give this stone to my brother

[scarletts_awry]

title: Give This Stone to My Brother
with: Danny/Louie
rated: NC-17
herein: Danny almost shuts the door in Louie’s face, but he can’t.
disclaim: I only own the dvds; everything belongs to Zuiker, CBS, et al

warnings: this story contains incest between brothers and although it is set in the present day (when they are in their thirties), there is

Comments

[scarletts_awry]

Thanks; I'm glad you liked it. It was exhausting to write, but it's also taken over my brain. As of this evening I believe there will be three more stories in this verse.

[stellaluna_]

This made me queasy, but in a good way. In a way that it *should* have, if that makes sense. It was upsetting and left me very unsettled, and there was a very strong sense there of Danny as an abused child, even after he's an adult. It's really heartbreaking in that way, because he's getting used and abused *so* badly, and there's just this part of me that wants to grab him up and run far away from Louie and the people who would use him like this, because he's so *not* an adult there at the end, but an abused little boy who's just shattered and who's blaming himself *so much* and so unfairly.

[scarletts_awry]

Thanks. It really should be a disturbing, unsettling story, and like I told you there's more on the way. It's a very difficult, exhausting thing to explore, but it's also like a trainwreck from my perspective. I can't seem to look away. When they're younger it is abuse. When they're older, Danny literally cannot say no to his brother, which means he cannot truly consent. So no, he's *not* an adult there at the end.

Which is why I think I need to write more, actually. Well, specifically why I need to write the piece where Flack finds out, because Flack's reaction is basically my own reaction. I can't *fix it* quite, because years of abuse isn't something you can just fix, but I have to do something to make it less awful.

(um, and then possibly more awful too, but then less awful again. don't look at me like that.)

[mybestexcuse]

like cigarettes and the street

i'm writing a song with this, just as one note.

I like this fic quite a bit. I'm disturbed by it. Not because of the incest, but because it's not often in this fandom that you find people being so obviously used by others. Most of the lab is too close to do that. So seeing Danny get used like this is really throwing me off kilter.

I love it, though.

<3

[scarletts_awry]

I'm glad you like that line. It's one I had to think about to get right.

And thank you. It's meant to be a disturbing, unsettling story. I've got this almost masochistic desire to see how far I can push them into bad places while keeping them in character and keeping the emotional integrity of the piece. It's not a desire I often give into because I'm always sure I'm going to fuck it up.

[mybestexcuse]

i'm totally actually writing a song.

new guitar=danger

[scarletts_awry]

new guitar=cool

songwriting=very cool

:)

[anonymous]

dammit girl - you can make me read anything, i tells ya! your style is just so visceral... and as a side note;..i always wondered what happened in that damn gypsy cab...thanks for the read..

[scarletts_awry]

Thank you. I seem to be getting into a habit where if an impossible idea crosses my path I *have* to figure out a way to make it work.