Merlin - The Diamond of the Day Part Two (This is the end. Let's all cry together.)
The Diamond of the Day Part Two (Season 5, Episode 13)
Oh my god. This is the end. I can’t believe it. To preface this review, I fucking LOVED this episode. And… since it’s the last episode and I’m currently not much better than a puddle of goo, this review really will consist mostly of flailing, sobbing, and caps locking. I actually have very little to criticize in this episode.
Review time!
Actually. Not yet. Cuz I can’t muster up the courage to click play for a second time. I sobbed through most of the episode when I watched it live. I anticipate more sobbing this time around. Except, I’ll be sobbing into my ice cream this time. (Green tea flavored :D) (These smileys don’t in any way depict my current state of mind, FYI. I don’t think I can actually find a smiley that matches what I’m feeling.)
I also think this is more picspam than review…
“In a land of myth and a time of magic. The destiny of a great kingdom rests on the shoulders of a young man. His name… Merlin.”
Last time we’ll ever hear this for the first time. *sobbing*
Straight into the fighting I see. Poor Camelot soldiers. They look like they’re being slaughtered. Well, as long as they’re extras.
OMG AITHUSA. I really wanted an Aithusa/Kilgarrah battle. That would’ve been fucking awesome.
Go Gwen! She was awesome in cutting down that Saxon. (So is Morgana working with the Saxons? Is that what’s going on here?) First time I’ve really loved Gwen.
Can we talk about how epic this was? Fuck yes BAMF!Merlin. We need more BAMF!Merlin. And it is SO Merlin to arrive just in time to save Arthur. Forget the rest of the battlefield. Just Arthur. Gotta save his baby.
And THIS. God, it was fucking epic. LIGHTNING. Merlin called LIGHTNING down to kill the Saxons. YES YES YES.
Epic Dragonlord and BAMF!Merlin. OMG WHY COULDN’T WE HAVE YOU EARLIER?
Arthur did that twirly thing he does with his sword just before charging back into battle. *chuckles* Baby, you know I love you. And I love it when you do that cuz it’s really hot. But this is so not the time.
Oh Arthur, sweetie. Of course you would go help a fallen comrade in arms. That is so like you.
I loved Arthur’s hesitance just before Mordred stabs him. I mean… it cost him his life. But it is so like Arthur to still be reluctant to kill Mordred. And then the lack of hesitance when he stabs Mordred back. And that little smile Mordred gives him just before he dies. JUST BREAK MY HEART WHY DON’T YOU BABIES.
I honestly thought that Mordred had only stabbed Arthur in the thigh or something when Arthur just walked away. Why do I even allow myself to hope that Arthur might live? Arthur’s wound definitely doesn’t look fatal at the moment. But of course, it all depends on blood loss and internal damage. And apparently, the fact that a piece of Mordred’s sword lodged itself INSIDE Arthur. I must say. That’s a flimsy sword then. Unless that was the intention… Slow and painful deaths seem to be Morgana’s favorite.
The tender way Merlin cups Arthur’s cheek. OMG NO ONE WILL EVER CONVINCE ME MERTHUR ISN’T REAL.
OMG Merlin wandered around the entire battlefield searching for Arthur. *sobs* Arthur really is Merlin’s entire world.
Let’s talk about how Colin is CARRYING Bradley. I can’t. I just can’t. Colin is strong enough to CARRY Bradley. Looks like those new muscles have been put to good use. *leers*
“I thought I’d defied the prophecy. I thought I was in time.”
I love that Merlin just jumps into everything. Just… lay all his cards on the table.
“I defeated the Saxons. The dragon. And yet I knew that it was Mordred that I must stop.”
"The person who defeated them was the sorcerer.”
This LOOK. This one look. I CAN’T. Look at that adoration. How happy Arthur is that Merlin’s there. Bradley, do you even have to PRETEND to love Colin, or does it just come naturally? (Oh wait, who am I kidding? BROLIN.)
"It was me."
"Don’t be ridiculous, Merlin. This is stupid. Why would you say that.”
"I’m a - I’m a sorcerer. I ave magic. And I use it for you, Arthur. Only for you.”
“Merlin, you are not a sorcerer. I would know.”
Poor Arthur just wants to deny that his best friend is a sorcerer. And Merlin just wants HIS best friend to know who he really is.
Oh my god, Arthur, baby, don’t be scared! It breaks my heart that Arthur was scared of Merlin. No anger, just fear. Arthur is never supposed to be afraid of Merlin. No. NO NO NO. Stop it, Arthur. STOP IT.
But, as scared and lost as Arthur looks, he doesn’t for a moment look like he’s afraid Merlin will kill him. I can honestly say that I don’t think that thought ever crosses his mind.
And the way he’s struggling away from Merlin and making these… near whimpering noises. Oh my god. What, my heart wasn’t broken enough?
But OH MY GOD. The magic reveal was PERFECT. ABSOLUTELY PERFECT. There are so many variations of magic reveal out there in fandom. SO MANY. And I could imagine each and every one of them. There we SO many possibilities. But the version they went with. IT WAS PERFECT. I don’t even care that Arthur didn’t already know about Merlin’s magic after ten years. I don’t care that Arthur’s reaction wasn’t even CLOSE to what I would’ve expected. NOTHING went the way I expected. But it was PERFECT. I could go on about it ALL DAY.
I was terrified that the magic reveal would be rushed or basically be Merlin saying “Arthur, I have magic.” And Arthur saying, “Yeah, whatever. Go clean my socks.” But it was neither of those things. And somehow. SOMEHOW. IT WORKED. And it was PERFECT. I had serious doubts about them doing the magic reveal justice. BUT THEY DID IT PERFECTLY. I just cannot stop praising how WELL they did. Because it was SO PERFECT.
“He’s a sorcerer.”
I love that Arthur tried to warn Gaius about Merlin being a sorcerer. Arthur, you have such a big heart. It’s painful, sometimes, to watch how much he cares about people.
