deeper conversation: chapter 11
deeper conversation: chapter 11
yunho ♥ jaejoong
chaptered | AU | nc-17
a/n: i tried. err. the longest chapter as yet - 4, 850 words. for cherryweds, because i miss her and i want to let her have this. enjoy? @_@
past chapters: [ one][ two][ three][ four][ five][ six][ seven][ eight][ nine][ ten]
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My heart couldn’t possibly feel fuller than this. Delightful tremors ran through my body from my head down to my toes. I was filled with the sensation of finally holding someone I’m absolutely smitten with, and it felt wonderful, too wonderful in fact. Yunho gazed up at me, eyes shiny and smile so wide it hurt just to look at him; and I knew then I had made the right decision. I had almost lost him due to my indecisiveness, and I was lucky he was still very much into this as he had been when he confessed to me.
I am undeniably head over heels in love with Jung Yunho. It felt liberating admitting it to myself; but nothing beats saying it to him and watching his face bloomed in sheer joy as he looked at me, in awe and slight trance.
“I’m stupid in love with you, do you know that?”, I asked breathlessly, brushing my lips softly along the puckered scar under his left eye, dragging small kisses along his strong jaw and sucking the sweet mole starring above his sweet, sweet lips. He smiled, fingers trailing through the thick of my locks as he angled my face so he could kiss me again, stealing all coherent thoughts from my brain by the gentle swipes of his tongue. Fuck how can he kiss so well?
“Me too. Stupid, crazy, deeply in love with you.”, he mouthed against my lips, eyelashes fluttering like butterflies against my cheek. I held him tighter, not wanting to part yet. This was mine, and he was mine. In this office where walls may have eyes and ears, our life together had started. This was where we first met, the first time our eyes had found each other and the red ribbon of fate had tied us together. I was suddenly filled with poignant thoughts of how it was so much like a destiny - he came stumbling into my life with spilled spaghetti sauce and changed me, made me want something more for myself and for him. The first day I saw him I knew that Yunho was different, awkward yet hardworking, clumsy yet adorable, and tough yet too kind for words. He was bitter and sweet rolled into one, a mesh of a man that was imperfect yet perfect for me to love and be loved by. I decided that I want no one else, ever again. He will be the end of me, whether he wanted it or not.
“Jaejoong-ah…”, he muttered softly against my neck as I brushed his hair, loving the feel of his slightly coarse black hair spilling through between my fingers.
“Hmm?”
He pushed me away slightly, holding me at arm-length so he could look straight into my eyes. His own were sharp, piercing questioning gaze that told me he would accept nothing but truth from me from now onwards. It matters not though, even if he doesn’t ask for it I would still give it to him, all of it - all of me.
“Why do you have to go away? You said you made the decision because of me, but I don’t quite understand what you meant by that.”
I inhaled a deep breath, smiling as I trailed a finger down Yunho’s cheek. His hard expression melted under my touch, and I saw him cracking a shy smile, his eyes crinkling to form little rainbows on his small face and I was thinking God he was just beautiful like this-
“When I said it was because of you, it was all the good reasons, Yunhoya. When I realized I am in love with you, I was elated but I didn’t know how to proceed from that point forward…I couldn’t possibly be with you when you’re my student and I’m your supervisor. As much as I would love to just throw professionalism out of the window, it bugs me, Yunho. I can’t look at you and be as objective as I should be, and it won’t be fair to the others in your group. I know myself better…I’d be distracted by you and I won’t be able to do my work properly. I’m not as good a teacher as I thought I am...”, I smiled weakly, and Yunho shook his head adamantly to deny my words.
“It’s okay, baby, I don’t regret it. Falling in love with my student was not in my agenda at all, but who knows what fate had blown into my office, huh? You stepped into my life and all my previous plan crumbled into insignificance, and I had to make up a new one to accommodate you and me in it.”, Yunho looked down at this, but I tilted his head up, wanting him to look at me and see that I would only offer honesty even if it hurts us,
“…don’t feel sorry, Yunho, I have no regret at all that I had to do this. How could I, when I got you for myself? You’re worth everything, baby, and you should know by now that when I do something, I do it thoroughly. Be it work or love, I treasure both and try to give my best because I’m lucky to be given the opportunity to have them. I’m lucky to have you…and I’m thankful enough to do everything in my power so we could be together and live comfortably. To be honest, I had been planning to get my PhD for ages, but I just never had the actual drive to do it. It seems befitting to pursue it now…and I already got a good recommendation letter from my previous associate professor in Cambridge to ease my way into Seoul University Education and Applied Linguistics Faculty…even the principal is supportive of my decision. Technically I’m still a teacher here, Yunho, it’s just I won’t be doing any real teaching from now on to make way for my studies’ workload. I’d still do departmental management work though, seeing that I can’t possibly leave Annie to sort out the mess by herself on such a short notice….and of course I won’t be your supervisor anymore and we won’t be seeing each other as much as we do now, which I think is a good thing because I don’t want you to play around like this.”, I smiled, tweaking the tip of his nose lightly.
“Oh.” A look of comprehension dawned on Yunho’s face as he smiled brightly, warm and honest.
“I was serious when I said I want this thing between us to work. You are too, right? I’m not alone in this, am I?”
He nodded as he caressed my arms, “Yes, I’m serious and you’re not alone in this. We are a team now…Yunho and Jaejoong. I will support you and make this work, I won’t let you down. You can count on me, Jaejoong-ah.”
“Good to hear that.”
“I can say that to you everyday for the rest of our life if you let me. Will you?”
“Will I what?”
“Let me love you for the rest of your life? All through forever and one day?”
I laughed and was pleasantly surprised at how joyful I sounded, unpretentious and free, “You’re cheesy, baby.”
“And you’re the cracker.”, he winked wickedly and I nearly tumbled off his lap as I guffawed louder at his super lame joke.
