Comments | shadesong: I remember sleep.

shadesong

I remember sleep.

Jun 13, 2013 07:29

My sleep has been massively disrupted lately, which throws everything off. Stumbling through this week. I need to get my brain to stop dreaming of him, because all of those dreams are Very Bad ( Read more... )

domestic violence, david judah sher, rape, assault and battery, judah sher

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archangelwells June 13 2013, 14:56:34 UTC

I am so sorry. I'm sorry this happened, and I'm sorry I didn't notice that you weren't back. I hope talking about it helps, and that you continue to reclaim your life.

sovay June 13 2013, 15:48:58 UTC

It's also been pointed out to me that he didn't just passively keep me from writing, he actively did so by not leaving the house on time or at all.

I look forward to the next thing you write.

moonfire77 June 17 2013, 17:08:20 UTC

This. So much this.

cissa June 19 2013, 22:23:07 UTC

Argh. J used to do that to me. OK, not writing, but font design and illustration; I needed to get into a serious headspace to do that, and he'd keep INTERRUPTING me. I ended up giving it up.

For some reason, he's more respectful on my metalwork.

pisicutsa June 13 2013, 17:02:13 UTC

From where I sit I'm so glad you are re-tilting your world back on its axis.

I admit I was a bit worried for the past few months but again it was all from LJ. You went from "My life is great!" to "There is a great new person in my life!" to "This person is so great! Let's all focus on him!" and "I am not doing so well but did I mention this person is great! Just look at him here!" and I was like "Wait, where did YOU go?" (but obviously couldn't say anything since this was all based on what I was seeing on LJ which is, at best, a beam that shines on a narrow slice of our lives).

I look forward to more posts about YOU and the awesome that is YOU. :)

miss_lisa_ma June 13 2013, 17:27:50 UTC

I dimmed my light a lot. I had a constant spotlight on him.

Oh. OH. OH.

Uncomfortable recognition here. Yeah. Never a good sign when you have to hold back because someone will be angry that you shine more.

You're so much more awesome when you shine.

rowangolightly June 13 2013, 18:38:17 UTC

"...a guy who just needed a break & some time to get things moving & whatever since you met him. His compliments at the beginning were some of the most amazing things anyone ever said to you. And then they got less sweet, but not actually cruel. And you questioned yourself over whether or not you were holding up your end. Then there was the flirting that was harmless but not, and okay you were busy & he wasn't breaking any rules until he was & that was your fault too. Because you weren't supportive enough or nice enough or whatever the line was & someone else was there for him. And sex was an issue in one way or another, along with money. And yeah, you were arguing with him so it wasn't his fault that he said mean things or hurt you or whatever. It was still all your fault. I know that whole song. Hell I think I used to sing it to myself ( ... )