You can just see the realization dawning in Arthur’s eyes that Gaius already knew about Merlin’s magic. It’s betrayal upon betrayal. A whole new web of lies. The lost look in Arthur’s eyes… *sobs* Somehow, he looks even more innocent and lost than he did when he was a simpleton. Arthur right now reminds me a little of simpleton!Arthur. His entire world has been turned on its axis. He has no idea what’s real and what isn’t anymore. The one constant in his life suddenly… isn’t constant anymore. And there’s nothing he can do about it. You can almost see him mentally flailing around for anything to hold on to.
Gaius tells Arthur that Merlin’s the greatest sorcerer ever. Arthur says disbelievingly, “Merlin?” Good to know some things never change. But clearly Arthur’s not afraid of Merlin anymore. Thank god for that. I couldn’t bear seeing Arthur afraid of Merlin. Ah, a first sign that Arthur is beginning to accept Merlin’s magic.
“It would take a power as ancient as the dragons themselves.”
Um… so could a dragon do it? Merlin. Dragonlord. Dragon at his command. HELLO. WOULD THAT WORK????
Avalon. Oh god. AVALON. NO. ARTHUR DON’T DIE. PLEASE. STOP GIVING US HOPE THAT ARTHUR WON’T DIE. WHY MUST YOU TEAR MY HEART OUT FIFTY TIMES OVER?
But OMG, I LOVE that Merlin didn’t leave Arthur when he asked him to. I just want to SHAKE Arthur and ask him why he hasn’t realized what Merlin’s unwavering loyalty MEANS. (No, I’m not talking about Merthur for once in my life.) It means that Merlin is still the same person. And it means that he’s still Arthur’s best friend.
Poor Arthur is just so drained and lost and tired and confused and hurt. It makes me want to rip my heart out and give it to him. Even their old banter and Arthur’s orders like “I’ll decide” have lost their sharpness. He just doesn’t know how to be Arthur to this Merlin any more. His entire world is falling apart and the only one who can put it back together is Merlin. Except Merlin is the one making it fall apart.
I can’t stand seeing Merlin look so miserable and heartbroken. Colin, why do you have to be so good at tugging on my heartstrings? Stop being so perfect. *sobbing*
“You were right to tell him.”
Thank you, Gaius. You’re more like a father to him than Balinor was, that’s for sure. At least Gaius knows to give Merlin hugs and reassure him. Exactly what Merlin needs.
“I WANT HIM DEAD!”
Wow. That’s some scream, Katie. That was EPIC. And choking to kill this time. Getting more creative I see. I like this creative magic.
I love that in this entire episode, Arthur barely even mentions Gwen. And his last words about Gwen is to secure the line of succession. Just giving Gwen the seal. No “tell Guinevere I love her.” Just… go be Queen without me. Yeah. This is why Arwen doesn’t have a leg to stand on. Especially in an episode that is basically PURE Merthur.
Poor Merlin. You need more hugs. As I keep saying. I’ll give you a hug, sweetie! My heart breaks for Merlin every time I realize how alone he is. And then I see happy, smiley Colin and I go… “Huh?” It’s so WEIRD to see the difference. I tend to forget that Merlin might be miserable, but at least he’s only a character in a TV show. The only ones feeling the pain of his loneliness is… well… us, as viewers. And Colin for the time he’s trying to get inside Merlin’s head. But he’s still Colin. Not Merlin. There’s no actual Merlin being put through all of this misery. And for THAT, I am eternally grateful.
“I’ll have your favorite meal waiting for you.”
Except Merlin will never go back for that meal! *SOBBING* Because it doesn’t seem that Merlin ever goes back to Camelot after Arthur’s death. And… and… oh my god, I just can’t. Merlin might as well have died along with Arthur.
This is the last time Merlin and Gaius will ever see each other.
“Saxons. I’ll deal with them. Keep your head down, don’t speak.”
I love that Merlin can actually tell Arthur that he’ll “deal with them” and know that Arthur knows that he REALLY can. But it is so Merlin to try and trick the Saxons first, and only resort to magic when that fails. And his lack of hesitance in using magic right in front of Arthur. No trying to be secretive. He can be as conspicious as he likes. And it’s EPIC.
“You’ve lied to me all this time.”
YES YES YES. ARTHUR IS REALLY ONLY UPSET ABOUT THE LYING. NOT REALLY THE MAGIC. OMG AM I WATCHING A FANFICTION? HAS THE MERLIN FANDOM FINALLY INFILTRATED THE BBC AND WRITTEN THIS EPISODE? BECAUSE IT IS THAT GOOD.
“Why don’t you use magic?"
“Habit. I suppose.”
“Feels strange.”
“Yeah.”
OMG BABIES. I love how many layers Colin and Bradley can put into a few words.
“I thought I knew you.”
“I’m still the same person.”
“I trusted you.”
“I’m sorry.”
“I’m sorry too.”
These long pauses are KILLING me. They’re certainly not scripted. ALL Colin and Bradley. Babies, why are you so perfect?
“This’ll be good for you. You need to eat.”
“Why are you doing this? Why are you still behaving like a servant?”
Arthur’s tone gets progressively closer to the tone he used to use with Merlin. His voice started out so tiny and confused. Now, it’s starting to resemble the same irritation/affection that was always in his voice before the magic reveal. (OMG HAVE YOU ANY IDEA HOW GIDDY I AM THAT I CAN SAY “BEFORE THE MAGIC REVEAL.” BECAUSE IT HAPPENED. IT’S FINALLY FINALLY HAPPENED.)
But Arthur sounds like he genuinely doesn’t understand why Merlin would be helping him. Why a SORCERER would be helping him. Especially since he can’t justify actually treating Merlin like a servant anymore. So even more, he doesn’t understand why Merlin would willingly act like one.
“It’s my destiny. As it has been since the day we met.”
Merlin just looks so indulgently and so affectionate and so… lovingly (I honestly can’t think of a better word to describe his expression) when he says this.
“I tried to take your head off with a mace.”
Arthur, the sweetheart. He still remembers all the little details.
“And I stopped you. Using magic."
“You cheated.”