“God your sense of humor is so bad. I need to teach you how to make good jokes or risk dying young because of them.”
“I sure hope you’d teach me more than just good jokes.”, Yunho’s eyebrows went up suggestively at this, and I whacked his arm hard, snickering at his attempt of sexual innuendos. When I finally came down from my laughing high, I saw his eyes somewhat glazed as he pulled me closer so he could kiss me softly on the lips.
“Thank you Jaejoong-ah. I don’t know what good thing I’ve done in the past that made God thinks I deserve to have you, but I’m glad for whatever I did because nothing could compare to how grateful I am that you’re willing to love me and let me love you in return. I love you…there’s no one else but you.”
My heart was positively beating a happy fiesta inside my ribcage when I heard this, so I chuckled in reply, trying to hide the blush creeping on my face by nuzzling my nose childishly to his. Yunho grinned widely, and I was sure we shared the same feeling of contentment and bliss. Feel-good tears pricked behind my eyelids, my whole being overwhelmed by this wonder I held in my arms. Jung Yunho is my wonder and I’m his, I’m pretty sure of that.
“Jaejoong-ah…”
I saw Yunho glimpsed at the clock on the wall and paled, and realized I had just distracted him from his schedule, something that I had adamantly decided not to do in the first place. Shit shit shit. I knew my going away was the best thing to do - we are too easily distracted by each other to work at the same place. Hastily moving off his lap and pulling him back on his feet, I quickly shoved him towards the door, but the big block of muscles refused to budge, pouting as he demanded a kiss, “Just once more.”
“Later.”, I shrugged, face getting hot when I realized what a shameless imp I had become making out in the office during school hours!
“Now.”
“No.”
“Please..?”
“Yunho!”
“I want it now. So badly want. Please?”, Yunho pouted exaggeratedly, pawing my arm as if he was one big, fluffy cat. Unff. If I have ovaries I would have beg him to make cute little kitten babies with me now.
“You’re late for class! Aish!”, I slapped away his hands, a mock stern expression on my face. Yunho sighed resignedly, but as I leaned over to unlock the door, he sneakily kissed me on the cheek, catching me off guard and unprepared for the onslaught of blushing warmth spreading all over my body.
He giggled joyously as he slipped through the door, unabashedly saying out loud with an added wink, “I’ll see you later, sonsengnim. We have some unfinished business to settle.”, bowing once to Annie who was looking at me disapprovingly from above her glasses.
Oh just you wait, Jung Yunho, I’ll punish you hard for this.
Somehow that sounded kinky. Or maybe I just am. God. Yoochun would have a blast if he knew I giggled and blushed to myself like I was doing now.
*
I waited for the last bell to ring and saw the students filed out of the classroom, eager to go back home. The hall buzzed with busy chatters of the high-schoolers, and all of them bowed and greeted me politely as they walked past me, bidding me good night. I heard snippets of the rumor of my going away being discussed in hushed whispers among the students, and I just smiled - these kids amused me with their needs for gossips sometimes.
I leaned against the wall as I waited for Yunho to show up, because I had a special plan for him tonight. Straining my neck a little, I looked around for Yunho’s form to appear among the crowd of youngsters. It was relatively easy to spot him when he did, he just stood out like a sore thumb because of his height and build.
I waved at him once, expression soft yet still professional. We were still in school, so I had to play my part well. It wasn’t good to create a nasty rumor that would affect our image and mislead the students with all the unnecessary details of my coupling with Yunho. Yunho walked towards me with a smile, his steps purposeful and calm.
“How was your class, Yunho?”
“Quite good I’d say, Kim-sonsengnim, except when the radio didn’t work for the listening practice I’ve planned. Luckily I had thought of this possibility and prepared the listening excerpt so I could read it out loud in class.”
I nodded, approving his well prepared lesson plan, “I’m glad to hear you’ve thought about your lesson plan with anticipated problems in mind. You don’t know how often this kind of things happen in classroom, and it was always good to be over-prepared than under-prepared.”
Students and a few teachers milled around and walked past us, uninterested in the pedagogical stuffs we were talking about. I gestured to Yunho to follow me to the office, and he acquiesced without acting suspicious. Just as we entered my office, away from prying eyes of the nosy students and teachers, he pulled and turned me around to give me a full, sound kiss on the lips.
“God, you don’t know how beautiful you looked leaning against the wall and waiting for me like that. I nearly peed in my pants because I was so excited.”, Yunho admitted and I just giggled giddily, perfectly acting like a teenage boy stuck in a 33-year old man’s body. His lips searched for mine again but I turned my head at the last second, letting him kissed my cheek instead.
Yunho groaned, voice rough as he whispered into my ear, “You’re such a tease.”
I giggled again, all attempt of trying not to behave like a hormonal teen getting flushed down the gutter with every sharp intake of Yunho’s breath and the feel of his hands around my waist and trailing my back.
“I made plan for us tonight. So you have to be a good boy and listen to me, okay?”
One of his brows shot up at this, “Plan? What plan?”
I narrowed my eyes at him, trying to look as evil as I could, “A secret plan, one which involves a lot of hidden intentions that may result in something totally…unspeakable.”
“Something…unspeakable?”, Yunho was smiling devilishly now, “Oo, mysterious. I like the sound of that.”
I wiggled my eyebrows, but the thought of how foolish I look made me fail to contain the laughter inside, and it burst out in torrents of stupid, girlish giggles. God I just hate myself sometimes.
Still giggling, I asked him, relishing in the way he held my body close to his own and was swaying us gently,
“Oh how can you do this and not die of embarrassment, Yunhoya?”
“Practice, baby, lots of practice.”
“With your lovers?”
