and pulls Jaejoong with him into a world that even he couldn't possibly make up... because let's face it, Yunho's out to make an honest man out of the liar...and he's going to give Jaejoong everything he's ever wanted. If not always in the way everyone expects
Chapter 5:
Blog Entry 5:
I sit here, alone, gazing into the black of the night sky, speckled with a million diamonds, a million souls and a million promises of forever.
Broken.
Beholden.
Loved.
Burning.
Burning with the beautiful embers of the forgotten and the remembered.
I see myself in them. I see. I see-
BLAHAH.
FORGET THIS.
Guys. :3
Guys ^^
GUYYYYYSSS!!!
I’ve got some news~!!! :’D
It’s funny how it’s called news, isn’t it? O_o
News by definition stands for North, East, West and South ^^
So when I give you news about myself, I’m literally talking about everything North, East, West and South of myself.
But now that I think about it…South seems a little….( I know what you’ll are thinking about >:D)
AND-
OUCH! What the hell?!
Heechul just whacked me on my HEAD!!
Fucking piece of shit-!
Walking STD!
Boyfriend stealing who-!
Votwntugnwurvnwiuewnrguqenvurbv
Wvoenrugwoervjwrkejvjrev kerjv kfv dm
Vwofvnoiervkfvnkfvnkdflvdf,v
UGH! Fine.
Geez.
Calm your flailing tits, you psycho.
ANYWAY, back to the good news.
YUNHO AND I ARE…
Drum roll please!!
*BuddaBuddaBudda Tisht*
GETTING MARRIED!!!
YAYYYYYYY!!
*applause and cheers *
Thank you! Thank you very much, you’ll are too kind. Thank you! You’re too much. No really! Thank you! Thank you so much!!
(No, I am not insane. >_> Not completely anyway. -.-)
Do you want to know what the best part is? *_*
GUESS.
GUESSS!!!!!
…
No?
IT’S THE SEX.
DUH.
SAX
SEHEX
SE~X
Yunho’s been making loooooove (notice that it’s the VERY good kind) to me all morning and afternoon and night and morning and afternoon and night and morning and …you get the idea… since we set the date and I’m just….aadjklfssdjkflllllll
MELTDOWN.
Because I’m marrying Jung Yunho in a month.
And that’s TOTALLY okay, cause we’ve been engaged for a year already and we’ve been all kinds of settled.
Settled as in:
ü Jobs
ü Great salaries
ü House (complete with 4 massive bedrooms, courtesy - Kim Heechul)
ü Permission from (very ecstatic) parents
ü Dogs (Vick and Typhoon)
ü Cat (Jiji)
ü Changmin (LULZ)
So , anyway, Heechullie, Hannie-Hyung, Siwon-Hyung, Minnie, Junjju and Chunsa are all over right now, congratulating my husband to be (FEELS.SO.GOOD!!) and destroying my beautiful apartment.
Which is okay ‘cause I’m just too happy to care.
Why?
BECAUSE I’M MARRYING JUNG FUCKING YUNHO.
BE JEALOUS.
JAE-LOUS. (xD CWIDT).
/sighs/ Do you know how hard it is for me to believe how far all of us have come in three years?
How much we’ve grown?
How, when everything was going wrong, it all turned out so right?
It’s sort of unbelievable, tbh.
My happiness isn’t something I earned. It’s something that Yunho earned FOR me. And I will always, always be grateful for that.
Huuhhuuuu. :’( Can’t I kick these imbeciles out and just go back to faux baby-making with my gorgeous man and showing him exactly how grateful I am?
Unf.
Yunho.
Naked.
Neh-kid.
Sweaty.
Growling
Thrusting.
Hard.
Oh.
Yes…
Harder…
Yeah…
So.
Fucking HARD.
Me.
Moaning.
Writhing.
Mewling.
Screaming.
Clawing desperately at his back and just…
HHHnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnngggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg.
…
…
…
/coughing/
Sorry.
It really is a disorder. :P
So enough about my marriage for now ( OHOHO such FEELS).
It isn’t exactly relevant to the story at this point, is it?
/sighs/
At least you lucky bastards know that it has a happy ending.
I was in my own personal hell at that point of time. A hell I wasn’t even aware off.
And it all started with a date, a kiss and a less than pleasant misunderstanding.
FLASHBACK TIME
Yoochun’s giving me that look again. -_-
Really, why must he reserve that look solely for me? Am I not fabulous enough without the added inquiries about my mental state?
I mean, honestly, why question perfection?
“Are you on crack?” he squeaked, his eyes wide.
Flattering. Truly.
“No, Yoochun, I’m not. Are you?”
