Well, I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough...

[schnuffichen]

(...My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that.)
- Home, by Michael Bublé

First of all, a bit of a weird apology: Not for the first time have I written and posted an two entries last week that I decided to delete make private a couple of hours after. I don't know why on Earth I'm so bothered by what other people think about what I say

Comments

[pgwfolc]

So... you've been posting stuff and changing your mind because you're afraid of what people will think, and now you're apologizing to us for doing it because you're afraid of what we'll think.

Relax. You're a cool person. And we're you're friends. And, yes, it's your journal.

And, really, the same goes for the other thing. Relax. You're a better person than you're giving yourself credit for.

You're holding yourself back because you're afraid of what people will think of you, but saying nothing is a choice, too. And it's one that can make you look distant or standoffish. Or just like a wallflower.

Relax. Remember that you're fun, interesting, and intelligent. People won't bite if you talk to them. (Most people, anyway.) And if you end up saying something stupid or objectionable... we all do that from time to time. The trick is that it only really stands out if you never say anything else.

[schnuffichen]

First of all, thanks! ;) (And I love the icon

[doranwen]

I can't speak for anyone else, but I always read what you post when I get to it (I check LJ once every week or so, more or less, so I usually see posts days late, as you see). And it's up to you how much or little you want to share, but I am never bothered by people sharing a lot, so don't worry about that.

As for whether what you have to say is interesting, of course it is. :) I might not have much (or anything) to say in response, but that's because *I* have trouble finding responses to things unless they get me talking about myself or spawn some question I need to find the answer to. I always enjoy reading about friends' lives and all, but don't often know what to say in response. So I understand the whole "sitting there" thing. For me it's all "I don't know what *to* say" and I just sit there uncomfortably in convos, lol. Unless someone gets me going on a topic I know, then I rattle on for ages. (This is exactly the sort of behavior that got beansideirae to figure out I had NLD.) I'm not implying you do whatsoever; just saying I

[annabtg]

Personally, I do sometimes second-guess posting something, but mostly I have a clear idea of what I want to say on LJ and what I don't, in my head.

I can't tell why you have this "stage fright", but at least here, you can be yourself. Post whatever you feel like posting; we're a tolerate bunch ;D And this may help you build up some confidence for the real world. It seems like it's strangers/people you don't know well that give you this fright, and it's natural.

(Paul's icon is awesome and says things like they are.)