Step Forty-Nine

[senseiseiichi]

It's official.

Chronic Inflammatory Demyelinating Polyneuropathy.

CIDP.

I have never been so scared of an acronym in my life.

I've suspected that my GBS had progressed since January, but I didn't want to hear the official diagnosis.  I've been told that it's under control, but that when I go home for the holidays, I get a nice hospital stay for part

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Private to Yuki

[luckykohou]

. . . Yuki...?

Private to Sen

[senseiseiichi]

...make sure they don't have "Living with CIDP" on them.

Shit.

I was going to tell you tonight.

Private to Yuki

[luckykohou]

Sure. Look, I don't mind that you didn't tell me.

Private to Sen

[senseiseiichi]

...You lie worse than I do.

Not even my family knows yet.

Private to Yuki

[luckykohou]

I honestly don't mind.

I get it. Why you didn't.

What're you gonna say...?

Private to Sen

[senseiseiichi]

...I don't know.

I don't think, "Hey mom and dad, I'm sicker than they thought and so I'm spending part of break in the hospital merry Christmas" is going to cut it.

Private to Yuki

[luckykohou]

Geez. Your family celebrates Christmas? That makes it so much harder. Maybe it'd be best to keep it from them for the time being if that's the case.

Private to Sen

[senseiseiichi]

Not really celebrate-we're not Christian. But we have a nice dinner together and exchange a couple of gifts. Our big thing is New Year's.

This is the first time in my life where I can honestly say that I'm scared.