“Seriously, WHO in their right mind goes and asks a TEACHER out on a DATE in front of the entire student body?”
“Uh. Me.”
I swear to God, he’s either losing his memory or isn’t listening to anything I’m saying anymore.
I just TOLD him that I was the one who asked Siwon out on a date. Damn, and they say goldfishes have three-second memories. Huh.
Idiot.
He’s such a-
Is that Taeyeon flirting with Changmin?
“Jaejoong-“
Haha. Junsu’s girl crush flirting with his boyfriend.
“Jaejoong.”
This is G-O-L-D.
Somebody videotape this.
She’s even putting a hand on his waist.
“Jae…Hello?”
Yoochun needs to shut up and see this.
He just needs to look outside.
Hahaha.
Oh there’s Junsu (and Yunho). Dayum, is Su actually giving her the stink eye….ohohooooo…no longer a girl crush, eh?
I’m Loling so hard at Yunho, right now. He’s all like “Where am I? What are these guys doing? Who the fuck is she?”
So cute.
He looks like a little lost hamster.
And Junsu’s got that whole “STAY AWAY FROM MY MAN” thing going on. What a loser, I mean, how on Earth are we related…?
I never get jealous.
I’m too classy for that.
“Jaejoong, are you listening to me?!”
HeeHee…Changmin looks so flustered and confused.
And- BREAKING NEWS: JUNSU JUST KISSED CHA-
“JAEJOONG!!”
“WHAT?! GOD, YOOCHUN, GIVE PEOPLE TIME TO THINK!”
He looked at me like I said something idiotic again.
“When’s your date?” he finally asked, shaking his head and throwing his arms up in surrender.
Surrender. Pfft. How dramatic.
“It’s this evening,” I said, purposely inclining my head towards the window and making jerking motions so that he’d look outside.
“Are you supposed to get there yourself?”
“Nope. He said that he’d come pick me up and that we’d go for dinner to some fancy smanshy restaurant. So I need you to help me pick out something to wear.”
“Fancy smanshy?”
Fucker, look out of the window!!
“It’s really not that hard to understand, Yoochun,” I drawled, practically using my index finger to point out of the window.
“What are you doing? Anyway, it would help if you actually gave me the name of the restaurant.”
“I would if I knew what it was, now wouldn’t I?”
Yoochun was about to reply when he FINALLY looked out of the window, after I practically used my hand to force his head that way.
There we go.
Cue dramatic hyperventilating.
“Why is Taeyeon kissing Yunho?”
huh?
“WHAT?!!!!” I screamed, pressing my face up against the glass in horror and watching Taeyeon maul a confused Yunho’s mouth while MinSu looked on in stunned silence.
“WHAT THE FUCK JUST HAPPENED?!”
“She’s kissing-“
“THAT BITCH BETTER GET HER HAND OFF OF MY MAN!”
“Your ma-?“
“SHUT UP! OH MY GOD! SHE CAN’T EVEN KISS PROPERLY! SHE’S DROOLING ALL OVER HIS FACE! AND THAT STUPID JUNSU! DO SOMETHING!”
“He’s sort of in shock-“
“WHY THE FUCK ISN’T YUNHO PUSHING THE BITCH AWAY?!!!”
“He’s kind of shocked too-“
“I’M GOING TO SKIN HER ALIVE AND USE HER AS SACRIFICE TO THE DEVIL!!!!”
“Wow. Ok. That’s not dramatic at all. Oh, look there’s Heechu-“
“THAT BASTARD NEEDS TO PUT A LEASH ON HIS BOYFRIEND! I’D NEVER LET YUNHO KISS OTHER PEOPLE!!!”
“He isn’t…He just pushed her aw- Holy shit.“
(Note that the following script has been modified by the narrator for the mental well being of his readers- due to graphic and violent content. Thank you.)
I watched in confusion as Heechul glanced up from glaring at Taeyeon, to where I was standing by the second floor window.
(How he knew where I was? I don’t know. But it scares the fuck out of me to this date. ;AA;)
“Yoochun, did he just grin at me?”
“Uh..”
“Oh my God, is he grinning at me?!”
“No..I think it’s a smirk or something more vicious. I don’t want to-,” Chun squeaked.
“This is not good.”
“No. No it isn’t.”
“What is he-?”
Oh, fucking, bollocks, bitch in bloody fucking hell, NO.
Heechul.
Grabbing.
Yunho’s.
Collar.
Kissing him.
Mauling.
Raping his mouth.
With tongue.
Fuckity Fucking Fuck.
Cannot.
Function.
Bitch.