He nodded, and I appreciated his honesty because good-intentioned lies would not have impressed me much, “Yes, and with Changmin. He accused me of butchering his lines…not that he invents any of it. Pfft.”
I chuckled, amused at the thought of Yunho sparring verbally with his younger brother.
“Changmin sounds interesting.”
Yunho made a constipated face, “Uh, no. Trust me, he’s not. He’s a brat who knows no respect for his only brother.”
“You love him nevertheless.”
“Sadly yes, I do. He better learn to appreciate me before I abandon him for a new younger brother.”
I laughed, “I know you don’t mean that.”
He smiled, agreeing to what I said without a word. Yunho was charming, adorable and loving to the people around him. I still can’t believe he was mine now. Just. Mine.
I tilted my head to the side, studying his face like he was the most delicate sculpture in the world and I’m the art connoisseur who was appraising his beauty,
“I want to know all of you, Yunho. Each and every inch of you. Are you ready to let me see all of you, Yunhoya? Because I am…I am ready to let you have all of me…each and every inch of me.”, the words tore breathlessly from my mouth before I could even think them out, and Yunho was wide-eyed, as surprised with my admission as I was myself.
Seconds passed and his eyes hooded visibly, as he gripped my waist tighter, “Let’s get out of the school now, baby, before I decide to do you right here and right now.”
*
Dinner was meatball pizza and cheesesticks downed with beers, because we were not patient enough to cook something before shoving our hands inside each other’s pants. It felt like my Cambridge years again, except we were not really drunk and I was completely besotted with this man who was straddling my hips and kissing me like tomorrow never comes.
“Yunhoya…baby…”, I gasped, holding his face away a little so I could breathe. My chest tightened when our eyes met, the desire I saw in his black-brown orbs a dark silk of want caressing my needs deliriously. I shivered with impatience and felt the urgent need to seek immediate satisfaction under the delicious attention of Yunho’s body, but something snapped inside my mind before I could pull him for another torrid kiss that would no doubt lead to something further and deeper. It had been too long since anyone sees me like this - with love, lust and affection - and because of that I didn’t want to rush and ruin our first time together. I wanted this to be meaningful and pleasurable for both of us, not something that we would look back and cringe afterward because we let our cocks think for us.
“Let’s slow down a bit, yeah? We…we have to shower first.”, I said, remembering that we were still in our work attire - shirts unbuttoned yet not fully off, and slacks unzipped and hanging loosely on our hips.
“Mnn…let’s just exercise a bit first…then we’ll take a shower.”, Yunho grinned naughtily at me before he swooped down to nip tiny kisses all over my face. I chuckled, amused at his childish way to distract me. Kicking him away playfully, I jumped off the couch and ran from his grabbing hands, sticking a tongue out like a tease he said I was. Hah. Yunho would never know what would hit him.
“Shower first before anything. We both smells, baby.”, I wrinkled my nose in distaste, and Yunho laughed, catching up to me easily with his long legs at his advantage. Long legs that I plan to worship with my mouth and hands later. Unff.
“I like how you smell, Jaejoong-ah…”, Yunho captured me in his arms and nuzzled my hair with his nose, and purposely blew puffs of air into my ear. I squirmed like a worm in heat, giggling and protesting noisily because it tickled and he was making me feel hot and cold in all the right places. He turned me around and pinned me against my bedroom door, laughter spilling from his mouth as he kissed me to shut me up.
“You talk too much.”
“And you don’t play fair.”, I pouted after he released me. We stood staring wordlessly at each other for what seemed like endless seconds, our lips swollen and eyes heavily-lidded from the drugging kisses we have shared. It took me a while to realize that he had pulled me inside my room and was undressing me slowly with patience I had not expected from him. He trailed his index finger along my skin as he uncovered me piece by piece, his eyes steadfastly glued on mine, face unsmiling yet I saw his throat moving every time his touches made my breath hitched.
“Baby let me touch you too…”, I shamelessly pleaded, but Yunho shook his head and held me still with a strong grip at my hips. I gripped back his hands that were holding me, feeling lightheaded at the situation we were in at the moment. I was fully naked; standing in all my glory in the middle of my room as Yunho slowly knelt in front of me.
Oxygen left my lungs at rapid speed when he suddenly pushed his face onto my front and inhaled deeply, his hot breaths tickling the skin under my navel. I felt my cock gradually came to life, lengthening and thickening as Yunho lapped the base and nipped the balls. I groaned out loud, screaming his name wantonly as I wrapped my fingers in his hair, and felt my brain cells fried and burned with every stroke of his skillful tongue.
“Yunhoya…no…God…fuck…”, I had to keep check not to just thrash and fuck his pretty mouth, because heaven help me I was so tempted to shove myself down his throat and let him take me as deep as he can. I closed my eyes in ecstasy, but Yunho was mumbling something with me in his mouth and I had to open them again to know what he was saying.
“What b-baby?”, I asked, and fuck he didn’t just let my cock go with a nasty, obscene ‘plop’ that should only happen in bad, cheap porn. It turned me on so much that I felt my knees going weak and I was holding his shoulders to stop myself from melting to the floor.
“I was saying ‘open your eyes and look at me’…”, Yunho said huskily, tonguing my hips with his warm tongue. I panted heavily, my cock still painfully aroused and needing his attention. I needed release so bad, but I couldn’t let myself go without him sharing this bliss with me.
“Baby, take off your clothes now…get naked…hurry…”
“I thought we’re going to shower first?” Gah, cheeky bastard. He left me high and wanting and he said that now?
“I’ve changed my mind. Bed first, then shower.”, I growled impatiently and Yunho chuckled, wiggling his butt my way as he shrugged off his slack. Slightly annoyed yet definitely turned on by his playful attitude, I grabbed his wrist and pushed him on the bed, crawling on top of him and kissing him hard on the lips.
