Part tow of the gut spilling!

[sherriola]

Whew, ok, so I’ve had something to drink, read a few chapters of a fan fic and am ready to get back to the story. But this isn’t so much about history, and is more about how I’m feeling about everything now, and the things I’m struggling with internally

Comments

[creature_girl08]

Getting it all out really is a good thing. Don't worry if it doesn't make sense to anyone but you That really is ok.

[sherriola]

Thank you! You know, when I posted that, i knew you would be one person who would understand, and understand my need to write it all out. Like you, i've been through so much in my life, different things, but lots, and it's never always been easy. i've always written it out too. But a lot of people who read my LJ are also grads of GDB, guide dogs for the blind, and I have been trying to protect them from knowing all the truth, not to mention, that some of this story is so personal and embarrassing. I mean, geesh, getting fired from my dream job because of email between me and a man? i still feel so stupid over it! But now that I've broken the ice and started writing about it, I will continue. I can already feel it is helping me. By the way, you do help, just be reading and being supportive, and i hope I am the same back to you.

[jenandbronze]

As I said on Twitter, I find writing things out tremendously helpful to me, and I hope in somm e ways this is helping you. I am sure it was hard, but also remember, you have the right to have a good cry and let out all the bad thoughts come right out and be gone. I am not sure if ia m making much sense at all. I know it was h ard to keep it all in after that and you couldn't share the information, but I knew eventually you had to write it down all out... if you are really concerned about suspecting eyes finding your entry out in theb public, you can set friends-only... I am only pointing it out in case you only want the friends you have friended back to have the eyes to read this entry.

I hope you accept a hug, as I have always considered you a friend no matter what!

[sherriola]

Thanks Jen. by going ahead and writing this and putting up in LJ, i'm basically saying, I don't care who reads it. i've spent seven months bearing my own guilt,a nd trying to bear GDB's guilt and the man in question's guilt. I won't do it anymore. So, I am ok if people read it. they'll either learn things they don't want to know, or they'll be supportive. But I needed to do it for me, to get it out in writing, once and for all. It's good to have you as a friend. It always has been.