OMG, adorable babies are kind of bantering with each other again. We’re making progress! YES! But of course, Arthur is more indignant about Merlin cheating in their first spar than over Merlin having magic.
“You were going to kill me.”
“I should’ve.”
“I’m glad you didn’t.”
How I’ve missed your banter.
“I do this because of who you are. Without you, Camelot’s nothing.“
“There was a time when that was true. But not now.”
“There are many who can fill the crown.”
“There’ll never be another like you, Arthur. …And I also do this because you’re my friend and I don’t want to lose you.”
Merlin’s faith in Arthur never ceases to astound me. He honestly still believes in Arthur. Still. After everything. Or maybe because of everything. Through everyone’s doubt, through Arthur’s own self-doubt, Merlin’s faith never wavers. And for once, Arthur’s really understanding what that means. Understanding how difficult it must’ve been for Merlin to keep that faith despite everything he and his father had done. For that faith to burn even stronger than it did the first time he realized it.
“The sorcerer in the battle… you knew who he was.”
“Yes.”
“Do I know him? Please, Gaius, answer me honestly.”
“Yes. He’ll take good care of Arthur.”
“Yes, I’m sure he will. I’m pleased.”
*claps* Thank you, Gwen, for being the only person ever to figure out Merlin has magic. But then again, why am I even surprised. Of course, if anyone were to figure it out, it would have to be Gwen. Everyone else is Camelot is an idiot. Sigh. At least I like Gwen this episode.
Percival and Gwaine went after Morgana alone? Why??? Why would you do that? She has MAGIC. You guys aren’t as idiotic as Arthur.
“Why did you never tell me?”
“I wanted to but…”
“What?”
“You’d have chopped my head off.”
“Not sure what I’d have done.”
“And I didn’t want to put you in that position.”
“That’s what worried you?”
HIS FACE when he says that. The corner of his mouth goes up just slightly for a second. And his eyebrows soften just a little. I tried to capture it in the two pictures above, but I’m not sure I succeeded. But those miniscule little changes in expression. WHY ARE YOU BOYS SO PERFECT?
But really. Arthur, what did you THINK was worrying Merlin? Fear of death? Arthur sounds so surprised and tender to find out that all this time, Merlin was still thinking of Arthur instead of himself in keeping this secret.
BUT THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK FOR MAKING THIS TRAIN OF THOUGHT CANON. YES YES YES. ALL THOSE FANFICTIONS. CANON.
“Some men are born to plow fields. Some like to be great physicians. Others to be great kings. Me… I was born to serve you, Arthur, and I’m proud of that. And I wouldn’t change a thing.”
For once, Arthur understands. OMG HE UNDERSTANDS. AND THE TRUST IS BACK. THE BOND IS BACK.
AND OMG HOW MANY FUCKING TIMES ARE THEY GOING TO PLAY “BOND OF SACRIFICE”??? I CAN’T TAKE THE FEELS.
THIS ENTIRE TIME. They’re sitting ARM IN ARM. OH MY GOD HOW LONG DID COLIN AND BRADLEY HAVE TO SIT LIKE THAT? SO INTIMATE.
I couldn’t help it. This moment was just too cute not to screenshot.
OH. MY. GOD. Percival literally just ripped the ropes apart with his bare hands. I can’t even. That was… wow.
“You’ve done this before. All these years, Merlin, you never once sought any credit.”
“That’s not why I do it.”
I just love that Arthur’s finally understanding what Merlin’s gone through all these years.
Helloooo Perwaine. You two are so cute.
“She’s riding for Avalon.”
“Gwaine.”
“I’ve failed.”
Oh my god. GWAINEEEEEE! WHYYYYYY? Why did Gwaine have to be the ONLY knight to die? *sobbing* And the Perwaine. Oh god. You guys aren’t even trying to hide it.
“I’m the king, Merlin. You can’t tell me what to do."
“I always have. I’m not going to change now.”
“I don’t want you to change. I want you to always… be you.”
I CAN’T. These two boys reduce me to incoherence. Just by fucking EXISTING.
“I’m sorry about how I treated you.”
“Hey. Does that mean you’re going to give me a day off.”
“Two.”
“That’s generous.”
Banter! I want more banter. We’re never going to get banter every again. *sobbing*
This episode is fucking focused on Arthur and Merlin I don’t think I can even BREATHE any more. This is what the entire show should be like. Arthur and Merlin’s relationship. Their chemistry just fills the entire screen. I’m just thankful they gave us such a Merthur centric episode for the last episode.
OMG. After Merlin gets thrown back, he STILL tries to reach for his sword to protect Merlin. Oh god sweetheart. I can’t.
As much as I was hoping for an epic magical showdown between Merlin and Morgana, I can’t bring myself to dislike the way they handed it. I like that Merlin stabbed Morgana rather than besting her magically. We all know he has the power to. But the fact that he doesn’t do that. That he kills her using ARTHUR’S blade. It’s somehow all very fitting.
YOUR FACE, ARTHUR. HOW CAN YOU MAKE FACES LIKE THAT AND EXPECT US NOT TO SHIP MERTHUR?
“You’ve brought peace at last.”
“Come on.”
Arthur’s thinking of Camelot. Merlin’s just thinking about Arthur. He doesn’t even give a damn about the Camelot he helped to build.
“Just… Just… Just hold me. Please.”
Oh god. Arthur’s dying in Merlin’s arms. OH GOD. NO. STOP. REWIND. STOP. PAUSE FOREVER.
“There’s something I want to say.”
“You’re not going to say goodbye.”
“No. Merlin… everything you’ve done, I know now. For me. For Camelot. For the kingdom you helped me build.”
“You’d have done it without me.”
“Maybe. I want to say something I’ve never said to you before. Thank you.”
Oh god. Somehow that "thank you" hurts ten times more than any "I love you" ever could.
“Stay with me.”
He just looks so HAPPY when Arthur opens his eyes after he shouts. But oh my god WHY. WHY EVEN GIVE HIM THAT LITTLE BIT OF HOPE. WHY ARE YOU PEOPLE SO CRUEL.
