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[saynotobadtouch]

That was ... I shouldn't have ...

Damnit ...

... it's times like this where I'm sure I shouldn't have been made.

[private]I promised I wouldn't say anything, and then I went and

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[needsmoresonic]

Don't you dare say you were 'made'!!! We weren't made!! I sure as hell wasn't!!

[saynotobadtouch]

... *winces* Luke ...

[needsmoresonic]

Don't you start that!! Don't you...damn it!! How can you even say that?!

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[saynotobadtouch]

[queenofgames]

Don't say that! You have just as much right to exist as any of us, damnit! :(

[saynotobadtouch]

No ... not after what I've done, Atem. Not after this ...

[queenofgames]

I'm no saint either, as you well know, but that doesn't make me less worthy of existing. And it definitely doesn't make you less worthy of existing either :(

[saynotobadtouch]

... I might have destroyed someone's life.

[psychoaxel]

Oh no. Don't you start this. You didn't let me or Roxas get anywhere with that line of thinking... I'm not going to let you get anywhere with it, either.

[saynotobadtouch]

A-Axel ...

...

[filtered to Axel]
... I've done the worst thing I could possibly have done to him, Axel ... how can I deserve life after telling the other me what we are?
[/filtered to Axel]

Filtered to Luke

[psychoaxel]

It doesn't matter what you are, it's what you do with it that counts. Look at me. I murdered my best friend. You think I didn't have problems with my existence after I did that? But you continue on, you continue being, and you keep pressing through, even when the darkness seems too great.

I never told Roxas this... he might know sort of the feeling... but in my world, when your heart's taken by darkness... not only do you stop feeling, you stop hoping. Or at least I did. But then I found Roxas. And I'm sure you have people who care about you and who would be really upset if you didn't exist. You're there for those people... and that's the most important thing in their world.

Did you kill someone? Did you kill someone and not feel remorse? Did you kill someone and enjoy it, and want to do it more? I have. And I'm just now starting to regret it.

People live. They learn. They forgive. Sometimes they forget. That's part of existing. And no matter what, you do have as much of a right to be here as anyone else

Filtered to Axel

[saynotobadtouch]

Axel ... that's ....

But even with that ... Luke didn't have to know ... he didn't have to know about what we are, or his relation to ... he was just fine ... he was perfectly fine, and I ruined that for him. I can't ever take back telling him that ... I can't even make up for it.

[perhapstolove]

Luke...? Why is Luke sad....?

[saynotobadtouch]

Ah ...! It's ... please don't worry about it, Chii ...

[perhapstolove]

Luke said 'made'.... Chii was also made. Is Luke like Chii?

[saynotobadtouch]

Huh? Oh ... um ... well, it might be something like that, in a way, I guess.

[fromthedusk]

So everything you said to me meant nothing, did it?

[saynotobadtouch]

..................

No ... not where you're concerned, Roxas. It was never a lie to you, I promise.

[fromthedusk]

It's not a lie to you, either, Luke. If I deserve life, then so do you. It doesn't matter who or what we are. That's what you kept telling me, wasn't it? If you want my opinion on the matter... I think your life has a lot more meaning than mine does...

So don't you dare put it to waste. Or I will hurt you.

[saynotobadtouch]

...! Roxas ...

... thank you. I just ... I need some time. I'm sorry ...