We're getting stronger every day. We're getting braver in every way.

[scarletfields]

I can't decide whether or not to be happy for the people I used to know. I check up on them now and again, just on social networking websites and through other people, and they all seem to be doing okay. All the kids I thought would turn out fucked up because they made stupid choices and weren't as responsible as me or they weren't as good as me or

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[themidnightair]

I love the first paragraph, I thought that only I felt this way.

[scarletfields]

:) It might be a common thing, I don't know. I've never talked to anyone about it.

[themidnightair]

well now you can :)

[wendies]

Hah, I have a feeling I will be in the same spot as you years from now. It is kind of this way now, for me. Practically all the friends I have do drugs or make some bad mistake.

Hah, me too. I want it to rain.

Who's Tyler? I'm sorry, a lot of my friends go through the same thing. =/ I haven't...Yet? I don't know if I ever will.

[scarletfields]

Well I hope you don't get to this spot! :') It kind of sucks being the one that turned out bad when they're the ones who, seemingly, deserved it.

Yeah, it's super dry here right now.

Tyler's my (only) ex-boyfriend, we dated for like 16 months. He's kind of a huge jerk who did terrible things but we were in a pretty intense relationship for a while there. I'm having trouble leaving him behind, as you've now read.

[scarletfields]

I see what you mean about realizing that someone can't change. I've yet to get to that point, obviously... he keeps saying things or making indications that he can change and we can be happy and healthy and so I believe him. That potential for happiness keeps me from getting over it, I guess. I'm scared of the part where I go into withdrawals or whatever :(