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[scriptory]

I'm home back.

The trip is still too close to write about.

I can say: she feels stronger and I feel older.

101 new emails.

Last night was hard on me. Sam's in Vancouver because I didn't call to let him know I was coming.

I feel groundless.

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[rising_dawn]

Hey Newt! why so sad love? you were so excited about your big trip!
::hugs::
Dawn

[tumtum_pirate]

Whenever you're ready to talk, I would very much like to listen. You could even give me a call if you'd like to. Hugs,
Anna

[reclaimingkatie]

It's funny. I know this isn't your journal anymore... but when you posted you were looking back I wanted to glance back at when I started mine (around our trip) and thought I would peek at yours from the same time...

"She feels stronger and I feel older"...
It's funny. Shortly after coming back I fell apart... I think the trip broke something in me- in a good, but very painful, way. But it took a few weeks for me to realize it.

It was the beginning of my unraveling and also the start of my "becoming" and stepping into the person I wanted to be.

I definitely wasn't stronger though (looking back) I was broken down... I had to be in order to finally create myself. That feeling of strength was incredibly short lived.

I hope you feel less lonely and more settled now- and if not- sometimes it is in that place of lonely, broken, shitty feelings where the most amazing things happen.

*le sigh*