And when Merlin finally did call the Great Dragon, I was TERRIFIED that he wouldn’t come. Because he might’ve DIED. But oh thank god, he’s still alive. I don’t think I could take it if Merlin were completely abandoned there. Merlin’s never looked this helpless. Oh god, babies. Heart breaking AGAIN.
He looks and sounds SO heartbroken. I feel like my heart’s broken fifty times over already, but STILL Colin manages to break it all over again. God, I wonder how Bradley was feeling, listening to Colin’s heartbroken screams.
Merlin untangles himself from Arthur only to press their foreheads together. Oh my god. What is this, the episode for killing the slash fangirls?
I have to say. I kept wondering why Merlin wouldn’t just call the Great Dragon already. He can CARRY them. Who cares if Arthur sees that the dragon isn’t dead? Arthur will be ALIVE to KNOW IT. Isn’t that the most important part?
And when Merlin finally did call the Great Dragon, I was TERRIFIED that he wouldn’t come. Because he might’ve DIED. But oh thank god, he’s still alive. I don’t think I could take it if Merlin were completely abandoned there. Merlin’s never looked this helpless. Oh god, babies. Heart breaking AGAIN.
“Merlin, there is nothing you can do.”
“I’ve failed?”
“No, young warlock. For all that you have dreamt of building has come to pass.”
NO IT HASN’T. SHUT UP KILGARRAH. NO GOLDEN AGE HAS HAPPENED YET. GO TURN BACK TIME AND DO IT RIGHT. REPEAL THE FUCKING BAN ON MAGIC. REPEAL IT. REWIND. RE-FUCKING-WIND.
“I can’t lose him. He’s my friend.”
Seeing Merlin’s face and hearing his voice here. Oh god. I think I just died a little. And the way Merlin CLUTCHES at Arthur. SERIOUSLY.
MERLIN AND ARTHUR IS THE GREATEST LOVE STORY EVER TOLD. NO WONDER ALEX VLAHOS SAID THAT THE LAST EPISODE IS A BRILLIANT LOVE STORY BETWEEN ARTHUR AND MERLIN. BECAUSE THAT IS EXACTLY WHAT IT IS.
“Arthur is not just a king. He is the Once and Future King. Take heart. For when Albion’s need is greatest, Arthur will rise again.”
YES YES YES REINCARNATION. I NEED REINCARNATION. ESPECIALLY AFTER ALL THIS HEARTBREAK.
At this point, I honestly wondered if Merlin was going to kill himself. I’m not sure if I’m more relieved or disappointed the Merlin didn’t. Because it would’ve been very fitting if Merlin did stab himself. Excalibur could slay him, I’m sure. It would’ve been very fitting for Merlin to die with Arthur. But then, his living on to wait for Arthur (because we all know that’s the ONLY reason he chooses to live) just shows how strong he is. He has always been stronger than Arthur in the ways that count. I’m not sure if I could see Arthur living in the world alone, just waiting for Merlin. I’m not sure Arthur could bear it. Merlin… Merlin’s always been able to shoulder that kind of loneliness.
I was expecting him to torch the boat again. But thank god he doesn’t. Although… burning Arthur probably wouldn’t be very conducive to him living again, would it…
I don’t love that Gwen became Queen. It’s all a little too… convenient. A woman isn’t supposed to take the throne, after all. No matter who she is. But who else could he choose? We do know that Gwen will make a great Queen. She always has been. It was a surprising turn. Not that I had any expectations for what would happen in Camelot after Arthur’s death. I didn’t really care. Much like Merlin doesn’t.
To me, it seems like Merlin never went back to Camelot after Arthur’s death. He’s not at Gwen’s coronation, and there are no hints that he ever went back. That is just so PAINFUL though. Merlin literally couldn’t live in a Camelot without Arthur. SO HE NEVER WENT BACK. And poor Gaius was waiting with his favorite meal. And he never said goodbye to his friends. Oh god. His entire world is Arthur, as proven for the millionth time this season. How anyone can deny the love between Merlin and Arthur (platonically or romantically) is beyond me.
GAH. So the modern day lorry spoiler was true. BUT I WAS EXPECTING A HAPPY REINCARNATION. ONE WHERE WE HAD ARTHUR AND MERLIN MEETING AGAIN AND BASICALLY REPLAYING THEIR FIRST MEETING. Something like this. BUT WE GOT THE ANGSTY VERSION INSTEAD. WHYYYYY. AFTER THAT BALL OF ANGST THAT WAS THIS ENTIRE EPISODE, WHY COULDN’T YOU THROW US A BONE AND GIVE US REINCARNATED ARTHUR. I WOULDN’T CARE IF THE WORLD WAS LITERALLY BLOWN TO PIECES AROUND THEM AS LONG AS WE GOT ARTHUR AND MERLIN TOGETHER AGAIN.
HAS MERLIN JUST BEEN LURKING AROUND AVALON FOR THOUSANDS OF YEARS WAITING FOR ARTHUR? WAITING AND HOPING HE’LL COME BACK? MY FEELS CAN’T TAKE THIS. (My entire life is on caps lock right now.)
I don’t even know why I bothered calling this a review. Cuz it’s more like an outpouring of my feels and a picspam.
Thank you to everyone who reads my Merlin reviews. I love you guys!
I’ll probably move on to a new TV show to review eventually. I haven’t got anything lined up, so we’ll see. But I will definitely keep flailing around in the Merlin fandom. For the rest of my life. If you’d like to flail with me, you should come follow my tumblr!
And I am eternally grateful ‘Merlin’ for being so wonderfully addictive and providing me with an obsession that’s lasted ten months and counting. I’ll miss you so much. (If those words are even enough to sum up how I’m feeling.) I don’t know what I’m going to do without ‘Merlin.’ Probably crawl into bed and never leave while I cry my eyes out for the next month. Thank god for fandom.
Now, I’m off to read copious amounts of fanfiction, starting with The Student Prince by Fayjay, to try and patch up this hole in my heart.