“You’re a bigger tease than I am…”, I whispered against his lips, and he sighed contentedly as he opened his mouth wide to accept my searching tongue. Wonderful frictions drove both of us to the edge of sanity, and it felt like eternity as we rocked our bodies together, skins shimmering with sweat and flushed with the heat of our yearning.
“Jaejoong-ah…”
“Mnn?” Lick, suck and succumb. God I could do this forever, I swear nothing taste more delicious than Yunho’s sweetness.
“How are we going to do…this?”, Yunho looked flustered for a second, eyes shifty as he looked up at me. If I didn’t know better I would have said I saw a flicker of hesitance in his eyes, but I knew it was only a nervous tick that comes from doing something new. Nothing to get angry about, I had envisioned this happening because Yunho may not be used to the way I am in bed. Even without him telling me, I knew he had always been the dominant one with his previous partners - I could read as much from his body language. I wasn’t sure he knew though that I wasn’t strictly an uke or a seme; that I love to be either the giver or the receiver. I guessed it would take him some times to adjust to this new aspect of our relationship - and I didn’t want to freak him out by forcing my way with him. Sex is only pleasurable when both parties are enjoying it.
“I don’t mind either way…you choose, baby.”, I said softly as I brushed his hair off his forehead, pecking his lips lightly. Yunho relaxed visibly under me, and I shifted our bodies so he was on top of me instead. Licking my way down his neck, I gestured towards my side table, mumbling for him to get the necessities from the drawer. He didn’t know I had packed condoms and lubes to last us for months!
Jaejoong you’re one hell of a horny bastard, my mind chided me when I pinched Yunho’s butt as he glided across my body to reach his hand towards the drawer. I squealed in delight when he got the desired packets of condom and a bottle of non-fragrant lubricant, and wiggled impatiently as he flipped open the lid and poured a generous amount of gel onto his palm. Coating his fingers and letting the gel warmed slightly, he nudged my knees open, crawling in between my spread-eagled legs to prepare me for the ride.
“Ahh!”, the feel of Yunho’s finger probing my anus awakened a new blitz of emotions in me. How long had it been since someone touched me as intimately as this? I felt like a virgin again, shy and nervous under the ministration of a lover. Yunho kissed my inner thigh to calm me, whispering softly as he pushed his finger deeper, coaxing my body to open up and swallow the digit.
“Relax baby…take me in…God you’re beautiful like this, Jaejoong-ah…your body is perfect, perfect…just a bit more…yes, that’s it, baby…hmm…I’m adding another one in now, yeah…oh baby you’re so tight…hmm…”, he continued to cajole my body with whispers of sweet nothings, sucking and licking my cock periodically while pushing more of his fingers into me. I felt a sharp pain shoot through the base of my spine and up to my brain as his fingers pushed deeper, yet the pain turned into indescribable pleasure when my body finally opened up to take all of his three fingers in. He finger-fucked me while blowing me off, it was too much, too much, too much, not enough but too much…and before I knew it I came hard in his mouth, filling my loads down his warm throat.
I think time stalled for few seconds as my body heaved in harsh pants from the aftermath of my orgasm, his fingers still inside my butt. Fuckfuckfuck. I was seriously going to be brain-dead by the time he was through fucking me…for real.
“You swallowed.”, I said stupidly when I was finally breathing properly. Yunho chuckled, lapping my flaccid cock clean and making me moan in protest. It was all still too sensitive down there.
“And you taste good. Really, really good. Yummy Jaejoong. Mmm.”, Yunho teased huskily, licking his bottom lips as he winked at me. I laughed as I shoved his shoulder playfully, and caught him as he barreled backwards and nearly off the bed. I wonder when sex had become something fun and totally relaxing. I was losing my mind yet I was absolutely happy too, a foolish grin staying on my lips as he moved to cover me with his tall, beautiful body.
“You have such beautiful body, Yunhoya…”, my fingers danced up his muscled arms and down his back, clasping him tightly to my own thoroughly aroused body. I felt his hard length poking my thigh, and I knew this was it…our first joining. Yunho kissed my cheek and suckled my earlobe, telling me how much he loves me and asking permission to make love to me. I closed my eyes and nodded, and my whole body shivered in anticipation as he tore a packet of condom with his teeth and continued to glove his proud family treasure with the rubber. More lubricants spilled into his hand and down between legs, and before long I felt him at my entrance, pushing slowly but steadily inside.
“Look at me, baby…”, Yunho whispered, and my eyes snapped open upon hearing his husky, lust-laden voice. His eyes were slightly hooded as he pushed further in, inching his length deeper into me, touching my very core. I panted and gasped as waves of prickly sweet delight washed my senses over and over again, and I knew this was where our souls connected and made love. I held tighter to his shoulders, moving rhythmically with him as he rocked into my body at a firm pace. It became sort of a dance, our bodies meeting at a point and gyrating in a sinfully pleasurable way. The pace gradually quickened as our desires overloaded, and the sound of skin slapping against one another could have made the walls blushed if they were alive.
No words were said as we ride our love together, enveloped in the pursuit of the same mind-blowing burst of blissful oblivion. Yunho was definitely under my spell and I was all over his skin, the red ocean of love swallowing us both in its fiery intensity as he slammed hard into me and I cried his name out loud - and he came shuddering as I sputtered my seeds all over his abs and chest.
Perfect would not even cut it as we panted harshly in the heady post-sex scent of the room - but I wasn't planning to end this yet. Not just yet.
Moving my hands under the pillow for something I had hidden there the night before, I pulled out a small rectangular box and put it on Yunho’s chest. He looked at me in surprise, and I just grinned at his questioning gaze. I snuggled closer to him as he opened the box and took out a simple necklace with a square onyx pendant, similar to what I was wearing,
“For you, my lover.”
And the tearful kiss I had received told me, this was no doubt, the best day of my life.
