faNfic: Drifting Clouds
Title: Drifting Clouds [one-shot]
Author: shinju
Genre: Attempted Romance
Rating: G
Pairing: Yamada Ryosuke x Shida Mirai
Summary: The drifting clouds reminded her of something she never expected to happen. (and there goes another failed summary. Anyone there who would like to beta this?)
A/N: and because I am a YamaShi fan, I’m writing this. Not sure though but I’m giving my best shot. To Kuya Fritz and Ate Mai, hehe this is for you…uwaa nothing much inside and gomen I’m not good at this. Arigatou for being super nice to me…>.< ~♥~
She’s definitely in love with him but she can’t just say it.
It was almost sun set and I was walking by the usual path. Same routine when he’s still here. I miss him already. It has only been days since we last walked by this pavement. When we said our goodbyes without telling him what I really felt. Feeling a bit dramatic, I looked up in the sky and seeing the drifting clouds reminded me of that day.
It’s supposed to be a group bonding but our friends did not show up leaving us two alone. My friends knew that I have special feelings for Ryosuke so I suspected that this was planned. It felt awkward. I was really shy and panicking. I couldn’t utter even a word.
“So I guess it’ll be just the two of us?” he suddenly said.
“Uh…yes…I think so too…” I uttered followed by an awkward laugh. Oh how I wish he can’t hear my heart pounding furiously against my chest. I want to go home yet some part of me told me that I should stay and spend some time with him. But IT’S FREAKING NERVE-RACKING! WHAT SHOULD I DO? I just hope my actions won’t reflect what I really feel.
He suddenly smiled. That one smile that made me crazy every time. “Wait here.” He said and ran off. I wondered why it took him ages to return so I began to look around. Lovers are everywhere. “You guys are so dead when I see you” I muttered to myself. I promise I make them explain why they have to leave us alone. My heart started to beat crazily again as I felt hands covering my eyes. His scent floated in the air so I knew it was him.
“Yamada-kun?” I tried to sound like I was guessing.
He chuckled “Call me Ryosuke. What’s with the formality?” he tilted his head on one side. He looked innocent with those gestures he’s creating. I found it so cute that I felt my cheeks go warm.
“Since it’ll be just the two us, you’re going with me. I’ll show you something nice.”
“Where to?” I asked curiously.
“Just come with me.” He grabbed my hand. It seemed too good to be true. I was just looking at his hands before imagining what it would be like if I were to touch it. I felt electricity run through my being.
I was mesmerized by the fact that he was holding my hand that I haven’t noticed that he brought me up a nearby hill.
“We’re here” he announced. “Beautiful isn’t it? I know you like this kind of place so I brought you here.” Since when did he knew that? Couldn’t he be--? Oh Mirai… relax… don’t think too much. Maybe he’s just being nice.
He lies down the soft green grass and spread his arms breathing in the fresh air. “You should try it too!” he said patting the space by his side. I closed my eyes as soon as my body got contact onto the grass. It was calming.
“Open your eyes Mirai. Look above.” He instructed.
I did as I was told. Opening my eyes, I saw the drifting clouds. It glided ever so gracefully across the vast sky. All the nervousness I felt earlier went away.
“They’re beautiful.” I stated in awe.
After sometime I sat up and gazed at the wonderful view of the place below the hill. “Great spot Ryosuke-kun. This place is awesome! Thank you for bringing me here.”
He sat up too. He looked serious yet unsure.
“Want to see something else beautiful?”
“Of course! I’d be glad to!” I wondered what it would be. I became excited.
“Close your eyes.” He said.
I slowly closed my eyes. My heart raced as I felt him come closer. He helped me to stand. I kept myself busy with thinking of what beautiful he’s talking about or where he’ll bring me this time. My thoughts were interrupted as I felt something soft brushing against my lips.
Of course I was shocked! I wasn’t able to move an inch and even felt my heart stopped beating for a while. My poor brain tried to obey my initial command to push him but badly failed.
“Mirai…I love you.” He said fidgeting. He’s getting redder as minutes pass.
“uh… I…uhh… it’s getting late don’t you think?” I blurted out of no where. This is too much for my brain cells isn’t it?
He looked like a kicked puppy. He felt rejected. It’s not like I don’t love him. HELL he doesn’t know how much love this heart is ready to give him! But… for some reason…I don’t know…I don’t know why I can’t tell him that I love him too. It’s not easy. I need to think first.
So we ended up by this road. This road where I am as of the moment. We said our goodbyes without me telling what I really feel for him. I crushed the letter I have on my hand. This letter broke my heart. He apologized that he wasn’t able to tell me he’s leaving and thank you for everything.