I
Will
Kill
You
In
Your
Sleep
“JAEJOONG, YOU’RE GOING TO BREAK THE WINDOW!! CALM THE FUCK DOWN!”
I
Will
KILL-
“He’s using his phone! JAEJOONG CALM DOWN! HE’S NOT KISSING YUNHO ANYMORE!! HE’S USING HIS PHONE!! JAEJOONG!!”
I snapped out of my murderous haze when my phone beeped in response to an incoming message.
What the hell?
To: ConfusedYunSlutBorderingOnDesperate!Jaejoong
From: STD
Sub: Have fun ;)
Saw you watching the show, Love.
I hope it matched up to your standards of cheap entertainment.
Enjoy your date with Siwon tonight, K?
I’ll enjoy mine with Yunho.
And while you’re at it. Tell Siwon, Yun’s not going to be home tonight. We’ve got things to catch up on. ;)
Toodles ~!
Hours.
It felt like I was sitting there for hours staring at the message.
Reading but not comprehending.
(You have to understand something.
Yunho was always mine. I didn’t need to share him with anyone. Not ever.
And that was the root of my confusion.
I was always in love with Yunho. I admired Siwon. But my blindness stemmed from the fact that I’d forgotten how to segregate infatuation from love.
Segregate Yunho from being a part of me.)
It makes me sick.
Them. Together. Makes me sick.
And-
No.
Yunho’s my best friend. Not my lover.
Siwon. Siwon’s the one I love.
I love Siwon. He’s the perfect one for me. Not his brother.
Not Yunho.
Why do I have to keep reminding myself of this?
Why is this so hard?
“Jaejoong?”
“…”
“Jae? Are you okay? You’ve been staring at that thing for twenty minutes already.”
“…”
“Jae-“
“Fuck this shit. Come on, Chun. I have to get ready for my date. I’m already late.”
“But-But-“
“I have to look extra sexy so that Siwon won’t be able to take his eyes off of me, okay? I’ll make him mine tonight, Chun. Mark my words.”
“But what about Yunho?”
“What about him. He’s just a friend, Chun.”
Liar. You big fat fucking liar.
“You-“
“And anyway, who needs Yunho when I’ve got someone like Siwon, right? Let’s face it, Yoochun. I don’t do sloppy seconds. I’m worth more than Jung Yunho. I deserve the best.”
Stupid Jaejoong. Stupid, stupid Jaejoong.
I turned with a smirk (my heart stinging in pain and tears prickling my eyes) and froze when I realized we weren’t alone.
Heechul stood there in front of me, his hand raised (frozen) in hello, his eyes wide in unadulterated shock.
“Heechul-“
“Uh...I...my…Bag…I…”
Oh Shit
Shit
Shit
Shit
“Heechul-“ I started, my heart thundering in my chest; panic welling up inside me like a venomous snake.
Don’t look at me like that.
Stop.
You have no right to look at me like I said something wrong.
It’s your fault.
It’s always your fault.
I love Yunho.
I love him.
So, stop looking at me like that!
“Heechul-“
“Sorry, uh, I, uh, left my backpack here and I’ll just- Yeah.”
I stayed still (shocked, destroyed) as he walked past me with his head bent down; avoiding my eyes while his own turned calculating and angry.
I turned to see him grab hold of his backpack and felt a hundred words lie uselessly on my tongue as I watched his shoulders quake with suppressed anger.
“Heechul, I was just-“
“No,” He hissed dangerously, coming up in front of me and looking at me right in the eye, “You don’t get to defend yourself right now, you blithering idiot. Yunho gets that right. Not you. I thought you were in love with him. I thought you were willing to fight me for him. I guess I expected too much from someone like you. But you know what? Yunho’s the one that deserves better. He’s worth more than a hundred of you. But good luck trying to get him now. I’m going to make sure he sees right through your miserable, self-indulgent, bitchy self.”
“Heechul!”
“Fuck off, Jaejoong. Seriously. See you tomorrow, Yoochun.” He said, cocking an eyebrow at me and walking out of the door.
“FUCK!”
END FLASHBACK
STOP SIDING WITH HEECHUL RIGHT THIS INSTANT!!! ;AAAA;
And stop worrying so much. Things really weren’t as bad as they seemed and, well, Yunho and Heechul were a lot smarter than they let on. (You’ll just have to wait for Yunho’s blog entry to figure out what they were up to xD)
As for right now…I just want to find Yunho, fall asleep on his lap and not think about anything anymore.
See you next time.
Ciao
Xoxo
Going-to-be-a-Jung-next-month Jaejoong.
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A/N Well, I hope you guys enjoyed it xD Comments are appreciated <3