I had a vision a few days ago that's haunting me. It came on Saturday while I was grazing Li. It started raining and all of a sudden this memory from a past life filled my mind. I was dancing on a deserted beach in the rain under a full moon. It filled me with such serenity and joy. I was dancing out of pure joy of being alive, beautiful, fluid ( Read more... )

I love Mel to death, but sometimes the girl just pisses teh hell outta me. She has absolutely no sense of priority or obligation. She's off in her own little Mel fantasy world that revolves around her and what she has to get done, and she refuses to sacrifice anything at all. She was supposed to come over to Jen's tonight so that we could film. We ( Read more... )

My aunt just told me that she was meditating about lives-past, present, and future-and that suddenly she saw the word 'independance' flash across her mind combined with my spirit. When she first told me I laughed. The thought of me being independant seemed absured. I'm so crippilingly shy (most of the time) that I'm incredibly dependant on my ( Read more... )

For the past three or four nights I've been having dreams where I'm with friends, and we're hanging out and having a great time, and then all of a sudden they start walking off and as I go to follow them, I realize that I have all of this crap around me that I have to pick up and take with me, and as a start to pick things up more and more of it ( Read more... )

My grandmother just gave me pictures that she took of me right before prom. Surprisingly they actually came out pretty good (my grandmother has a habit of cutting off peoples heads) Everyone looks great, except me, my prom dress made me look fat ( Read more... )

Your Kissing Purity Score: 20% Pure
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I was talking to my aunt last night and we found out that we both have had the same premonition...kind of. When I was really little I was in the car and I got this vision of a really bad car accident. I had forgotten about it until I was meditating a few weeks ago. Now I know why I always feel aprehensive about being in cars. My aunt says that she ( Read more... )

I wish I could get my6 confidence back. I miss riding as well as I used to. I was never a natural. But I was damned good for a while. And then, I dunno, something changed. I see the other girls riding, cantering, trotting, largoing, cortoing, things that I know I can do, that I've done a million times before, that I love doing and I'm so jealous. ( Read more... )

I went out with the barn girls tonight instead of going to dance class. It probably wasn't the smart thing to do considering that I want to be a really good dancer by the end of summer. But then I've never done the smartest thing. It was sooo much fun to be out with them all. I love those girls. I just wish we didn't have to go home so early. But ( Read more... )

I was watching BUtterfield 8 today (FABULOUS movie, I can see why Elizabeth Taylor won an Oscar for it, even though everyone always says that she only won it out of sympathy.) It was so weird watching it. It was like looking into the future. I identified so much with Gloria Wandrous (isn't that an awesome name? It's so cool, right up there with ( Read more... )