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yunho ♥ jaejoong
chaptered | AU | nc-17
a/n: i tried. err. the longest chapter as yet - 4, 850 words. for cherryweds, because i miss her and i want to let her have this. enjoy? @_@
past chapters: [ one][ two][ three][ four][ five][ six][ seven][ eight][ nine][ ten]
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My heart couldn’t possibly feel fuller than this. Delightful tremors ran through my body from my head down to my toes. I was filled with the sensation of finally holding someone I’m absolutely smitten with, and it felt wonderful, too wonderful in fact. Yunho gazed up at me, eyes shiny and smile so wide it hurt just to look at him; and I knew then I had made the right decision. I had almost lost him due to my indecisiveness, and I was lucky he was still very much into this as he had been when he confessed to me.
I am undeniably head over heels in love with Jung Yunho. It felt liberating admitting it to myself; but nothing beats saying it to him and watching his face bloomed in sheer joy as he looked at me, in awe and slight trance.
“I’m stupid in love with you, do you know that?”, I asked breathlessly, brushing my lips softly along the puckered scar under his left eye, dragging small kisses along his strong jaw and sucking the sweet mole starring above his sweet, sweet lips. He smiled, fingers trailing through the thick of my locks as he angled my face so he could kiss me again, stealing all coherent thoughts from my brain by the gentle swipes of his tongue. Fuck how can he kiss so well?
“Me too. Stupid, crazy, deeply in love with you.”, he mouthed against my lips, eyelashes fluttering like butterflies against my cheek. I held him tighter, not wanting to part yet. This was mine, and he was mine. In this office where walls may have eyes and ears, our life together had started. This was where we first met, the first time our eyes had found each other and the red ribbon of fate had tied us together. I was suddenly filled with poignant thoughts of how it was so much like a destiny - he came stumbling into my life with spilled spaghetti sauce and changed me, made me want something more for myself and for him. The first day I saw him I knew that Yunho was different, awkward yet hardworking, clumsy yet adorable, and tough yet too kind for words. He was bitter and sweet rolled into one, a mesh of a man that was imperfect yet perfect for me to love and be loved by. I decided that I want no one else, ever again. He will be the end of me, whether he wanted it or not.
“Jaejoong-ah…”, he muttered softly against my neck as I brushed his hair, loving the feel of his slightly coarse black hair spilling through between my fingers.
“Hmm?”
He pushed me away slightly, holding me at arm-length so he could look straight into my eyes. His own were sharp, piercing questioning gaze that told me he would accept nothing but truth from me from now onwards. It matters not though, even if he doesn’t ask for it I would still give it to him, all of it - all of me.
“Why do you have to go away? You said you made the decision because of me, but I don’t quite understand what you meant by that.”
I inhaled a deep breath, smiling as I trailed a finger down Yunho’s cheek. His hard expression melted under my touch, and I saw him cracking a shy smile, his eyes crinkling to form little rainbows on his small face and I was thinking God he was just beautiful like this-
“When I said it was because of you, it was all the good reasons, Yunhoya. When I realized I am in love with you, I was elated but I didn’t know how to proceed from that point forward…I couldn’t possibly be with you when you’re my student and I’m your supervisor. As much as I would love to just throw professionalism out of the window, it bugs me, Yunho. I can’t look at you and be as objective as I should be, and it won’t be fair to the others in your group. I know myself better…I’d be distracted by you and I won’t be able to do my work properly. I’m not as good a teacher as I thought I am...”, I smiled weakly, and Yunho shook his head adamantly to deny my words.
“It’s okay, baby, I don’t regret it. Falling in love with my student was not in my agenda at all, but who knows what fate had blown into my office, huh? You stepped into my life and all my previous plan crumbled into insignificance, and I had to make up a new one to accommodate you and me in it.”, Yunho looked down at this, but I tilted his head up, wanting him to look at me and see that I would only offer honesty even if it hurts us,
“…don’t feel sorry, Yunho, I have no regret at all that I had to do this. How could I, when I got you for myself? You’re worth everything, baby, and you should know by now that when I do something, I do it thoroughly. Be it work or love, I treasure both and try to give my best because I’m lucky to be given the opportunity to have them. I’m lucky to have you…and I’m thankful enough to do everything in my power so we could be together and live comfortably. To be honest, I had been planning to get my PhD for ages, but I just never had the actual drive to do it. It seems befitting to pursue it now…and I already got a good recommendation letter from my previous associate professor in Cambridge to ease my way into Seoul University Education and Applied Linguistics Faculty…even the principal is supportive of my decision. Technically I’m still a teacher here, Yunho, it’s just I won’t be doing any real teaching from now on to make way for my studies’ workload. I’d still do departmental management work though, seeing that I can’t possibly leave Annie to sort out the mess by herself on such a short notice….and of course I won’t be your supervisor anymore and we won’t be seeing each other as much as we do now, which I think is a good thing because I don’t want you to play around like this.”, I smiled, tweaking the tip of his nose lightly.
“Oh.” A look of comprehension dawned on Yunho’s face as he smiled brightly, warm and honest.
“I was serious when I said I want this thing between us to work. You are too, right? I’m not alone in this, am I?”
He nodded as he caressed my arms, “Yes, I’m serious and you’re not alone in this. We are a team now…Yunho and Jaejoong. I will support you and make this work, I won’t let you down. You can count on me, Jaejoong-ah.”
“Good to hear that.”
“I can say that to you everyday for the rest of our life if you let me. Will you?”
“Will I what?”
“Let me love you for the rest of your life? All through forever and one day?”
I laughed and was pleasantly surprised at how joyful I sounded, unpretentious and free, “You’re cheesy, baby.”
“And you’re the cracker.”, he winked wickedly and I nearly tumbled off his lap as I guffawed louder at his super lame joke.
