Filk: Don't Ask, Don't Tell
Don't Ask, Don't Tell
by Shaddyr
A Stargate: Atlantis Filk
**Song notes and link to sound file follow***
You had the gift I wished were mine, and with mere thought
You brought the solar system into view
The secrets that I'd studied for so long to understand
Bent before your will and lent themselves to your command
I think I started loving you from the moment that we met
I hated you a little bit as well
Everything I'd never be, and yet you called me friend,
Finally part of a team on which I could depend,
Don't ask, don't tell - why yes, I'm doing well
They're not tears, it's just dust in my eyes,
I - love you, just like good friends do -
oh god, John, please don't ask any more
I can't tell you what this feeling's for
I thought my heart would stop that day you said, "So long!"
You left to face the Wraith and save us all,
How dearly was the battle won, such bitter, painful cost
(Then) you spoke from the Daedaluls, and I knew my heart was lost,
Don't ask, don't tell, this is my private hell
We smile and laugh; you'll never know the truth
It's - too much, sometimes I need to touch
Your shoulder or your arm, just don't ask why,
Please don't make me live another lie
It seems just yesterday, when we first found this place
We've learned so much but also paid the price
And when I watch you gazing at your city, I can see
This is your true home, and there's no place I'd rather be,
Don't ask, don't tell, It's funny how I fell
So hard for something never meant to be,
I'm - so glad, I never really had,
Such a friend, I'll never let you see
How very much you've come to mean to me
If you like it you can print out a PDF complete with the chords.
Or you can listen to the scratch track.
Song Notes:
I got the idea for this filk several months ago. I've read reams of SGA fanfic, and DADT is a recurring theme in McShep, obviously because John is Military. When I write fic, I tend toward the happy and the funny, but I one day I found myself humming a sad tune and singing 'Don't ask, don't tell..." and trying to come up with rhymes.
TEH ANGST! Which, as anyone who has actually read my fic knows, is something I hate to write. EXCEPT! Songs. Songs are fair game. Because though Ose is kind of the filk equivalent to angst, I have no problem at all writing Ose.
::shrugs::
Oh, the contradictions of being me.
In any case, this song idea followed me around for months, and finally got finished at FKO where I sang it in the Saturday circle. I hope you guys like it.
by Shaddyr
A Stargate: Atlantis Filk
**Song notes and link to sound file follow***
You had the gift I wished were mine, and with mere thought
You brought the solar system into view
The secrets that I'd studied for so long to understand
Bent before your will and lent themselves to your command
I think I started loving you from the moment that we met
I hated you a little bit as well
Everything I'd never be, and yet you called me friend,
Finally part of a team on which I could depend,
Don't ask, don't tell - why yes, I'm doing well
They're not tears, it's just dust in my eyes,
I - love you, just like good friends do -
oh god, John, please don't ask any more
I can't tell you what this feeling's for
I thought my heart would stop that day you said, "So long!"
You left to face the Wraith and save us all,
How dearly was the battle won, such bitter, painful cost
(Then) you spoke from the Daedaluls, and I knew my heart was lost,
Don't ask, don't tell, this is my private hell
We smile and laugh; you'll never know the truth
It's - too much, sometimes I need to touch
Your shoulder or your arm, just don't ask why,
Please don't make me live another lie
It seems just yesterday, when we first found this place
We've learned so much but also paid the price
And when I watch you gazing at your city, I can see
This is your true home, and there's no place I'd rather be,
Don't ask, don't tell, It's funny how I fell
So hard for something never meant to be,
I'm - so glad, I never really had,
Such a friend, I'll never let you see
How very much you've come to mean to me
If you like it you can print out a PDF complete with the chords.
Or you can listen to the scratch track.
Song Notes:
I got the idea for this filk several months ago. I've read reams of SGA fanfic, and DADT is a recurring theme in McShep, obviously because John is Military. When I write fic, I tend toward the happy and the funny, but I one day I found myself humming a sad tune and singing 'Don't ask, don't tell..." and trying to come up with rhymes.
TEH ANGST! Which, as anyone who has actually read my fic knows, is something I hate to write. EXCEPT! Songs. Songs are fair game. Because though Ose is kind of the filk equivalent to angst, I have no problem at all writing Ose.
::shrugs::
Oh, the contradictions of being me.
In any case, this song idea followed me around for months, and finally got finished at FKO where I sang it in the Saturday circle. I hope you guys like it.