Oh! There’s a Merlin Rewatch on Tumblr starting on January 1st. Come join us! We can all dissolve into feels together all over again!
Oh my god. This is the end. I can’t believe it. To preface this review, I fucking LOVED this episode. And… since it’s the last episode and I’m currently not much better than a puddle of goo, this review really will consist mostly of flailing, sobbing, and caps locking. I actually have very little to criticize in this episode.
Review time!
Actually. Not yet. Cuz I can’t muster up the courage to click play for a second time. I sobbed through most of the episode when I watched it live. I anticipate more sobbing this time around. Except, I’ll be sobbing into my ice cream this time. (Green tea flavored :D) (These smileys don’t in any way depict my current state of mind, FYI. I don’t think I can actually find a smiley that matches what I’m feeling.)
I also think this is more picspam than review…
“In a land of myth and a time of magic. The destiny of a great kingdom rests on the shoulders of a young man. His name… Merlin.”
Last time we’ll ever hear this for the first time. *sobbing*
Straight into the fighting I see. Poor Camelot soldiers. They look like they’re being slaughtered. Well, as long as they’re extras.
OMG AITHUSA. I really wanted an Aithusa/Kilgarrah battle. That would’ve been fucking awesome.
Go Gwen! She was awesome in cutting down that Saxon. (So is Morgana working with the Saxons? Is that what’s going on here?) First time I’ve really loved Gwen.
Can we talk about how epic this was? Fuck yes BAMF!Merlin. We need more BAMF!Merlin. And it is SO Merlin to arrive just in time to save Arthur. Forget the rest of the battlefield. Just Arthur. Gotta save his baby.
And THIS. God, it was fucking epic. LIGHTNING. Merlin called LIGHTNING down to kill the Saxons. YES YES YES.
Epic Dragonlord and BAMF!Merlin. OMG WHY COULDN’T WE HAVE YOU EARLIER?
Arthur did that twirly thing he does with his sword just before charging back into battle. *chuckles* Baby, you know I love you. And I love it when you do that cuz it’s really hot. But this is so not the time.
Oh Arthur, sweetie. Of course you would go help a fallen comrade in arms. That is so like you.
I loved Arthur’s hesitance just before Mordred stabs him. I mean… it cost him his life. But it is so like Arthur to still be reluctant to kill Mordred. And then the lack of hesitance when he stabs Mordred back. And that little smile Mordred gives him just before he dies. JUST BREAK MY HEART WHY DON’T YOU BABIES.
I honestly thought that Mordred had only stabbed Arthur in the thigh or something when Arthur just walked away. Why do I even allow myself to hope that Arthur might live? Arthur’s wound definitely doesn’t look fatal at the moment. But of course, it all depends on blood loss and internal damage. And apparently, the fact that a piece of Mordred’s sword lodged itself INSIDE Arthur. I must say. That’s a flimsy sword then. Unless that was the intention… Slow and painful deaths seem to be Morgana’s favorite.
The tender way Merlin cups Arthur’s cheek. OMG NO ONE WILL EVER CONVINCE ME MERTHUR ISN’T REAL.
OMG Merlin wandered around the entire battlefield searching for Arthur. *sobs* Arthur really is Merlin’s entire world.
Let’s talk about how Colin is CARRYING Bradley. I can’t. I just can’t. Colin is strong enough to CARRY Bradley. Looks like those new muscles have been put to good use. *leers*
“I thought I’d defied the prophecy. I thought I was in time.”
I love that Merlin just jumps into everything. Just… lay all his cards on the table.
“I defeated the Saxons. The dragon. And yet I knew that it was Mordred that I must stop.”
"The person who defeated them was the sorcerer.”
This LOOK. This one look. I CAN’T. Look at that adoration. How happy Arthur is that Merlin’s there. Bradley, do you even have to PRETEND to love Colin, or does it just come naturally? (Oh wait, who am I kidding? BROLIN.)
"It was me."
"Don’t be ridiculous, Merlin. This is stupid. Why would you say that.”
"I’m a - I’m a sorcerer. I ave magic. And I use it for you, Arthur. Only for you.”
“Merlin, you are not a sorcerer. I would know.”
Poor Arthur just wants to deny that his best friend is a sorcerer. And Merlin just wants HIS best friend to know who he really is.
Oh my god, Arthur, baby, don’t be scared! It breaks my heart that Arthur was scared of Merlin. No anger, just fear. Arthur is never supposed to be afraid of Merlin. No. NO NO NO. Stop it, Arthur. STOP IT.
But, as scared and lost as Arthur looks, he doesn’t for a moment look like he’s afraid Merlin will kill him. I can honestly say that I don’t think that thought ever crosses his mind.
And the way he’s struggling away from Merlin and making these… near whimpering noises. Oh my god. What, my heart wasn’t broken enough?
But OH MY GOD. The magic reveal was PERFECT. ABSOLUTELY PERFECT. There are so many variations of magic reveal out there in fandom. SO MANY. And I could imagine each and every one of them. There we SO many possibilities. But the version they went with. IT WAS PERFECT. I don’t even care that Arthur didn’t already know about Merlin’s magic after ten years. I don’t care that Arthur’s reaction wasn’t even CLOSE to what I would’ve expected. NOTHING went the way I expected. But it was PERFECT. I could go on about it ALL DAY.
I was terrified that the magic reveal would be rushed or basically be Merlin saying “Arthur, I have magic.” And Arthur saying, “Yeah, whatever. Go clean my socks.” But it was neither of those things. And somehow. SOMEHOW. IT WORKED. And it was PERFECT. I had serious doubts about them doing the magic reveal justice. BUT THEY DID IT PERFECTLY. I just cannot stop praising how WELL they did. Because it was SO PERFECT.
“He’s a sorcerer.”
I love that Arthur tried to warn Gaius about Merlin being a sorcerer. Arthur, you have such a big heart. It’s painful, sometimes, to watch how much he cares about people.
