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[shinga]

I feel like I'm losing myself more and more every day I'm in too much pain to draw.

If I'm not an artist... I'm not anything. I don't know what I have left to offer.

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[ashbet]

I'm so sorry, hon.

I wound up moving to dolls & photography when my hands kept getting more fucked up, and they stopped making the tools I needed for my own digital art (tablet PCs -- I can't work at a table bc of my back, so I needed a single, portable device, not a drawing tablet connected to cords attached to my laptop.)

Are they fucking with your pain prescriptions again (I know you mentioned you were out of muscle relaxers), or is it the extra pain from your shoulder?

*gentle hugs*

-- A <3

[blozor]

I went through a similar crisis of identity when I stopped writing and drawing.

It's hardly a comparison because I have the ability to pick up whenever I want. For me, the well just kind of dried up. I can't exactly identify with your frustration, but I can appreciate that it's a world of difference. I can only hope to sympathize and let you know you aren't alone in feeling this way.

I discovered that I am more than my creative output, and I hope you'll come to see that of yourself as well.

And as long as that drive to create still eats at you, you'll always be an artist.

I just had a hobby. You are an artist.

But you are also so much more.

Lots of warm vibes during this troubling time.