Courage, things will get better <3 Looking after Claire must be exhausting for you, hence the tiredness and the melting brain feeling. Trust me, I feel the same after my lessons with young kiddies, and that's just a couple of hours per week ^^;; (still teaching babies, couldn't resist when I found out Shanghai's AF wanted to start 3-6yo classes <3)
So yeah, don't feel bad for being tired and everything, lots of people couldn't cope with studying and being a young parent at the same time... The young parent bit must be really emotionally draining as well, which is way worse than just physical exhaustion imho... So yeah, bon courage and take care of yourself <3 <3 :)
I think the baffling bit is that I'm almost at the end of spring break and I feel more exhausted than I did before it started. Not looking forward to revision, that's for sure!
Lol... its a lovely name. I never really liked Claire (Lost) I thought she was whiney. But I guess you would be, having a baby on an island filled with freaky scientist people.
Yay! Sexy men! Have you been watching Bones? MAN! DB is gorgeous and goofy.
Look, your brain is the same as it ever was. There are probably some residual mummy chemicals around (which is a GOOD THING) but you are as intelligent as you ever were. Just give it some time and trust yourself. Have you ever told your husband about losing confidence and motivation when you're trying to do things right? Because maybe he could help motivate you. Everything's much easier when you have someone else there to give you a helping hand.
Squee! He does have a pretty dim view of the world but he is hilarious. Maybe Squee would help.
Aw honey, I am sorry to hear things are going so poorly for you. People our age totally can get mono and other long term viral infections, so maybe you should get checked out, and it's not your responsibility to support the whole family, you are in a partnership and I am sure Olly does not want you to put everything on your shoulders. Just do your part, don't take on the whole world. And, as someone else already said, having tiny childrens is a stressful thing that is rumored to make _everybody_ stupid. You are doing a _lot_ by being a good mom to that little girl of yours and taking your classes already, so try not to beat yourself up, you know? Not that I am the world expert at not beating myself up.
Love you hun, wish I were closer so I could come visit you.
I think the thing is- it may not be my reponsibility to support the whole family, but it probably will pretty much come down to me for the next 15 years or so, at least until Olly can get out into the world of writing. Another thing that makes it so stressful is that I really want to be a mom above all things but I get to be the dad in this- the one who has the bigger paycheck, the one who works the long hours, and the one who doesn't get to spend time with the kids. It makes me bitter, and I don't like that. It's not the life I thought I'd have, but I know that to make my family happy it's the one I'll take. Olly can't have the long hours, be a dad, and still have time to write. I can have a job I enjoy and still be a parent, which is something Olly can't do while making money. So until he makes it, I'll be stuck with the responsibility.
I guess I just need to have an outlet for the stress and bitter in my life. I take it out on Oliver far too much.
Also, it doesn't help that Claire already shows a strong preference for Oliver. She often cries for him to come back when he leaves her with me. That breaks my heart a LOT.
I had mono my sophomore year of college. You're never too old to get it from what I hear. As an adult they call it "Epstein Bar" though, and it is supposedly worse if you get it when older. I guess that wasn't too inspiring... but it's probably a good sign if your ears and throat don't feel like they are being stung repeatedly by ants... that's what it felt like for me.
Things will get better for you. And I'm glad you posted! :)
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Looking after Claire must be exhausting for you, hence the tiredness and the melting brain feeling. Trust me, I feel the same after my lessons with young kiddies, and that's just a couple of hours per week ^^;; (still teaching babies, couldn't resist when I found out Shanghai's AF wanted to start 3-6yo classes <3)
So yeah, don't feel bad for being tired and everything, lots of people couldn't cope with studying and being a young parent at the same time... The young parent bit must be really emotionally draining as well, which is way worse than just physical exhaustion imho... So yeah, bon courage and take care of yourself <3 <3 :)
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anyway, thanks <3
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When Claire's party exactly?
I need to make sure I can get the day off work.
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Her party is on the friday before her birthday- the 4th. However, if you feel like you can't afford the trip, I'll totally understand <3
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I just got my hours in and I work until 5 that day.
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Yay! Sexy men! Have you been watching Bones? MAN! DB is gorgeous and goofy.
Look, your brain is the same as it ever was. There are probably some residual mummy chemicals around (which is a GOOD THING) but you are as intelligent as you ever were. Just give it some time and trust yourself. Have you ever told your husband about losing confidence and motivation when you're trying to do things right? Because maybe he could help motivate you. Everything's much easier when you have someone else there to give you a helping hand.
Squee! He does have a pretty dim view of the world but he is hilarious. Maybe Squee would help.
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Love you hun, wish I were closer so I could come visit you.
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I guess I just need to have an outlet for the stress and bitter in my life. I take it out on Oliver far too much.
Love you too. <3
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Things will get better for you. And I'm glad you posted! :)
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