That’s all.
No explanations.
I tried calling him; e-mailed him dozen of times but there came no reply. I regretted I haven’t told him right away. I hate myself for being selfish not telling him the truth. Why was I scared in the first place? Is it because I doubted his sincerity? Because he’s always joking around? Maybe. But I should have told him anyway. Love is risk-taking. You can’t guarantee what will happen next. You just have to trust your feelings and be honest because the truth always sets a person free. I definitely love him. I’m sure of that now but he’s gone and I don’t know when I will see him again.
A tear is now sliding down my cheeks. I didn’t realize that thinking of him will make me this emotional. I dragged my feet home.
I stop dead on my tracks. It was as if I saw a ghost.
“I’m back.”
Again, my brain isn’t functioning well. I unconsciously moved towards that person and hugged him.
“Hey, why are you crying? You missed me that much?” he whispered stroking my back.
“I’m sorry…” I said. I was surprisingly hiccupping. Choking on my words. I can’t believe I can get this emotional.
“What? You destroyed my desk for not telling you I’m leaving?” he sounded like he’s trying to enlighten my feelings with that lame joke.
“No… for not telling you how I really feel. Ryosuke… I love you. I was… just not ready yet when you-”
He sure knows how to shut my mouth. I melted with that kiss. It told me that he knew yet he let me think about it. He knew me that much. That’s why I love him. He knew me that much. That I don’t have to mouth everything. Even the deepest feelings I have.
***********
“So it actually worked! You’re so brilliant my dear!” Yuto exchanged high fives with Suzuka.
“Of course it’ll work! It’s just that Mirai isn’t that brave enough to tell Ryosuke her true feelings and I knew a little drama will work. She loves him that much anyway. And Ryosuke absenting himself for a few days won’t hurt a fly. I’m such a genius ne?”
“What’s wrong Suzuka?” asked the tall guy seeing his girlfriend’s scared face.
“Got to go Yuto. I think Mirai heard me.” She ran for her dear life knowing that Mirai would definitely kill her for planning all of it but she know well that Mirai will thank her afterwards. Well… that’s friendship.
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COMMENTS are love! This is really long~! Gomen… but I hope you like it! Thank you for reading. ♥~
Author: shinju
Genre: Attempted Romance
Rating: G
Pairing: Yamada Ryosuke x Shida Mirai
Summary: The drifting clouds reminded her of something she never expected to happen. (and there goes another failed summary. Anyone there who would like to beta this?)
A/N: and because I am a YamaShi fan, I’m writing this. Not sure though but I’m giving my best shot. To Kuya Fritz and Ate Mai, hehe this is for you…uwaa nothing much inside and gomen I’m not good at this. Arigatou for being super nice to me…>.< ~♥~
She’s definitely in love with him but she can’t just say it.
It was almost sun set and I was walking by the usual path. Same routine when he’s still here. I miss him already. It has only been days since we last walked by this pavement. When we said our goodbyes without telling him what I really felt. Feeling a bit dramatic, I looked up in the sky and seeing the drifting clouds reminded me of that day.
It’s supposed to be a group bonding but our friends did not show up leaving us two alone. My friends knew that I have special feelings for Ryosuke so I suspected that this was planned. It felt awkward. I was really shy and panicking. I couldn’t utter even a word.
“So I guess it’ll be just the two of us?” he suddenly said.
“Uh…yes…I think so too…” I uttered followed by an awkward laugh. Oh how I wish he can’t hear my heart pounding furiously against my chest. I want to go home yet some part of me told me that I should stay and spend some time with him. But IT’S FREAKING NERVE-RACKING! WHAT SHOULD I DO? I just hope my actions won’t reflect what I really feel.
He suddenly smiled. That one smile that made me crazy every time. “Wait here.” He said and ran off. I wondered why it took him ages to return so I began to look around. Lovers are everywhere. “You guys are so dead when I see you” I muttered to myself. I promise I make them explain why they have to leave us alone. My heart started to beat crazily again as I felt hands covering my eyes. His scent floated in the air so I knew it was him.
“Yamada-kun?” I tried to sound like I was guessing.
He chuckled “Call me Ryosuke. What’s with the formality?” he tilted his head on one side. He looked innocent with those gestures he’s creating. I found it so cute that I felt my cheeks go warm.
“Since it’ll be just the two us, you’re going with me. I’ll show you something nice.”
“Where to?” I asked curiously.
