Step Forty-Five

[senseiseiichi]

I thought that the ache was supposed to heal with time, not intensify.

I didn't want to lie to Sen last night, but I had to. BFF, I'm sorry.  I just...I can't open to anyone. Not now, probably not for an extremely long time. I opened myself up to two people. I loved them, held them, would have done anything for them. And how do I get repaid?

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[luckykohou]

. . .

Yuki...

[senseiseiichi]

Yes, Sen?

[luckykohou]

;___;

[senseiseiichi]

What's the matter?

[gaku_nii_chan]

You're going out with Flying Brick Guy? That's so cute! Where are you going? What time? What are you wearing? I think this calls for a shopping trip.

I have some exercises to do if you want. Remember, I'm the king of injuring myself.

Private to Seiichi

You so suck at lying. Though I was completely messed up this weekend...(did I give you a ride home?) but I know that you were miserable and something was bothering you and you need to talk. So, talk. I'll pout until you do.

[senseiseiichi]

I think he's taking me out to dinner at that little yakiniku place near Kita. I'm meeting him there at six, and I have no clue what I'm wearing yet.

Really? Need them! I hate being off my feet.

Private to Gakuto

I took a taxi home after I got you in bed. You were pretty out of it...and kept calling me "teddy".

Long story short? We broke up. For good. The exact same way as three years ago-no note, no call, just disappearance.

[gaku_nii_chan]

Well, we'll pick something out for you. It sounds like you're going to have fun.

My doctor gave them to me last time....or the time before because if he didn't, I'd end up in the gym working out and probably hurting myself even more.

Private to Seiichi

I'll pay you back for the taxi. I'm sorry I kind of passed out, and...did I curl up on you like I do Pika-san? I know I did that to Shinji a lot. Mind you, you make a pretty good teddy bear. If I drooled on you, I'm sorry.

Oh gods...any time you need to talk I'm here. I know how hard it is.

[senseiseiichi]

I hope so. If anything, I'll get a free meal out of it.

I definitely need them, then.

Private to Gakuto

I think you did mistake me for Pika-san, but I really didn't mind. Don't worry about paying me back, I have the money.

Thank you, but right now, I don't think I can really talk about it without getting drunk-and I'm not allowed to have that, either.

[dataphysics]

You...accepted a date with him? Yukimura...what about...?

I confess to some confusion.

[senseiseiichi]

Ah. It's understandable.

But it doesn't matter anymore, Inui.

[dataphysics]

Doesn't matter...?

No. It's clear that you do not want to talk about it. I will not ask anymore questions.

[senseiseiichi]

Thank you for being the first person to respect my wishes, Inui.

I'll talk about it when I'm ready.

[taka_can_cook]

I really had a good time Yukimura...maybe we could do it again...?

[senseiseiichi]

...That would be a lot of fun. I had a nice time.

[taka_can_cook]

I'm glad you did. You know...there's this new restaurant opened near the bay...and...if you'd like to...go together...? *dies of embarrassment*

[senseiseiichi]

That seafood restaurant? It looks like a pretty nice place...

I think that's a good idea.

[torikkusuta]

Something... doesn't feel quite right, but it's your business and I won't pry if you don't want to say anything.

Private to 'Mura

Just know that I'm here for you whenever you need want to talk or rant or vent or whatever you feel like doing. I've gotten pretty good at lending an ear for people who need want to do that.

[senseiseiichi]

Thank you.

Private to Haru

Don't worry about it. It's just, well...me getting worked up over nothing. But thank you for offering.

Private to 'Mura

[torikkusuta]

I think that's the first I've heard of that... you getting worked up over nothing. I don't think it's nothing but like I said I won't pry because it's your life. Just... don't drown, okay?