“God your sense of humor is so bad. I need to teach you how to make good jokes or risk dying young because of them.”
“I sure hope you’d teach me more than just good jokes.”, Yunho’s eyebrows went up suggestively at this, and I whacked his arm hard, snickering at his attempt of sexual innuendos. When I finally came down from my laughing high, I saw his eyes somewhat glazed as he pulled me closer so he could kiss me softly on the lips.
“Thank you Jaejoong-ah. I don’t know what good thing I’ve done in the past that made God thinks I deserve to have you, but I’m glad for whatever I did because nothing could compare to how grateful I am that you’re willing to love me and let me love you in return. I love you…there’s no one else but you.”
My heart was positively beating a happy fiesta inside my ribcage when I heard this, so I chuckled in reply, trying to hide the blush creeping on my face by nuzzling my nose childishly to his. Yunho grinned widely, and I was sure we shared the same feeling of contentment and bliss. Feel-good tears pricked behind my eyelids, my whole being overwhelmed by this wonder I held in my arms. Jung Yunho is my wonder and I’m his, I’m pretty sure of that.
“Jaejoong-ah…”
I saw Yunho glimpsed at the clock on the wall and paled, and realized I had just distracted him from his schedule, something that I had adamantly decided not to do in the first place. Shit shit shit. I knew my going away was the best thing to do - we are too easily distracted by each other to work at the same place. Hastily moving off his lap and pulling him back on his feet, I quickly shoved him towards the door, but the big block of muscles refused to budge, pouting as he demanded a kiss, “Just once more.”
“Later.”, I shrugged, face getting hot when I realized what a shameless imp I had become making out in the office during school hours!
“Now.”
“No.”
“Please..?”
“Yunho!”
“I want it now. So badly want. Please?”, Yunho pouted exaggeratedly, pawing my arm as if he was one big, fluffy cat. Unff. If I have ovaries I would have beg him to make cute little kitten babies with me now.
“You’re late for class! Aish!”, I slapped away his hands, a mock stern expression on my face. Yunho sighed resignedly, but as I leaned over to unlock the door, he sneakily kissed me on the cheek, catching me off guard and unprepared for the onslaught of blushing warmth spreading all over my body.
He giggled joyously as he slipped through the door, unabashedly saying out loud with an added wink, “I’ll see you later, sonsengnim. We have some unfinished business to settle.”, bowing once to Annie who was looking at me disapprovingly from above her glasses.
Oh just you wait, Jung Yunho, I’ll punish you hard for this.
Somehow that sounded kinky. Or maybe I just am. God. Yoochun would have a blast if he knew I giggled and blushed to myself like I was doing now.
*
I waited for the last bell to ring and saw the students filed out of the classroom, eager to go back home. The hall buzzed with busy chatters of the high-schoolers, and all of them bowed and greeted me politely as they walked past me, bidding me good night. I heard snippets of the rumor of my going away being discussed in hushed whispers among the students, and I just smiled - these kids amused me with their needs for gossips sometimes.
I leaned against the wall as I waited for Yunho to show up, because I had a special plan for him tonight. Straining my neck a little, I looked around for Yunho’s form to appear among the crowd of youngsters. It was relatively easy to spot him when he did, he just stood out like a sore thumb because of his height and build.
I waved at him once, expression soft yet still professional. We were still in school, so I had to play my part well. It wasn’t good to create a nasty rumor that would affect our image and mislead the students with all the unnecessary details of my coupling with Yunho. Yunho walked towards me with a smile, his steps purposeful and calm.
“How was your class, Yunho?”
“Quite good I’d say, Kim-sonsengnim, except when the radio didn’t work for the listening practice I’ve planned. Luckily I had thought of this possibility and prepared the listening excerpt so I could read it out loud in class.”
I nodded, approving his well prepared lesson plan, “I’m glad to hear you’ve thought about your lesson plan with anticipated problems in mind. You don’t know how often this kind of things happen in classroom, and it was always good to be over-prepared than under-prepared.”
Students and a few teachers milled around and walked past us, uninterested in the pedagogical stuffs we were talking about. I gestured to Yunho to follow me to the office, and he acquiesced without acting suspicious. Just as we entered my office, away from prying eyes of the nosy students and teachers, he pulled and turned me around to give me a full, sound kiss on the lips.
“God, you don’t know how beautiful you looked leaning against the wall and waiting for me like that. I nearly peed in my pants because I was so excited.”, Yunho admitted and I just giggled giddily, perfectly acting like a teenage boy stuck in a 33-year old man’s body. His lips searched for mine again but I turned my head at the last second, letting him kissed my cheek instead.
Yunho groaned, voice rough as he whispered into my ear, “You’re such a tease.”
I giggled again, all attempt of trying not to behave like a hormonal teen getting flushed down the gutter with every sharp intake of Yunho’s breath and the feel of his hands around my waist and trailing my back.
“I made plan for us tonight. So you have to be a good boy and listen to me, okay?”
One of his brows shot up at this, “Plan? What plan?”
I narrowed my eyes at him, trying to look as evil as I could, “A secret plan, one which involves a lot of hidden intentions that may result in something totally…unspeakable.”
“Something…unspeakable?”, Yunho was smiling devilishly now, “Oo, mysterious. I like the sound of that.”
I wiggled my eyebrows, but the thought of how foolish I look made me fail to contain the laughter inside, and it burst out in torrents of stupid, girlish giggles. God I just hate myself sometimes.
Still giggling, I asked him, relishing in the way he held my body close to his own and was swaying us gently,
“Oh how can you do this and not die of embarrassment, Yunhoya?”
“Practice, baby, lots of practice.”
“With your lovers?”
He nodded, and I appreciated his honesty because good-intentioned lies would not have impressed me much, “Yes, and with Changmin. He accused me of butchering his lines…not that he invents any of it. Pfft.”
