I know we need to see each other more! At least I will be moving close by! I will be rooming with Feygon and Maeb (Rick and Danielle) I do not think I have BPD, either, but I have found some of the "coping mechanisms" helpful. I was a server in the Dining Room. Loved it. Pay sucks, shitty insurance, but I loved it. You know that I would love to start a Lolita brand as a sub of Seams-Unusual... but I haven't got a name. Still have mixed feelings about "Seams-Innocent". Right now, I'm trying to focus on the little things: what MY vision really consists of. So far, its just the bloomers and the bustle belts... I leave my therapist at 4PM tomorrow. That's on Broadway and like, 14th on the East Side. Should I pick you up somewhere so that I don't beat you home? Wait. Wait I can't do that I will have NO PLACE to stash your bike because I will have Stuff in the Back of My Car...
I'm totally shocked, and yet not entirely surprised either. I am, and really always have been, sorry that I've not spent more time with you over the years. But I've always been at such a loss as to how to understand the world you came from. I always thought it was what you wanted. A year or two ago or something (before you found me again on the internet), I found a long letter from you dated early-mid 2005 that had been hand delivered to me shortly before my wedding and was misplaced and never read back then. I don't remember what was in it except that you sounded so very unhappy and confused, and I was very sad I had been unable to respond at the time. But I assumed that surely things had gotten better. Feel free to give me a call if you want to talk. (503) 482-7250.
That's so strange... I have no memory of said letter..! I would really love to play catch up sometime. Your presence was a huge and positive part of my childhood and I miss you.
*Hugs* This is a really well written journal entry my friend. It really explains everything. Journals are great for that. I must admit when I first heard the news the soppy romantic in was very sad, but seeing you both there and how it was clear you had made a decision. I knew that it was the right decision for both of you. Thank-you for seeking me out the other day. I was really honored it felt wonderful to actually help another person, since going to college full time just makes me feel like I take. You are so cool, everything will be alright. *hugs*
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I'm Not A Professional (tm) but I don't think you have BPD. You don't seem to have that on/off "I love you or I hate you" thing going on.
But again: I'm Not A Professional (tm)
What did you do at the old folks' home? I know you're not a CNA...
Where are you living?
Can we start a lolita brand? (okay, mostly kidding there....maybe.)
What are you doing tomorrow evening? Wanna come over and hang out and talk talk talk?
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I do not think I have BPD, either, but I have found some of the "coping mechanisms" helpful.
I was a server in the Dining Room. Loved it. Pay sucks, shitty insurance, but I loved it.
You know that I would love to start a Lolita brand as a sub of Seams-Unusual... but I haven't got a name. Still have mixed feelings about "Seams-Innocent". Right now, I'm trying to focus on the little things: what MY vision really consists of. So far, its just the bloomers and the bustle belts...
I leave my therapist at 4PM tomorrow. That's on Broadway and like, 14th on the East Side. Should I pick you up somewhere so that I don't beat you home? Wait. Wait I can't do that I will have NO PLACE to stash your bike because I will have Stuff in the Back of My Car...
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I figured we'd walk up to Mt. Tabor (walking while talking = awesome) and then make dinner at my place.
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http://www.babyssb.co.jp/reserve/107P209.html
OH MY GOD I love the way it laces up on the sides, with the sheer stuff.
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I'm totally shocked, and yet not entirely surprised either. I am, and really always have been, sorry that I've not spent more time with you over the years. But I've always been at such a loss as to how to understand the world you came from. I always thought it was what you wanted. A year or two ago or something (before you found me again on the internet), I found a long letter from you dated early-mid 2005 that had been hand delivered to me shortly before my wedding and was misplaced and never read back then. I don't remember what was in it except that you sounded so very unhappy and confused, and I was very sad I had been unable to respond at the time. But I assumed that surely things had gotten better. Feel free to give me a call if you want to talk. (503) 482-7250.
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I would really love to play catch up sometime. Your presence was a huge and positive part of my childhood and I miss you.
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Love ya, Hayley ^_^
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