Okay, two hours sleep in a rest area in the front seat of the car, an hour in bed once we got here, a really nice warm shower this morning ... and a day at the museum
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And he wasn't mad at me for having to do so. I'm so used to having to feel bad that I'm in pain, that I'm broken .... it's so nice to not feel like everything is all my fault for once.
It's funny you should say this - I noticed today I'm still not quite accustomed to being accepted and loved for who and what I am. Even when I'm in pain, and tired, and feel like crap. I constantly apologize for complaining because I'm used to being shushed and sighed at. No more of that from new boyfriend.
I still apologize for being in pain. Hell I sneeze and say I'm sorry when I cry out because it feels like my collar bone is ripping apart. I expect Apis to be mad at me every time because, "Gods, can't you just get over it already" is what I'm used to. I'm constantly surprised because I don't find the disgust or annoyance in his eyes, voice, or body language.
We are both very lucky girls to have the men we have. :)
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It's funny you should say this - I noticed today I'm still not quite accustomed to being accepted and loved for who and what I am. Even when I'm in pain, and tired, and feel like crap. I constantly apologize for complaining because I'm used to being shushed and sighed at. No more of that from new boyfriend.
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I still apologize for being in pain. Hell I sneeze and say I'm sorry when I cry out because it feels like my collar bone is ripping apart. I expect Apis to be mad at me every time because, "Gods, can't you just get over it already" is what I'm used to. I'm constantly surprised because I don't find the disgust or annoyance in his eyes, voice, or body language.
We are both very lucky girls to have the men we have. :)
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