I chuckled, amused at the thought of Yunho sparring verbally with his younger brother.
“Changmin sounds interesting.”
Yunho made a constipated face, “Uh, no. Trust me, he’s not. He’s a brat who knows no respect for his only brother.”
“You love him nevertheless.”
“Sadly yes, I do. He better learn to appreciate me before I abandon him for a new younger brother.”
I laughed, “I know you don’t mean that.”
He smiled, agreeing to what I said without a word. Yunho was charming, adorable and loving to the people around him. I still can’t believe he was mine now. Just. Mine.
I tilted my head to the side, studying his face like he was the most delicate sculpture in the world and I’m the art connoisseur who was appraising his beauty,
“I want to know all of you, Yunho. Each and every inch of you. Are you ready to let me see all of you, Yunhoya? Because I am…I am ready to let you have all of me…each and every inch of me.”, the words tore breathlessly from my mouth before I could even think them out, and Yunho was wide-eyed, as surprised with my admission as I was myself.
Seconds passed and his eyes hooded visibly, as he gripped my waist tighter, “Let’s get out of the school now, baby, before I decide to do you right here and right now.”
*
Dinner was meatball pizza and cheesesticks downed with beers, because we were not patient enough to cook something before shoving our hands inside each other’s pants. It felt like my Cambridge years again, except we were not really drunk and I was completely besotted with this man who was straddling my hips and kissing me like tomorrow never comes.
“Yunhoya…baby…”, I gasped, holding his face away a little so I could breathe. My chest tightened when our eyes met, the desire I saw in his black-brown orbs a dark silk of want caressing my needs deliriously. I shivered with impatience and felt the urgent need to seek immediate satisfaction under the delicious attention of Yunho’s body, but something snapped inside my mind before I could pull him for another torrid kiss that would no doubt lead to something further and deeper. It had been too long since anyone sees me like this - with love, lust and affection - and because of that I didn’t want to rush and ruin our first time together. I wanted this to be meaningful and pleasurable for both of us, not something that we would look back and cringe afterward because we let our cocks think for us.
“Let’s slow down a bit, yeah? We…we have to shower first.”, I said, remembering that we were still in our work attire - shirts unbuttoned yet not fully off, and slacks unzipped and hanging loosely on our hips.
“Mnn…let’s just exercise a bit first…then we’ll take a shower.”, Yunho grinned naughtily at me before he swooped down to nip tiny kisses all over my face. I chuckled, amused at his childish way to distract me. Kicking him away playfully, I jumped off the couch and ran from his grabbing hands, sticking a tongue out like a tease he said I was. Hah. Yunho would never know what would hit him.
“Shower first before anything. We both smells, baby.”, I wrinkled my nose in distaste, and Yunho laughed, catching up to me easily with his long legs at his advantage. Long legs that I plan to worship with my mouth and hands later. Unff.
“I like how you smell, Jaejoong-ah…”, Yunho captured me in his arms and nuzzled my hair with his nose, and purposely blew puffs of air into my ear. I squirmed like a worm in heat, giggling and protesting noisily because it tickled and he was making me feel hot and cold in all the right places. He turned me around and pinned me against my bedroom door, laughter spilling from his mouth as he kissed me to shut me up.
“You talk too much.”
“And you don’t play fair.”, I pouted after he released me. We stood staring wordlessly at each other for what seemed like endless seconds, our lips swollen and eyes heavily-lidded from the drugging kisses we have shared. It took me a while to realize that he had pulled me inside my room and was undressing me slowly with patience I had not expected from him. He trailed his index finger along my skin as he uncovered me piece by piece, his eyes steadfastly glued on mine, face unsmiling yet I saw his throat moving every time his touches made my breath hitched.
“Baby let me touch you too…”, I shamelessly pleaded, but Yunho shook his head and held me still with a strong grip at my hips. I gripped back his hands that were holding me, feeling lightheaded at the situation we were in at the moment. I was fully naked; standing in all my glory in the middle of my room as Yunho slowly knelt in front of me.
Oxygen left my lungs at rapid speed when he suddenly pushed his face onto my front and inhaled deeply, his hot breaths tickling the skin under my navel. I felt my cock gradually came to life, lengthening and thickening as Yunho lapped the base and nipped the balls. I groaned out loud, screaming his name wantonly as I wrapped my fingers in his hair, and felt my brain cells fried and burned with every stroke of his skillful tongue.
“Yunhoya…no…God…fuck…”, I had to keep check not to just thrash and fuck his pretty mouth, because heaven help me I was so tempted to shove myself down his throat and let him take me as deep as he can. I closed my eyes in ecstasy, but Yunho was mumbling something with me in his mouth and I had to open them again to know what he was saying.
“What b-baby?”, I asked, and fuck he didn’t just let my cock go with a nasty, obscene ‘plop’ that should only happen in bad, cheap porn. It turned me on so much that I felt my knees going weak and I was holding his shoulders to stop myself from melting to the floor.
“I was saying ‘open your eyes and look at me’…”, Yunho said huskily, tonguing my hips with his warm tongue. I panted heavily, my cock still painfully aroused and needing his attention. I needed release so bad, but I couldn’t let myself go without him sharing this bliss with me.
“Baby, take off your clothes now…get naked…hurry…”
“I thought we’re going to shower first?” Gah, cheeky bastard. He left me high and wanting and he said that now?
“I’ve changed my mind. Bed first, then shower.”, I growled impatiently and Yunho chuckled, wiggling his butt my way as he shrugged off his slack. Slightly annoyed yet definitely turned on by his playful attitude, I grabbed his wrist and pushed him on the bed, crawling on top of him and kissing him hard on the lips.