You can just see the realization dawning in Arthur’s eyes that Gaius already knew about Merlin’s magic. It’s betrayal upon betrayal. A whole new web of lies. The lost look in Arthur’s eyes… *sobs* Somehow, he looks even more innocent and lost than he did when he was a simpleton. Arthur right now reminds me a little of simpleton!Arthur. His entire world has been turned on its axis. He has no idea what’s real and what isn’t anymore. The one constant in his life suddenly… isn’t constant anymore. And there’s nothing he can do about it. You can almost see him mentally flailing around for anything to hold on to.
Gaius tells Arthur that Merlin’s the greatest sorcerer ever. Arthur says disbelievingly, “Merlin?” Good to know some things never change. But clearly Arthur’s not afraid of Merlin anymore. Thank god for that. I couldn’t bear seeing Arthur afraid of Merlin. Ah, a first sign that Arthur is beginning to accept Merlin’s magic.
“It would take a power as ancient as the dragons themselves.”
Um… so could a dragon do it? Merlin. Dragonlord. Dragon at his command. HELLO. WOULD THAT WORK????
Avalon. Oh god. AVALON. NO. ARTHUR DON’T DIE. PLEASE. STOP GIVING US HOPE THAT ARTHUR WON’T DIE. WHY MUST YOU TEAR MY HEART OUT FIFTY TIMES OVER?
But OMG, I LOVE that Merlin didn’t leave Arthur when he asked him to. I just want to SHAKE Arthur and ask him why he hasn’t realized what Merlin’s unwavering loyalty MEANS. (No, I’m not talking about Merthur for once in my life.) It means that Merlin is still the same person. And it means that he’s still Arthur’s best friend.
Poor Arthur is just so drained and lost and tired and confused and hurt. It makes me want to rip my heart out and give it to him. Even their old banter and Arthur’s orders like “I’ll decide” have lost their sharpness. He just doesn’t know how to be Arthur to this Merlin any more. His entire world is falling apart and the only one who can put it back together is Merlin. Except Merlin is the one making it fall apart.
I can’t stand seeing Merlin look so miserable and heartbroken. Colin, why do you have to be so good at tugging on my heartstrings? Stop being so perfect. *sobbing*
“You were right to tell him.”
Thank you, Gaius. You’re more like a father to him than Balinor was, that’s for sure. At least Gaius knows to give Merlin hugs and reassure him. Exactly what Merlin needs.
“I WANT HIM DEAD!”
Wow. That’s some scream, Katie. That was EPIC. And choking to kill this time. Getting more creative I see. I like this creative magic.
I love that in this entire episode, Arthur barely even mentions Gwen. And his last words about Gwen is to secure the line of succession. Just giving Gwen the seal. No “tell Guinevere I love her.” Just… go be Queen without me. Yeah. This is why Arwen doesn’t have a leg to stand on. Especially in an episode that is basically PURE Merthur.
Poor Merlin. You need more hugs. As I keep saying. I’ll give you a hug, sweetie! My heart breaks for Merlin every time I realize how alone he is. And then I see happy, smiley Colin and I go… “Huh?” It’s so WEIRD to see the difference. I tend to forget that Merlin might be miserable, but at least he’s only a character in a TV show. The only ones feeling the pain of his loneliness is… well… us, as viewers. And Colin for the time he’s trying to get inside Merlin’s head. But he’s still Colin. Not Merlin. There’s no actual Merlin being put through all of this misery. And for THAT, I am eternally grateful.
“I’ll have your favorite meal waiting for you.”
Except Merlin will never go back for that meal! *SOBBING* Because it doesn’t seem that Merlin ever goes back to Camelot after Arthur’s death. And… and… oh my god, I just can’t. Merlin might as well have died along with Arthur.
This is the last time Merlin and Gaius will ever see each other.
“Saxons. I’ll deal with them. Keep your head down, don’t speak.”
I love that Merlin can actually tell Arthur that he’ll “deal with them” and know that Arthur knows that he REALLY can. But it is so Merlin to try and trick the Saxons first, and only resort to magic when that fails. And his lack of hesitance in using magic right in front of Arthur. No trying to be secretive. He can be as conspicious as he likes. And it’s EPIC.
“You’ve lied to me all this time.”
YES YES YES. ARTHUR IS REALLY ONLY UPSET ABOUT THE LYING. NOT REALLY THE MAGIC. OMG AM I WATCHING A FANFICTION? HAS THE MERLIN FANDOM FINALLY INFILTRATED THE BBC AND WRITTEN THIS EPISODE? BECAUSE IT IS THAT GOOD.
“Why don’t you use magic?"
“Habit. I suppose.”
“Feels strange.”
“Yeah.”
OMG BABIES. I love how many layers Colin and Bradley can put into a few words.
“I thought I knew you.”
“I’m still the same person.”
“I trusted you.”
“I’m sorry.”
“I’m sorry too.”
These long pauses are KILLING me. They’re certainly not scripted. ALL Colin and Bradley. Babies, why are you so perfect?
“This’ll be good for you. You need to eat.”
“Why are you doing this? Why are you still behaving like a servant?”
Arthur’s tone gets progressively closer to the tone he used to use with Merlin. His voice started out so tiny and confused. Now, it’s starting to resemble the same irritation/affection that was always in his voice before the magic reveal. (OMG HAVE YOU ANY IDEA HOW GIDDY I AM THAT I CAN SAY “BEFORE THE MAGIC REVEAL.” BECAUSE IT HAPPENED. IT’S FINALLY FINALLY HAPPENED.)
But Arthur sounds like he genuinely doesn’t understand why Merlin would be helping him. Why a SORCERER would be helping him. Especially since he can’t justify actually treating Merlin like a servant anymore. So even more, he doesn’t understand why Merlin would willingly act like one.
“It’s my destiny. As it has been since the day we met.”
Merlin just looks so indulgently and so affectionate and so… lovingly (I honestly can’t think of a better word to describe his expression) when he says this.
“I tried to take your head off with a mace.”
Arthur, the sweetheart. He still remembers all the little details.
“And I stopped you. Using magic."
“You cheated.”
OMG, adorable babies are kind of bantering with each other again. We’re making progress! YES! But of course, Arthur is more indignant about Merlin cheating in their first spar than over Merlin having magic.
