Saying Things
SAYING THINGS (hanbum)
Kibum is a loud person on the inside. Even if everyone thinks he is quiet and introverted, he’s really not. Even though he never seems to say anything, he actually has a lot of things he wants to say, wishes that he could say.
Kibum wants to tell Shindong to eat healthier, to tell Kangin that he doesn’t have to be so tough, to tell Eeteuk that he doesn’t have to always look after all of them. He wants to tell Ryeowook to eat more, Yesung to be more optimistic and look at the good things. He wants to tell Heechul he can stop being sarcastic and loud and they would still love him, and tell Donghae that aliens aren’t really real. He wants to tell Eunhyuk his feet doesn’t really smell that bad, and Sungmin that that amount of pink is really not good for you. He wants to tell Siwon to stop being so polite all the time and to say to Kyuhyun that it’s okay to show your immature side sometimes.
He could say all these things, but he isn’t really willing to deal with the replies, so he doesn’t. He chooses not to. But there are things he can’t say, because the consequences he isn’t ready to deal with.
Kibum really wants to tell Hankyung to stop being so nice to others, because not everyone is nice like him, and people will take advantage of him. He wants to tell him to stop being so naïve and innocent, because he is suppose to be the hyung, and not act in such an adorable way that makes others want to tease and pick on him. He wants to tell him to stop performing such beautiful dances for the world to see, because something that breathtaking is too dangerous to be thrown around so carelessly. He wants to tell him to stop cooking such delicious meals, because it makes him lose appetite for all other nice foods and he isn’t really satisfied until he tastes the chewy grains of rice. He wants to tell Hankyung to stop smiling like that and turning those eyes on him, because they make people melt and it is really distracting. And Kibum wants to tell Hankyung to stop being so kind, so beautiful, because it makes people fall in love with him.
Yet he says nothing, because Kibum is mature, and sensitive and always calm, he doesn’t let such minor things bother him. But in truth, he says nothing because deep inside Kim Kibum is just a kid, wanting things he cannot have and scared of what might happen if he says the wrong things.
Kibum is a loud person on the inside. Even if everyone thinks he is quiet and introverted, he’s really not. Even though he never seems to say anything, he actually has a lot of things he wants to say, wishes that he could say.
Kibum wants to tell Shindong to eat healthier, to tell Kangin that he doesn’t have to be so tough, to tell Eeteuk that he doesn’t have to always look after all of them. He wants to tell Ryeowook to eat more, Yesung to be more optimistic and look at the good things. He wants to tell Heechul he can stop being sarcastic and loud and they would still love him, and tell Donghae that aliens aren’t really real. He wants to tell Eunhyuk his feet doesn’t really smell that bad, and Sungmin that that amount of pink is really not good for you. He wants to tell Siwon to stop being so polite all the time and to say to Kyuhyun that it’s okay to show your immature side sometimes.
He could say all these things, but he isn’t really willing to deal with the replies, so he doesn’t. He chooses not to. But there are things he can’t say, because the consequences he isn’t ready to deal with.
Kibum really wants to tell Hankyung to stop being so nice to others, because not everyone is nice like him, and people will take advantage of him. He wants to tell him to stop being so naïve and innocent, because he is suppose to be the hyung, and not act in such an adorable way that makes others want to tease and pick on him. He wants to tell him to stop performing such beautiful dances for the world to see, because something that breathtaking is too dangerous to be thrown around so carelessly. He wants to tell him to stop cooking such delicious meals, because it makes him lose appetite for all other nice foods and he isn’t really satisfied until he tastes the chewy grains of rice. He wants to tell Hankyung to stop smiling like that and turning those eyes on him, because they make people melt and it is really distracting. And Kibum wants to tell Hankyung to stop being so kind, so beautiful, because it makes people fall in love with him.
Yet he says nothing, because Kibum is mature, and sensitive and always calm, he doesn’t let such minor things bother him. But in truth, he says nothing because deep inside Kim Kibum is just a kid, wanting things he cannot have and scared of what might happen if he says the wrong things.