“You’re a bigger tease than I am…”, I whispered against his lips, and he sighed contentedly as he opened his mouth wide to accept my searching tongue. Wonderful frictions drove both of us to the edge of sanity, and it felt like eternity as we rocked our bodies together, skins shimmering with sweat and flushed with the heat of our yearning.
“Jaejoong-ah…”
“Mnn?” Lick, suck and succumb. God I could do this forever, I swear nothing taste more delicious than Yunho’s sweetness.
“How are we going to do…this?”, Yunho looked flustered for a second, eyes shifty as he looked up at me. If I didn’t know better I would have said I saw a flicker of hesitance in his eyes, but I knew it was only a nervous tick that comes from doing something new. Nothing to get angry about, I had envisioned this happening because Yunho may not be used to the way I am in bed. Even without him telling me, I knew he had always been the dominant one with his previous partners - I could read as much from his body language. I wasn’t sure he knew though that I wasn’t strictly an uke or a seme; that I love to be either the giver or the receiver. I guessed it would take him some times to adjust to this new aspect of our relationship - and I didn’t want to freak him out by forcing my way with him. Sex is only pleasurable when both parties are enjoying it.
“I don’t mind either way…you choose, baby.”, I said softly as I brushed his hair off his forehead, pecking his lips lightly. Yunho relaxed visibly under me, and I shifted our bodies so he was on top of me instead. Licking my way down his neck, I gestured towards my side table, mumbling for him to get the necessities from the drawer. He didn’t know I had packed condoms and lubes to last us for months!
Jaejoong you’re one hell of a horny bastard, my mind chided me when I pinched Yunho’s butt as he glided across my body to reach his hand towards the drawer. I squealed in delight when he got the desired packets of condom and a bottle of non-fragrant lubricant, and wiggled impatiently as he flipped open the lid and poured a generous amount of gel onto his palm. Coating his fingers and letting the gel warmed slightly, he nudged my knees open, crawling in between my spread-eagled legs to prepare me for the ride.
“Ahh!”, the feel of Yunho’s finger probing my anus awakened a new blitz of emotions in me. How long had it been since someone touched me as intimately as this? I felt like a virgin again, shy and nervous under the ministration of a lover. Yunho kissed my inner thigh to calm me, whispering softly as he pushed his finger deeper, coaxing my body to open up and swallow the digit.
“Relax baby…take me in…God you’re beautiful like this, Jaejoong-ah…your body is perfect, perfect…just a bit more…yes, that’s it, baby…hmm…I’m adding another one in now, yeah…oh baby you’re so tight…hmm…”, he continued to cajole my body with whispers of sweet nothings, sucking and licking my cock periodically while pushing more of his fingers into me. I felt a sharp pain shoot through the base of my spine and up to my brain as his fingers pushed deeper, yet the pain turned into indescribable pleasure when my body finally opened up to take all of his three fingers in. He finger-fucked me while blowing me off, it was too much, too much, too much, not enough but too much…and before I knew it I came hard in his mouth, filling my loads down his warm throat.
I think time stalled for few seconds as my body heaved in harsh pants from the aftermath of my orgasm, his fingers still inside my butt. Fuckfuckfuck. I was seriously going to be brain-dead by the time he was through fucking me…for real.
“You swallowed.”, I said stupidly when I was finally breathing properly. Yunho chuckled, lapping my flaccid cock clean and making me moan in protest. It was all still too sensitive down there.
“And you taste good. Really, really good. Yummy Jaejoong. Mmm.”, Yunho teased huskily, licking his bottom lips as he winked at me. I laughed as I shoved his shoulder playfully, and caught him as he barreled backwards and nearly off the bed. I wonder when sex had become something fun and totally relaxing. I was losing my mind yet I was absolutely happy too, a foolish grin staying on my lips as he moved to cover me with his tall, beautiful body.
“You have such beautiful body, Yunhoya…”, my fingers danced up his muscled arms and down his back, clasping him tightly to my own thoroughly aroused body. I felt his hard length poking my thigh, and I knew this was it…our first joining. Yunho kissed my cheek and suckled my earlobe, telling me how much he loves me and asking permission to make love to me. I closed my eyes and nodded, and my whole body shivered in anticipation as he tore a packet of condom with his teeth and continued to glove his proud family treasure with the rubber. More lubricants spilled into his hand and down between legs, and before long I felt him at my entrance, pushing slowly but steadily inside.
“Look at me, baby…”, Yunho whispered, and my eyes snapped open upon hearing his husky, lust-laden voice. His eyes were slightly hooded as he pushed further in, inching his length deeper into me, touching my very core. I panted and gasped as waves of prickly sweet delight washed my senses over and over again, and I knew this was where our souls connected and made love. I held tighter to his shoulders, moving rhythmically with him as he rocked into my body at a firm pace. It became sort of a dance, our bodies meeting at a point and gyrating in a sinfully pleasurable way. The pace gradually quickened as our desires overloaded, and the sound of skin slapping against one another could have made the walls blushed if they were alive.
No words were said as we ride our love together, enveloped in the pursuit of the same mind-blowing burst of blissful oblivion. Yunho was definitely under my spell and I was all over his skin, the red ocean of love swallowing us both in its fiery intensity as he slammed hard into me and I cried his name out loud - and he came shuddering as I sputtered my seeds all over his abs and chest.
Perfect would not even cut it as we panted harshly in the heady post-sex scent of the room - but I wasn't planning to end this yet. Not just yet.
Moving my hands under the pillow for something I had hidden there the night before, I pulled out a small rectangular box and put it on Yunho’s chest. He looked at me in surprise, and I just grinned at his questioning gaze. I snuggled closer to him as he opened the box and took out a simple necklace with a square onyx pendant, similar to what I was wearing,
“For you, my lover.”
And the tearful kiss I had received told me, this was no doubt, the best day of my life.
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