Warning: This contains much sadness so I'm sorry if it upsets anyone. I Miss You Rachel.

[shell_mel]

At 1pm on the 9th of May the world stopped. Not for everyone, but for the friends, family and those who knew Rachel Bassett. A girl whom I have known all through high school but only really got to know her in year 11 and 12, and I regret our time for so short.

Rachel was the type of girl who got along with everyone. She didn’t start fights and

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[clouderella]

I don’t know if this will help but…
I was devastated when you told me. After the shock wore off I spent the rest of the day crying, but now I’m fine, perfectly fine. I’m not sure how I will be like at the funeral mind you but for now I’m fine. Y’know why? First, I realised that to be sad about her death for too long is silly because it’s not as if she doesn’t exist anymore. I mean, do you truly believe that once we die we stop existing all together? I certainly don’t. It wouldn’t make any sense whatsoever. So, instead of feeling sad that she is gone, try to be happy because you know that one day we will see her again, it may not be for many years but it’s not forever. That’s how I stopped being sad.

[shell_mel]

I'm better now too. I was crying a lot at random moments but now it's only every once and a while. Just when I have to say it and realize that I won't see her smile again.

But she is still with me. I don't think that you cease to exist when you die. I'm smiling more and more. It was just the shock of it that really got me down and most of this I wrote at that point... I was a little dramatic ^^;

But that quote I found this morning really cheered me up and reminded me that I can't cry forever, nor would I want to.

I have no idea what I'll be like at the funeral... But we'll just have to wait and see.

Thanks. What you said has really helped.

I thought about 'you know that one day we will see her again, it may not be for many years but it’s not forever.' the other day on the train home. I look forward to seeing her again.

I know I'll feel better when I see the twins. The fact I can't get in contact with them is probably what's hurting me the most.

[autumndandelion]

Wow, I had no idea. I'm glad that quote really helped you. So sorry about your loss. It sounds like Rachel was a truly remarkable girl who will be dearly missed.

((hugs))

[shell_mel]

Thank you. She will be missed. I miss her a lot.. But I know she wouldn't want me to be upset forever. Which is why I also wanted to thank you again for the quote. It just really helped.

*Hugs back*

[autumndandelion]

No problem. I'm glad it did help. That was such good timing - Rob Thomas saying that today and my posting it and you reading it at a time when you needed it most.

[shell_mel]

It was good timing... the timing alone was one of the things that made me laugh. The fact I was writing the post while reading some journals and it just so happen to be there. Definitely not complaining. ^^

Small miracles like that are always nice.

[whiteadelphi]

oh, hon. I'm so sorry. *hugs*

[shell_mel]

*hugs back* Thanks.