“Just come with me.” He grabbed my hand. It seemed too good to be true. I was just looking at his hands before imagining what it would be like if I were to touch it. I felt electricity run through my being.
I was mesmerized by the fact that he was holding my hand that I haven’t noticed that he brought me up a nearby hill.
“We’re here” he announced. “Beautiful isn’t it? I know you like this kind of place so I brought you here.” Since when did he knew that? Couldn’t he be--? Oh Mirai… relax… don’t think too much. Maybe he’s just being nice.
He lies down the soft green grass and spread his arms breathing in the fresh air. “You should try it too!” he said patting the space by his side. I closed my eyes as soon as my body got contact onto the grass. It was calming.
“Open your eyes Mirai. Look above.” He instructed.
I did as I was told. Opening my eyes, I saw the drifting clouds. It glided ever so gracefully across the vast sky. All the nervousness I felt earlier went away.
“They’re beautiful.” I stated in awe.
After sometime I sat up and gazed at the wonderful view of the place below the hill. “Great spot Ryosuke-kun. This place is awesome! Thank you for bringing me here.”
He sat up too. He looked serious yet unsure.
“Want to see something else beautiful?”
“Of course! I’d be glad to!” I wondered what it would be. I became excited.
“Close your eyes.” He said.
I slowly closed my eyes. My heart raced as I felt him come closer. He helped me to stand. I kept myself busy with thinking of what beautiful he’s talking about or where he’ll bring me this time. My thoughts were interrupted as I felt something soft brushing against my lips.
Of course I was shocked! I wasn’t able to move an inch and even felt my heart stopped beating for a while. My poor brain tried to obey my initial command to push him but badly failed.
“Mirai…I love you.” He said fidgeting. He’s getting redder as minutes pass.
“uh… I…uhh… it’s getting late don’t you think?” I blurted out of no where. This is too much for my brain cells isn’t it?
He looked like a kicked puppy. He felt rejected. It’s not like I don’t love him. HELL he doesn’t know how much love this heart is ready to give him! But… for some reason…I don’t know…I don’t know why I can’t tell him that I love him too. It’s not easy. I need to think first.
So we ended up by this road. This road where I am as of the moment. We said our goodbyes without me telling what I really feel for him. I crushed the letter I have on my hand. This letter broke my heart. He apologized that he wasn’t able to tell me he’s leaving and thank you for everything.
That’s all.
No explanations.
I tried calling him; e-mailed him dozen of times but there came no reply. I regretted I haven’t told him right away. I hate myself for being selfish not telling him the truth. Why was I scared in the first place? Is it because I doubted his sincerity? Because he’s always joking around? Maybe. But I should have told him anyway. Love is risk-taking. You can’t guarantee what will happen next. You just have to trust your feelings and be honest because the truth always sets a person free. I definitely love him. I’m sure of that now but he’s gone and I don’t know when I will see him again.
A tear is now sliding down my cheeks. I didn’t realize that thinking of him will make me this emotional. I dragged my feet home.
I stop dead on my tracks. It was as if I saw a ghost.
“I’m back.”
Again, my brain isn’t functioning well. I unconsciously moved towards that person and hugged him.
“Hey, why are you crying? You missed me that much?” he whispered stroking my back.
“I’m sorry…” I said. I was surprisingly hiccupping. Choking on my words. I can’t believe I can get this emotional.
“What? You destroyed my desk for not telling you I’m leaving?” he sounded like he’s trying to enlighten my feelings with that lame joke.
“No… for not telling you how I really feel. Ryosuke… I love you. I was… just not ready yet when you-”
He sure knows how to shut my mouth. I melted with that kiss. It told me that he knew yet he let me think about it. He knew me that much. That’s why I love him. He knew me that much. That I don’t have to mouth everything. Even the deepest feelings I have.
***********
“So it actually worked! You’re so brilliant my dear!” Yuto exchanged high fives with Suzuka.
“Of course it’ll work! It’s just that Mirai isn’t that brave enough to tell Ryosuke her true feelings and I knew a little drama will work. She loves him that much anyway. And Ryosuke absenting himself for a few days won’t hurt a fly. I’m such a genius ne?”
“What’s wrong Suzuka?” asked the tall guy seeing his girlfriend’s scared face.
“Got to go Yuto. I think Mirai heard me.” She ran for her dear life knowing that Mirai would definitely kill her for planning all of it but she know well that Mirai will thank her afterwards. Well… that’s friendship.
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COMMENTS are love! This is really long~! Gomen… but I hope you like it! Thank you for reading. ♥~