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[senseiseiichi]

Renji,

You probably hate me right now for interfering.  But right now, sit down and read this before making any rash decisions.

Yes, I was the person who called in and switched your counseling appointments to Arakida-sensei (and the service is covered in student fees, so no complaining about extra cost.) I'm not the only person who thought it was a

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Private to Yukimura

[dataphysics]

I hope so too, Yukimura. For his sake, and yours, and Sanada's, too. It is very clear how much you care when you try like this, and I hope Renji is still capable of seeing that.

And if you are interested, my mother just sent me a collection of coffee she's been collecting on her buisness trips. Kona, Jamacian Blue Mountain, and Java. I would recommend the Kona, myself.

Private to Inui

[senseiseiichi]

He knows we all care, I just don't think he wants to admit it. I spoke with his old counselor, and he voiced concerns, too. I lost him and Genichirou already. I won't lose them again. I tried to draw him out last night, but all he would tell me was that he was scared. And that's...that's not Renji.

...I am indeed interested in coffee. Caffine is my favorite drug.

Private to Seiichi

[willowy_renji]

I...don't know about this.

I don't feel like I've changed all that much, and I haven't really been angry like that in ages. As to my sense of humor, it's just different from everyone else's, and it always has been. You should know that by now.

I do know something is wrong, and I don't want to hurt you or Genichirou because of it. I want to be normal again.

Private to Renji

[senseiseiichi]

Just give him a chance? He's excellent-I've gone to him a couple of times. You don't have to keep going, but just once for all of us.

Renji, you may not have noticed a change, but people have been asking me if you're okay. You're shutting everyone out, even Genichirou and me.

I want you to be happy again, too. No matter what, Genichirou and I are with you every step of the way.

I love you.

Private to Seiichi

[willowy_renji]

I will give him a chance. For you.

...And why are they asking you? It's not your place to even answer that. You should be telling them to ask me themselves - or to mind their own business.

I'm not trying to shut everyone out, but... It's easier when I think I'm not worrying everyone. And my issues are just that - mine. I don't want to burden you or Genichirou with them, even though I know they're affecting *us*.

I want to be happy too. I just don't know how to get there again. Maybe I need to be alone to do that though...

I love you too.

Private to Renji

[senseiseiichi]

Not just for me. For you, too.

People are asking me because you brush them off and once again, shut them out, and they know we're close. Renji, I know you're not close to Inui anymore, but do talk to him for me? He was the one who gave me the idea in the first place.

And when your issues affect us, they become ours. I believe it was you who told me that? You're not a burden, we're worried! Renji...you upset me when you're like this.

If you have to scream at me, or cry, or be held, I'll do it. Just let me back in.

We're all working towards being happy. ...Whatever it takes, no matter how much it hurts Genichirou and I. Just let me hold you.