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[scrappymkii]

[private, easily hackable by friends.  Somewhat more difficult for everyone else.]

Out there... Kamille had to kill someone close to him.  Someone who was like his little sister...

... Stella, do you think I could have done the same?  If I had to choose between a you that didn't even recognize me, a you lost in a fit of rage and Luna and Shiro and

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Hacked. also BROFILTER

[pilotofsilence]

Making decisions are never easy, y'know.

[scrappymkii]

I know.

But this is one that...

... In that kind of situation it's obvious what I have to do. And what eats at me is I'm not sure I could do it.

[pilotofsilence]

Shinn...

I know that choices are like that are painful.

But...

In the end, even if we choose for you...

You're going to end up to be the one to decide for yourself

[scrappymkii]

Yeah.

... Seriously though... sometimes this job feels like it's getting harder and not easier.

[Hacked, filtered]

[driftingpersona]

Yes, it is a selfish request. But so is killing someone for the sake of anyone else. I just killed my brother, the person I had been gearing up to save, the only reason I joined the GDF at all. I killed him wishing I could save him, but knowing he was too far gone. Even if I had convinced him to leave, he would never have been fulfilled, never have been happy.

Was I being selfish? I would say yes, but that's not important. What do you think?

[scrappymkii]

I'm thinking I'm too soft to ever believe that, or even accept it when someone's so far gone that I can't save them.

I know it's stupid and it's going to get me killed...

... But I still believe that. I guess that means that Stella died for nothing then, seeing as how I'm the same idiot I was before Berlin.

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[driftingpersona]

Stella died because she died. There is no deeper meaning to it. The fact that she died has no bearing on you unless you make it.

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[driftingpersona]

...Is what I want to say, but in truth, I don't think I believe that. As I said, I chose to kill my brother. Whether it was right or wrong, or even the best thing to do hardly matters to me. What matters is that in doing so I completely failed at everything I had set out to do.