“You were going to kill me.”
“I should’ve.”
“I’m glad you didn’t.”
How I’ve missed your banter.
“I do this because of who you are. Without you, Camelot’s nothing.“
“There was a time when that was true. But not now.”
“There are many who can fill the crown.”
“There’ll never be another like you, Arthur. …And I also do this because you’re my friend and I don’t want to lose you.”
Merlin’s faith in Arthur never ceases to astound me. He honestly still believes in Arthur. Still. After everything. Or maybe because of everything. Through everyone’s doubt, through Arthur’s own self-doubt, Merlin’s faith never wavers. And for once, Arthur’s really understanding what that means. Understanding how difficult it must’ve been for Merlin to keep that faith despite everything he and his father had done. For that faith to burn even stronger than it did the first time he realized it.
“The sorcerer in the battle… you knew who he was.”
“Yes.”
“Do I know him? Please, Gaius, answer me honestly.”
“Yes. He’ll take good care of Arthur.”
“Yes, I’m sure he will. I’m pleased.”
*claps* Thank you, Gwen, for being the only person ever to figure out Merlin has magic. But then again, why am I even surprised. Of course, if anyone were to figure it out, it would have to be Gwen. Everyone else is Camelot is an idiot. Sigh. At least I like Gwen this episode.
Percival and Gwaine went after Morgana alone? Why??? Why would you do that? She has MAGIC. You guys aren’t as idiotic as Arthur.
“Why did you never tell me?”
“I wanted to but…”
“What?”
“You’d have chopped my head off.”
“Not sure what I’d have done.”
“And I didn’t want to put you in that position.”
“That’s what worried you?”
HIS FACE when he says that. The corner of his mouth goes up just slightly for a second. And his eyebrows soften just a little. I tried to capture it in the two pictures above, but I’m not sure I succeeded. But those miniscule little changes in expression. WHY ARE YOU BOYS SO PERFECT?
But really. Arthur, what did you THINK was worrying Merlin? Fear of death? Arthur sounds so surprised and tender to find out that all this time, Merlin was still thinking of Arthur instead of himself in keeping this secret.
BUT THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK FOR MAKING THIS TRAIN OF THOUGHT CANON. YES YES YES. ALL THOSE FANFICTIONS. CANON.
“Some men are born to plow fields. Some like to be great physicians. Others to be great kings. Me… I was born to serve you, Arthur, and I’m proud of that. And I wouldn’t change a thing.”
For once, Arthur understands. OMG HE UNDERSTANDS. AND THE TRUST IS BACK. THE BOND IS BACK.
AND OMG HOW MANY FUCKING TIMES ARE THEY GOING TO PLAY “BOND OF SACRIFICE”??? I CAN’T TAKE THE FEELS.
THIS ENTIRE TIME. They’re sitting ARM IN ARM. OH MY GOD HOW LONG DID COLIN AND BRADLEY HAVE TO SIT LIKE THAT? SO INTIMATE.
I couldn’t help it. This moment was just too cute not to screenshot.
OH. MY. GOD. Percival literally just ripped the ropes apart with his bare hands. I can’t even. That was… wow.
“You’ve done this before. All these years, Merlin, you never once sought any credit.”
“That’s not why I do it.”
I just love that Arthur’s finally understanding what Merlin’s gone through all these years.
Helloooo Perwaine. You two are so cute.
“She’s riding for Avalon.”
“Gwaine.”
“I’ve failed.”
Oh my god. GWAINEEEEEE! WHYYYYYY? Why did Gwaine have to be the ONLY knight to die? *sobbing* And the Perwaine. Oh god. You guys aren’t even trying to hide it.
“I’m the king, Merlin. You can’t tell me what to do."
“I always have. I’m not going to change now.”
“I don’t want you to change. I want you to always… be you.”
I CAN’T. These two boys reduce me to incoherence. Just by fucking EXISTING.
“I’m sorry about how I treated you.”
“Hey. Does that mean you’re going to give me a day off.”
“Two.”
“That’s generous.”
Banter! I want more banter. We’re never going to get banter every again. *sobbing*
This episode is fucking focused on Arthur and Merlin I don’t think I can even BREATHE any more. This is what the entire show should be like. Arthur and Merlin’s relationship. Their chemistry just fills the entire screen. I’m just thankful they gave us such a Merthur centric episode for the last episode.
OMG. After Merlin gets thrown back, he STILL tries to reach for his sword to protect Merlin. Oh god sweetheart. I can’t.
As much as I was hoping for an epic magical showdown between Merlin and Morgana, I can’t bring myself to dislike the way they handed it. I like that Merlin stabbed Morgana rather than besting her magically. We all know he has the power to. But the fact that he doesn’t do that. That he kills her using ARTHUR’S blade. It’s somehow all very fitting.
YOUR FACE, ARTHUR. HOW CAN YOU MAKE FACES LIKE THAT AND EXPECT US NOT TO SHIP MERTHUR?
“You’ve brought peace at last.”
“Come on.”
Arthur’s thinking of Camelot. Merlin’s just thinking about Arthur. He doesn’t even give a damn about the Camelot he helped to build.
“Just… Just… Just hold me. Please.”
Oh god. Arthur’s dying in Merlin’s arms. OH GOD. NO. STOP. REWIND. STOP. PAUSE FOREVER.
“There’s something I want to say.”
“You’re not going to say goodbye.”
“No. Merlin… everything you’ve done, I know now. For me. For Camelot. For the kingdom you helped me build.”
“You’d have done it without me.”
“Maybe. I want to say something I’ve never said to you before. Thank you.”
Oh god. Somehow that "thank you" hurts ten times more than any "I love you" ever could.
“Stay with me.”
He just looks so HAPPY when Arthur opens his eyes after he shouts. But oh my god WHY. WHY EVEN GIVE HIM THAT LITTLE BIT OF HOPE. WHY ARE YOU PEOPLE SO CRUEL.
