Comments | sashash: now that you're gone,

sashash

now that you're gone,

Jul 20, 2008 12:38

i'm catching up on your amazingness.

it's almost hard to imagine you a woman in her 40s, old hat at everything. it's killing me to think you'll never improve at anything any more. your book is mesmerizing. i'm really an idiot, and nothing short, for not seeking it, for not buying it on the spot ( Read more... )

inadequate elegy, shannon's book, existential angst does the body good

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a_joyous_life July 20 2008, 20:30:27 UTC

beautiful piece Sashash. I keep thinking how her death by cave diving accident is a metaphor for her writing, dashing into dangerous places and pulling and spinning for all it's worth, hoping, hoping to find an exit in the depths.

sashash July 20 2008, 21:09:22 UTC

thanks, Kelly. having just read her entire book for copyediting, i can say with a little more confidence that her writing seems less hopeful for an exit. more toward pitching a home in the depths.

nerak_g July 21 2008, 03:59:14 UTC

...and knowing she was going toward, that she still had so much left to write. Our last rehearsal is what makes this hard, from this angle.When she came to us at 19, she already had poems she'd retired.
It was important to her last year and this to not do what she'd done before. That's how she moved.
This has all been so hard and so weird.
I know she believed in a God-spirit, the connections between different ones and she feared zombie apocalypses.We didn't finish a discussion about her most recent spiritual curiosities.
I sort of have to believe in what I started feeling the Sunday night before she passed---that she didn't want to come back here to re-learn all she made look easy.
She changed her toward.

But I'm still processing.

I'm glad you are handling the book.

sashash July 21 2008, 05:37:00 UTC

whatever you believe, it's just a relief to me to read it. i can't imagine what you've been going through.

Sheila and Mikey have been a joy to work with. the book will look great. a lot of care and a lot of luck (perhaps, even, a dash of oversight) have gone into it in a very, very short amount of time.