Oh god...I think you broke me...I'm crying my eyes out here! And I never cry at fanfic! I have actual tears streaming down my face :*( Wow you sure know how to write grief. Methinks you have a lot of fixing to do in the last chapter...*curls up in the foetal position & continues sobbing*
Haha not at all! The most I manage normally is slightly watery eyes. But last night when I read this I was in floods! It might have been partly hormonal & partly to do with the lateness of the hour; it was gone 2am when I read this, perhaps I was a little overtired...lol. But no it genuinely touched me. I've had some first hand experience with grief unfortunately and I've seen the way it affects different people. Maybe that's why this chapter tore at my soul so much..? The whole wandering around in a daze, doing things on auto-pilot, feeling like your world has stopped spinning & therefore everyone else's should too. It made me think (rather appropriately) of that beautifully sad song 'Tears of an Angel' by Ryan Dan.
Damn you for making me cry! John's goodbye was so beautiful! You go on, now. That’s an order. We clear? Go see your mom.” John smiled as tears dropped onto his shirt. “You give her a hug from me.” He sniffed and paused to collect himself. “She’ll have some tomato-rice soup ready for you, yeah? I know you’ll like that.”
On a somewhat lighter note, I like how you have Cas the angel "receive" the prayers, comapring them to art or music.
I am so glad I remembered to check my flist before signing off.
Yeah, I gotta say, that it was emotional to write it, too. And I totally hate goodbyes in real life. heh.
Yes, I love playing around with Synesthesia whenever I can. There's something about it that I really love. I was certain that if anyone would see, touch, taste, hear prayers...it would definitely be an angel. My fascination kind of all goes back to "Killing Me Softly", I think...and I can't quite let that idea go. :)
Thank you again for the lovely encouragement that you always so freely give me. I truly and sincerely appreciate it. :)
The dialogue in this fic is so punchy; I love it. Dean's relationship with this angel is really endearing/refreshing as well--his youthful attitude here is something you can't help but all in love with. Sam's as well, albeit in a different form. Great job!
Wow, thank you so much for that. This is my first time that I've ever written teen!Dean. I really enjoy myself writing him. I would definitely like to revisit his youth in future stories!
Thank you, thank you, THANK you for the sweet comment! :)
Jesus H. Christ. That was one of the most beautifully written chapters I've ever read. Ever. Really. You capture the emotions truthfully, exquisitely, and heart-wrenchingly. Btw, there better be a recovery sequel or epilogue or something after the last chapter because I don't think I can let this story go!
Gosh, thank you SO very much for that. That means the world to me. I'm so glad that it resonated with you! Sadly, I think most of us have at one time or another dealt with profound grief. That's just part of being human, I suppose. I must say, though, I can't imagine the absolute horror it would be to lose a child. That has got to be the worst grief anyone could ever feel.
Ha! Oh yes, there will be a lengthy final chapter. I have lots of unraveling and decompressing to do for the characters AND the readers! :)
Thank you so much for taking the time to comment. I may or may not have squealed when I read yours. :)
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Wow you sure know how to write grief. Methinks you have a lot of fixing to do in the last chapter...*curls up in the foetal position & continues sobbing*
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Thanks so much for the comment! Is it, like, totally weird that I cheered when you said you cried? ;)
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But no it genuinely touched me. I've had some first hand experience with grief unfortunately and I've seen the way it affects different people. Maybe that's why this chapter tore at my soul so much..?
The whole wandering around in a daze, doing things on auto-pilot, feeling like your world has stopped spinning & therefore everyone else's should too. It made me think (rather appropriately) of that beautifully sad song 'Tears of an Angel' by Ryan Dan.
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On a somewhat lighter note, I like how you have Cas the angel "receive" the prayers, comapring them to art or music.
I am so glad I remembered to check my flist before signing off.
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Yes, I love playing around with Synesthesia whenever I can. There's something about it that I really love. I was certain that if anyone would see, touch, taste, hear prayers...it would definitely be an angel. My fascination kind of all goes back to "Killing Me Softly", I think...and I can't quite let that idea go. :)
Thank you again for the lovely encouragement that you always so freely give me. I truly and sincerely appreciate it. :)
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Thank you, thank you, THANK you for the sweet comment! :)
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Btw, there better be a recovery sequel or epilogue or something after the last chapter because I don't think I can let this story go!
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Ha! Oh yes, there will be a lengthy final chapter. I have lots of unraveling and decompressing to do for the characters AND the readers! :)
Thank you so much for taking the time to comment. I may or may not have squealed when I read yours. :)
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Thanks so, so much for the comment!
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