And when Merlin finally did call the Great Dragon, I was TERRIFIED that he wouldn’t come. Because he might’ve DIED. But oh thank god, he’s still alive. I don’t think I could take it if Merlin were completely abandoned there. Merlin’s never looked this helpless. Oh god, babies. Heart breaking AGAIN.
He looks and sounds SO heartbroken. I feel like my heart’s broken fifty times over already, but STILL Colin manages to break it all over again. God, I wonder how Bradley was feeling, listening to Colin’s heartbroken screams.
Merlin untangles himself from Arthur only to press their foreheads together. Oh my god. What is this, the episode for killing the slash fangirls?
I have to say. I kept wondering why Merlin wouldn’t just call the Great Dragon already. He can CARRY them. Who cares if Arthur sees that the dragon isn’t dead? Arthur will be ALIVE to KNOW IT. Isn’t that the most important part?
And when Merlin finally did call the Great Dragon, I was TERRIFIED that he wouldn’t come. Because he might’ve DIED. But oh thank god, he’s still alive. I don’t think I could take it if Merlin were completely abandoned there. Merlin’s never looked this helpless. Oh god, babies. Heart breaking AGAIN.
“Merlin, there is nothing you can do.”
“I’ve failed?”
“No, young warlock. For all that you have dreamt of building has come to pass.”
NO IT HASN’T. SHUT UP KILGARRAH. NO GOLDEN AGE HAS HAPPENED YET. GO TURN BACK TIME AND DO IT RIGHT. REPEAL THE FUCKING BAN ON MAGIC. REPEAL IT. REWIND. RE-FUCKING-WIND.
“I can’t lose him. He’s my friend.”
Seeing Merlin’s face and hearing his voice here. Oh god. I think I just died a little. And the way Merlin CLUTCHES at Arthur. SERIOUSLY.
MERLIN AND ARTHUR IS THE GREATEST LOVE STORY EVER TOLD. NO WONDER ALEX VLAHOS SAID THAT THE LAST EPISODE IS A BRILLIANT LOVE STORY BETWEEN ARTHUR AND MERLIN. BECAUSE THAT IS EXACTLY WHAT IT IS.
“Arthur is not just a king. He is the Once and Future King. Take heart. For when Albion’s need is greatest, Arthur will rise again.”
YES YES YES REINCARNATION. I NEED REINCARNATION. ESPECIALLY AFTER ALL THIS HEARTBREAK.
At this point, I honestly wondered if Merlin was going to kill himself. I’m not sure if I’m more relieved or disappointed the Merlin didn’t. Because it would’ve been very fitting if Merlin did stab himself. Excalibur could slay him, I’m sure. It would’ve been very fitting for Merlin to die with Arthur. But then, his living on to wait for Arthur (because we all know that’s the ONLY reason he chooses to live) just shows how strong he is. He has always been stronger than Arthur in the ways that count. I’m not sure if I could see Arthur living in the world alone, just waiting for Merlin. I’m not sure Arthur could bear it. Merlin… Merlin’s always been able to shoulder that kind of loneliness.
I was expecting him to torch the boat again. But thank god he doesn’t. Although… burning Arthur probably wouldn’t be very conducive to him living again, would it…
I don’t love that Gwen became Queen. It’s all a little too… convenient. A woman isn’t supposed to take the throne, after all. No matter who she is. But who else could he choose? We do know that Gwen will make a great Queen. She always has been. It was a surprising turn. Not that I had any expectations for what would happen in Camelot after Arthur’s death. I didn’t really care. Much like Merlin doesn’t.
To me, it seems like Merlin never went back to Camelot after Arthur’s death. He’s not at Gwen’s coronation, and there are no hints that he ever went back. That is just so PAINFUL though. Merlin literally couldn’t live in a Camelot without Arthur. SO HE NEVER WENT BACK. And poor Gaius was waiting with his favorite meal. And he never said goodbye to his friends. Oh god. His entire world is Arthur, as proven for the millionth time this season. How anyone can deny the love between Merlin and Arthur (platonically or romantically) is beyond me.
GAH. So the modern day lorry spoiler was true. BUT I WAS EXPECTING A HAPPY REINCARNATION. ONE WHERE WE HAD ARTHUR AND MERLIN MEETING AGAIN AND BASICALLY REPLAYING THEIR FIRST MEETING. Something like this. BUT WE GOT THE ANGSTY VERSION INSTEAD. WHYYYYY. AFTER THAT BALL OF ANGST THAT WAS THIS ENTIRE EPISODE, WHY COULDN’T YOU THROW US A BONE AND GIVE US REINCARNATED ARTHUR. I WOULDN’T CARE IF THE WORLD WAS LITERALLY BLOWN TO PIECES AROUND THEM AS LONG AS WE GOT ARTHUR AND MERLIN TOGETHER AGAIN.
HAS MERLIN JUST BEEN LURKING AROUND AVALON FOR THOUSANDS OF YEARS WAITING FOR ARTHUR? WAITING AND HOPING HE’LL COME BACK? MY FEELS CAN’T TAKE THIS. (My entire life is on caps lock right now.)
I don’t even know why I bothered calling this a review. Cuz it’s more like an outpouring of my feels and a picspam.
Thank you to everyone who reads my Merlin reviews. I love you guys!
I’ll probably move on to a new TV show to review eventually. I haven’t got anything lined up, so we’ll see. But I will definitely keep flailing around in the Merlin fandom. For the rest of my life. If you’d like to flail with me, you should come follow my tumblr!
And I am eternally grateful ‘Merlin’ for being so wonderfully addictive and providing me with an obsession that’s lasted ten months and counting. I’ll miss you so much. (If those words are even enough to sum up how I’m feeling.) I don’t know what I’m going to do without ‘Merlin.’ Probably crawl into bed and never leave while I cry my eyes out for the next month. Thank god for fandom.
Now, I’m off to read copious amounts of fanfiction, starting with The Student Prince by Fayjay, to try and patch up this hole in my heart.
Oh! There’s a Merlin Rewatch on Tumblr starting on January 1st. Come join us! We can all dissolve into feels together all over again!