Hmmm. So it's for the porn battle, but it's not all that porntastic when you get right down to it. Lately, I seem to be having trouble with gratuitous porntasticness
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Thanks. I've had a strangely difficult time getting my pr0n on lately, and I'm really glad I got that image across. Hell, Mac and Danny themselves spend a lot of time being difficult. ;)
You know, I was whining to Gin a few nights ago about how I was afraid I'd lost my Danny/Mac writing mojo, in particular, and that I didn't know if I still could find good ways of writing them.
I believe the universe is conspiring to remind me of all the reasons why I love them. (This is the kind of conspiracy I like, mind you.)
Anyway, this is lovely. It's hot and angry and filled with uncertainty, and it really is a perfect portrait of all the reasons why this pairing intrigues me the way it does. What makes the anger and all the things they don't know about each other sting so much is the great *need* they both have for the other person *to* know, or at least to want to ask. And, at the same time, both of them are completly incapable of either asking for what they want, or asking the other person the questions that they crave.
And it's yearning and furious and filled with distrust, and that just...yes. Lovely.
I do know the feeling, though; I feel that way about Danny/Flack every once in a while. At the same time, they're the pairing I tend to retreat to. I mean, I feel like I have them down cold, but I don't want to sit there and repeat myself either.
Mac and Danny are so weighed down by their pasts, both individually and collectively, and while it's a perfect thing in common, in practice it pushes them further apart. It's that "same page, different language" thing... I think I've described it like that in regards to WtL.
At the same time, they're the pairing I tend to retreat to. I mean, I feel like I have them down cold, but I don't want to sit there and repeat myself either.
*nodnodnod* That's it exactly. Even though I don't OTP, they were my first love in this fandom, and I still retreat to them as my squishy. And I think sometimes that maybe it's *because* I feel like I have them down cold that I fear repeating myself, and find myself wondering what, if anything, I can say about them.
that said, I currently seem to be writing D/M first-time unadulterated pr0n, so...fingers crossed.
It's that "same page, different language" thing
Oh, definitely. And I think it's *because* they have so much in common that it then pushes them apart. If they were on different pages altogether, they might do better. But since they're not...I think it's similar to Flack's ongoing argument with Mac re: police loyalty and behavior. They're on the same page there, too, but might as well be speaking in two different dead languages for all their lack of commonality.
Oh the angst... Those two will always have Sonny and Tanglewood between them, whether it is really there or not. Neither of them is capable of letting go. But in a way it makes the passion between them more, well, passionate.
Thanks. Yeah, they both are haunted by their past, as much as they don't want to be. They have that much in common, and it just messes everything up more for them.
I can't help but think that Mac's trying to mark Danny in his own way, to erase his past with Sonny and all them. Marking him as his, even if it's with teeth and fucking and probing questions.
*nodnod* That's... Actually, that's a fine line for me, because it skirts close to one of my few squick zones, but it's a fair way to describe the desperation between them. They both want to erase their pasts so badly (but they can't)--and I think it's just as important that *Danny* wants Mac to do this to and for him, y'know?
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(Sonny’s hands were rough like this, but they didn’t ask these questions.)
Guh. Just gorgeous. Absolutely beautiful. And the image I got was just so perfect, and the Mac and Danny are just so right. Lovely.
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this is lovely and painful and ow ow ow.
it makes me hurt.
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I believe the universe is conspiring to remind me of all the reasons why I love them. (This is the kind of conspiracy I like, mind you.)
Anyway, this is lovely. It's hot and angry and filled with uncertainty, and it really is a perfect portrait of all the reasons why this pairing intrigues me the way it does. What makes the anger and all the things they don't know about each other sting so much is the great *need* they both have for the other person *to* know, or at least to want to ask. And, at the same time, both of them are completly incapable of either asking for what they want, or asking the other person the questions that they crave.
And it's yearning and furious and filled with distrust, and that just...yes. Lovely.
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I do know the feeling, though; I feel that way about Danny/Flack every once in a while. At the same time, they're the pairing I tend to retreat to. I mean, I feel like I have them down cold, but I don't want to sit there and repeat myself either.
Mac and Danny are so weighed down by their pasts, both individually and collectively, and while it's a perfect thing in common, in practice it pushes them further apart. It's that "same page, different language" thing... I think I've described it like that in regards to WtL.
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*nodnodnod* That's it exactly. Even though I don't OTP, they were my first love in this fandom, and I still retreat to them as my squishy. And I think sometimes that maybe it's *because* I feel like I have them down cold that I fear repeating myself, and find myself wondering what, if anything, I can say about them.
that said, I currently seem to be writing D/M first-time unadulterated pr0n, so...fingers crossed.
It's that "same page, different language" thing
Oh, definitely. And I think it's *because* they have so much in common that it then pushes them apart. If they were on different pages altogether, they might do better. But since they're not...I think it's similar to Flack's ongoing argument with Mac re: police loyalty and behavior. They're on the same page there, too, but might as well be speaking in two different dead languages for all their lack of commonality.
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Wonderful.
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I can't help but think that Mac's trying to mark Danny in his own way, to erase his past with Sonny and all them. Marking him as his, even if it's with teeth and fucking and probing questions.
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help.
forgive the dumbness.
*hides under table*
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