Ponderings of a Wicked (Lonely) Mind
Author: Shriya_4
Pairing: OT5 (Minsu if you peer hard enough)
Genre: Angst, Fluff
Rating: PG
Length: Drabble
Disclaimer: The characters belong to themselves in this world. In my world they are my bitches.
Summary: Changmin wonders... why?
Four years and this was the first time he’d seen them up close.
He’d stalked them repeatedly over the years and had at times half wondered whether he was driving himself insane while doing so.
He hated himself for his inability to move on and wondered quite scathingly if he could just send them hate mail and attribute his moments of insanity to “getting to know thine enemy”.
But he knew that wasn’t true.
They weren’t his enemies.
They weren’t his friends.
They weren’t his family.
They were nothing.
Just plain nothing.
Then why does it hurt so much.
Why did seeing them smile make it seem like the world had righted itself in one way but wronged itself in another.
Why are you‘ll smiling like that without me?
FLASHBACK
He watched Yunho take the stage, “Annyeonghaseyo, I’m the leader of Dong Bang Shin Ki, U-Know Yunho.”
He walked up beside him.
“And I’m Choikang Changmin, the rest of Dong Bang Shin Ki.”
He heard the gasps.
He relished in them.
He smirked engagingly.
and sobbed helplessly on the inside.
I hope you're watching...and I hope it hurts....just as much as it hurts saying it.
END FLASHBACK
He felt Kyuhyun touch his shoulder. He felt Minho drape an arm around his waist and he watched with detached interest as Leeteuk, Heechul and Donghae did the same with Yunho.
It was a challenge.
It was almost like it was being screamed out into the emptiness of the dome.
He looked back and stared at the three that were staring back at him.
He wondered what they saw on his face. What they saw on Yunho's.
He just wondered.
They mean nothing. He kept chanting pathetically in his head as he watched them wait for his first move.
Nothing.
No.
Everything.
They mean everything.
Kyuhyun leaned forward and placed his lips against his ear.
He watched in mild fascination as Junsu’s hand curled into an imperceptible fist.
Why?
“Go.”
That one whispered word was all it took.
He took one step forward.
Watched as they took another.
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A/N So random. I know. I have my tests going on and as usual procrastination has decided to make its more than unwanted appearance..
For all the "It Takes Two" readers. I'll update on the 13th for sure. So look forward to it <3
Pairing: OT5 (Minsu if you peer hard enough)
Genre: Angst, Fluff
Rating: PG
Length: Drabble
Disclaimer: The characters belong to themselves in this world. In my world they are my bitches.
Summary: Changmin wonders... why?
Four years and this was the first time he’d seen them up close.
He’d stalked them repeatedly over the years and had at times half wondered whether he was driving himself insane while doing so.
He hated himself for his inability to move on and wondered quite scathingly if he could just send them hate mail and attribute his moments of insanity to “getting to know thine enemy”.
But he knew that wasn’t true.
They weren’t his enemies.
They weren’t his friends.
They weren’t his family.
They were nothing.
Just plain nothing.
Then why does it hurt so much.
Why did seeing them smile make it seem like the world had righted itself in one way but wronged itself in another.
Why are you‘ll smiling like that without me?
FLASHBACK
He watched Yunho take the stage, “Annyeonghaseyo, I’m the leader of Dong Bang Shin Ki, U-Know Yunho.”
He walked up beside him.
“And I’m Choikang Changmin, the rest of Dong Bang Shin Ki.”
He heard the gasps.
He relished in them.
He smirked engagingly.
and sobbed helplessly on the inside.
I hope you're watching...and I hope it hurts....just as much as it hurts saying it.
END FLASHBACK
He felt Kyuhyun touch his shoulder. He felt Minho drape an arm around his waist and he watched with detached interest as Leeteuk, Heechul and Donghae did the same with Yunho.
It was a challenge.
It was almost like it was being screamed out into the emptiness of the dome.
He looked back and stared at the three that were staring back at him.
He wondered what they saw on his face. What they saw on Yunho's.
He just wondered.
They mean nothing. He kept chanting pathetically in his head as he watched them wait for his first move.
Nothing.
No.
Everything.
They mean everything.
Kyuhyun leaned forward and placed his lips against his ear.
He watched in mild fascination as Junsu’s hand curled into an imperceptible fist.
Why?
“Go.”
That one whispered word was all it took.
He took one step forward.
Watched as they took another.
_______________________________________________________________________________________
A/N So random. I know. I have my tests going on and as usual procrastination has decided to make its more than unwanted appearance..
For all the "It Takes Two" readers. I'll update on the 13th for sure. So look forward to it <3