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[closed] from green to gold

Jun 10, 2011 00:39

Who: sonvisage, lumenrelegandus, and the fact of Tonks.
When:
Part I (flashbackdated) right between this and that.
Part II (slightly less backdated): as everyone picks themselves back up after the Abyssal War (which ended, belatedly, for these two here to there.)
Where: Lust and Lupin’s apartment
Format: Prose; not bothering to color-code: Lust is Lust, Lupin is Lupin.
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!lust, !remus lupin

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sonvisage June 10 2011, 22:47:17 UTC

[She feels him turn but doesn't yet move, herself. She swallows, staring into the dark of a doorway with an absent door.]

I tore it up. The tile? I was tired of mistaking shadows for your blood.

[Still rigid, still standing, she quiets and turns.]

lumenrelegandus June 11 2011, 05:55:19 UTC

[looks at her for a moment.

At last says softly,]

It's not just about struggling with your own feelings of humanity, is it? Not just learning what it means in yourself. It's learning what it means. For everyone.

You didn't know-you couldn't possibly have known, what you were getting into… with someone only human. It wasn't real, until it was forced on you, that I could get hurt or killed, and what it would be like for you to endure that… And that I… that any one person's heart and mind can get overwhelmed by their own preoccupations and pain, shape their choices, and again how it would effect…

[his voice trails off. His finger curls against her hand. He'll maintain that contact until she pulls away, whereupon he wouldn't try to keep it.

Says slowly at last,]

I don’t think there is a right way to do what I did. There may at least be better ways. But I don't know how…

I won’t keep telling you how sorry I am… I hope you know, if there’s anything, ever, I can do to make it…

[better? right? not have happened ( ... )

sonvisage June 23 2011, 01:48:03 UTC

I think I can.

[...and there's a space of silence here that seems to stretch eons as she stares into the ruin of their former life.]

It might have been easier if you'd died.

[Yet she doesn't pull away. And her voice holds no malice. Her own fingers move, but barely, a curl and a brush before they're still.]

lumenrelegandus June 23 2011, 18:38:44 UTC

[a faint very-nearly smile]

Isn't the problem here that we all come back?

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