I'm sorry. I'm so, so sorry...

Jul 07, 2009 16:01

I haven't stopped crying for the past FIVE hours. I will write and explain why, once I calm down. I have to eat something, or else I'm just gonna sit here and sob all day ( Read more... )

pain, michael jackson, life, fanfic

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showmescars July 8 2009, 04:50:24 UTC
Yeah, that one moment when Al Sharpton said that, he was not hated by me (possibly for the 1st time ever). That was a pperfect thing to say, because I keep seeing terrible jokes on late night TV, and you really don't want those kids hearing these things.

I loved those other moments in it, too. And when Jennifer Hudson sang "Will You Be There". After that song, it really hit me that he had passed away, though I found it kinda sad that they had the casket there. But I guess if not for it being there, maybe Paris wouldn't've said anything.

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bellajoker July 7 2009, 22:22:04 UTC
Aw bb,you're sad because of MJ?I'm sure he's in a better place now.Though I'm sad about it too,I liked his songs,seriously!
if you need a friend to talk,i'll be right here.

and about the fanfiction...uhm...I'm kinda interested in reading it XD

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showmescars July 8 2009, 04:22:36 UTC
I don't know if I'll post that fanfic publicly to fanfiction.net, because:

1. It's really personal. It's the things that I wanted to happen in between Michael & me. Sure, I think he's sexy (yes, really.)but it'll maybe just have it one time. Otherwise it's gonna be based on the dreams I've had over the past 15 years, and the one I had the night before he passed.

2. Most importantly, I really do not like people telling I'm: freaky, how sick I am, jokes about MJ, etc.

The only way that I see that he's in a better place right now is that in heaven, I seriously doubt that there are tabloids. So he doesn't have to be told how he's given birth to 3-headed babies, or something.

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bellajoker July 8 2009, 20:14:06 UTC
Uhm....you don't need to put it in fanfiction.net . But it's ok anyway.
And you shouldn't care about what other people think.It's your opinion,they shouldn't be so disrespectful about it. I like MJ too and I think he was kinda cute in his own way.

And I believe he's in heaven now,with Heathus.Probably.

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I don't offend easily, but... showmescars July 10 2009, 02:36:38 UTC
Nope, I'm just gonna put it on LJ. And yes, you're right. I shouldn't care what people think but it pains me when some dumbass 15 or 45 yr-old immature guy (or gal) who thinks they're so fucking clever because they make a joke about a dead person. It's not respectful. It's been a week, and I'm still crying. And people don't give a shit if they hurt someone. I mean look at TheJokerBlogs.com : they have a joke category where people still post jokes about Michael. I don't post jokes about the musicians they love that have passed away, so why should I post about theirs. It's not fucking funny. It's disrespectful!

So it'll go under friends-only on my journal.

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disco_trash July 7 2009, 23:10:03 UTC
i live like an hour from neverland. if you ever make it out here, id love to meet you

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showmescars July 8 2009, 04:39:57 UTC
I'd love to get there sometime. Maybe over the next few months! I also have a proposition for you. I needed to get there (obviously) so I could pay my respects. Is there any way that you could put down some flowers @ Neverland Ranch along w/ a sign. Flowers by themselves would be great, unless I remember what I wanted on that sign too. And I'd pay ya for it, if needed. Let me now whatcha think.

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batkisses July 7 2009, 23:49:54 UTC
*hugs* Aww hon. *more hugs*

And rest assured I ALWAYS read my friend's entries. Even if I may not leave a comment necessarily, I do read every word [well with the exception of people who repost their Tweets on LJ... those entries I admittedly just skip on over...]

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showmescars July 8 2009, 04:28:20 UTC
Thanks so much! I don't see the point of reposting Tweets, either. Unless of course, you're elaborating your posts, or something. I really don't like Twitter that much, anyway.

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passion4truth July 9 2009, 13:52:58 UTC
Aw... *hugs* I feel share your pain, thats awesome you are writing about your feelings, I cried all day on Tuesday, I could not even update til yesterday, I tried and could not put it together but I finally did a nice tribute.

Thanks for saying that, I hate it when people say horrible things like that, Michael would never abuse a child and I am so upset to see comments like that, some are so harsh.

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showmescars July 9 2009, 17:19:15 UTC
It's just that people STILL make jokes about those stupid charges. Someone said @ MJ's site that "they should recycle him into plastic cups so kids can still put their lips on his rim". On HIS site! I just keep flagging them as inappropriate. I mean, maybe some of his family reads it. That's just so inappropriate!

And I'm trying to write, because it makes me feel better. Other than listening to the music.

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passion4truth July 10 2009, 01:44:58 UTC
Oh I know, I saw a lot of hateful comments saying they are glad he is dead and now children can be safe, I said maybe you need to check your surrounding, as if you are your kids would ever get close enough to Michael, your own family is probably sexually abusing your kids. And someone said "yay one less Obama supporter", I got so mad and asked how do you know that MJ supported Obama? not all black people supports him and I dont recall MJ mentioning it, stupid, stupid people.

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showmescars July 10 2009, 05:50:11 UTC
I'm guessing the stupid comment is racist. You know, both black men? Obama supporters, etc? What an asshole. I never heard anything about MJ claiming to a political party. I think the last time he was in the White House was during the Regan admministration, but I don't take him for ever being a republican.

1st. I hate it when people say "yay!"
2nd. What's wrong with supporting Obama? Just because Obama said something about MJ's passing, doesn't mean that Michael either liked Obama or didn't.

And if people think that their children are safe from "child molesters" (even though he isn't one), maybe they're bad parents for taking their children near people who sexually abuse children!

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