I Tire Of This Tomfoolery

[shake_the_stars]

JOB update: Sapping will to live, as usual. Hopefully this will just be temporary. I have an interview in Bloomington tomorrow, and while I'm trying not to pin all my hopes on it (the more so since it would create some not-altogether-desirable stress), it's nice to be potentially wanted

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[duokinneas]

Organized religion has always troubled my small mind. This is why I offend many Christians even after I've thrown out my screaming, rabid atheist ways (those've been gone since I was about thirteen and had to acknowledge that I was so defensive about it because I believe in God

[shake_the_stars]

I had screaming, rabid atheist ways in high school; if I return to atheism, it will probably be a sort of cozy settling-down-into-it kind of thing. I've lost the need to convert people to my causes and such as I've grown older.

I don't know that I'd say I totally don't believe that God interferes; I just find it easier to believe logically, based on the evidence, that there isn't a personal God. I don't know yet if I'm capable, emotionally speaking, of making that jump, because emotionally it is comforting to believe that God (or the gods) hear/s and answer/s prayers. Also I can't say that I particularly like or find comforting the idea that God Is Always Watching You